99 Paper Cranes

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

announcement: up to 60 chapters! pahihirapan ko muna si calvin sa story na ito bwahahhahaha

[tintin]

affected ako!!! huhuhuhu!

[Feelingerang Mo Mo [chunina]]

Takte! 60 go ate keisi! bwahahaha..
Dapat lang un kay Cal sa story noh! Bulag na, manhid pa! XD

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

madami pa pagdadaanan ang manhid na si calvin at ang freakingly stupid danson (bwahahaha ayan may spoiler na)

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 39 – Tender Surprises


A/N: and yes, I'm listening to Danson Tang's “The Most Tender Suspense” while writing this chapter. Of course, there are a lot of surprises here for our characters, most especially for Danson.

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“Come!” Jiro said as she pulled Kit towards the carousel. It was almost dark, and they are still enjoying their time together at the amusement part. “Wei... don't tell me you want to ride the carousel?” Kit told him. Jiro looked at her, and smiled. “Maybe later...” he said. He looked at the carousel, and then as a thought came into his head, he smiled. “Kit, let's make a bet.” he said as he turned to her. Kit gave him a curious look. “A bet?” she asked. Jiro nodded his head. “It's already dark, and the carousel isn't lighted up... see?” he said, pointing at the carousel. Kit just nodded her head. “It's not that dark yet...” she said. Then, Jiro gave her an evil smile. “If the carousel lighted up in 10 seconds, then you owe me a kiss.” he said. Kit eyed him, and then smirked at him. “And if not?” she asked. “I'll give you a piggy back ride.” he said. Kit smiled at him and nodded his head. “It's a deal.” she said.

As they turned to the carousel, they made a countdown. Jiro was getting worried, as he thought that the carousel wouldn't light up in 10 seconds. “Four... three... two...” he heard Kit said. Jiro closed his eyes and began to pray. “Please light up... please...” he said to himself. “One.” As he opened his eyes, the carousel lighted up. He was surprised at what happened. Seems that luck is on his side today. “Aha! It lighted up!” he said. Kit looked at him and then laughed. “But you were scared it wouldn't...” she said. Jiro put his arms around her waist, and then smirked at her. “And for my prize?” he said. Kit laughed at him again, and then she kissed him on the lips. “Satisfied?” Kit asked. Jiro smiled and nodded his head. “More than satisfied.” he said. He put his arm on her shoulder and they watched at the carousel as it spins around.“Aren't we going to ride the carousel?” Kit asked him. “Of course we will.” he said as he looked at her. “And I'll give you a piggy back ride.” he said. He knelt down in front of him, and then Kit hopped on his back. “Wei... why are you so heavy? You should diet, Tin...” he said as he carried her. “Don't complain now... just bring me to the carousel.” she said. Then, Jiro walked to the carousel, carrying his girlfriend behind him.

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As soon as he dialed the number on his phone, Danson put it on his ear and waited until someone picks it up. “Hallo...” someone answered in a German accent. “Hi... good evening. May I please speak with Ms. Hannah Tan?” he asked. “Oh, Ms. Hannah? She left a while ago...” the person on the other line said. Danson's face fell upon hearing what he said. “Oh... I see...” he said in a weak voice. “Would you like to leave a message, sir?” Danson shook his head. “Please tell her that Danson Tang called...” he said. Then he ended the call. For a while, he looked at his phone, wondering what's happening to Hannah. “Is she mad at me?” he thought. He knows it wasn't a good thing to joke about him having a crush on her. He never thought that Hannah would take it seriously. “Why aren't you calling me, Hannah?” he said in a low but frustrated tone. He is getting worried about her friend. Just then, Chun came. “Hey, Dannie boy!” he greeted in his most cheerful tone. Danson just looked at him, and then looked at his phone again. “Aiyo... why the sad face, Dannie boy?”he asked. Danson looked up at him and gave him a glare. “Don't start teasing me, Wu Ji Chun.” he threatened. Chun held his hands up in the air, as if shielding himself. “Wei... cool down, Danson Tang Yu Zhe. Don't lash it out on me.” he said. Then, Chun looked at his hand, and saw him holding his phone. He smirked as he looked at his hand. “So... Dannie boy wasn't able to talk to Hannah again, huh?” he thought. Then, he decided to play a little trick on his friend.

“Danson... can I borrow your phone for a while?” he asked. Danson gave him a confused look. “What for?” he asked. “I want to make sure that you don't have any sex videos on your phone.” he joked. But, Danson didn't looked amused at him, as he gave him death glares in return. “I am not like you, Wu Ji Chun.” he said in a firm tone. “Wei... just let me borrow your phone, OK?” he said. He moved towards him, and then took his phone by force. To his surprise, Danson didn't even stopped him. “Just return it to me when you're finished.” Danson said instead. Then, he turned to leave Chun alone. As soon as his friend is out of sight. He dialed the last number that Danson called.

Meanwhile, in Vienna...

Hannah entered the door of the dormitory, with several books on her arm. “Good evening, Ivan!” she greeted the dorm's receptionist. “Good evening, Ms. Hannah!” he said. Hannah smiled at him before walking up to the stairs. As she made another step to the stair, Ivan suddenly remembered about the call he received a few minutes ago. “By the way, Ms. Hannah...” she heard Ivan said. Hannah paused and looked at him. “A certain Danson Tang called you a few minutes ago...” he said. Upon hearing Danson's name, Hannah's lips turned to a smile. “Danson...” she mumbled under her breath. She have been avoiding Danson lately because she got pissed off with him asking her to find him a girlfriend. She doesn't know why, but she got jealous every time Danson brings up that topic. Just then, the phone rang. Hannah watched Ivan as he walked over his post and answer the call. “Hallo... yes... hold on for a second.” Then, Ivan turned to her and smiled. “It's for you...” he said. Hannah smiled and nodded her head. She followed Ivan to the counter, and then put the book on top of the counter before taking the phone from his hand. She know it's Danson, and she just have to stop avoiding his calls. After all, she missed talking to her friend.

“Hello...” she said. “Hello, is this Hannah Tan?” she heard a girl's voice said. Hannah wrinkled her brows, wondering who the caller is. “This is Hannah... who is this?” she asked. “This is Charlene Choi. I am Danson's girlfriend.” she heard the person on the other line said. Hannah was surprised at what she head. “What?! Danson have a girlfriend?” she wanted to shout. Hannah breathed in as she tried to speak. “G-girlfriend?”
“You heard it right. I am Danson's girlfriend...”
“Ow-key... so what can I do for you?”
“I want you to stop bothering my boyfriend, Hannah.”
That moment, she felt her vein popping out of her head. “Bothering your boyfriend? Bothering your boyfriend?” she shouted on the phone. Her voice was too loud, that even Ivan was startled by her. “I am not bothering your boyfriend! Why would I bother your boyfriend?! The hell I care about that... that... that hateful Danson Tang Yu Zhe!” she shouted again. “Look, dearie...” she heard the other person on the line say. “I know that you don't care about my boyfriend, but he still does. So please, just stay away from Danson.” that 'Charlene' said. Hannah is now mad. It's as if she is talking to Trixie on the phone. “Fine!” she shouted. “You can have your boyfriend all by yourself! I don't care! Tell him not to call me here in Vienna anymore!” she said. Then, 'Charlene' ended the call. Hannah could just look at the handset. She is really mad at Danson. She did her best to cheer him up when he is sad about his situation with Kit, she was worried about him most of the time. All this time, she never thought that Danson would replace Kit in his life that easily. “Stupid Danson...” she mumbled to herself. “I hate you! I hate you! IhateyouIhateyouIhateyou!”she shouted on the phone. Then, she banged it on the table, to Ivan's surprise.

Then, she looked at Ivan, who was surprised at what she did. “When that Danson Tang calls again, tell him to go to hell!” she said to him. “M-ms. Hannah...” Ivan said as she walked away from him. “Must you lash your jealousy on the phone?” he asked. Then, Hannah came back to the counter, and then took her books. “I forgot these...” she said as she glared at Ivan.

Back in Taiwan...

As soon as Chun ended the call, he laughed. He never thought that Hannah would react that way. “I knew it...” he said. “I knew it all along!”

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blossom_princess12 says: ((nudge))
blossom_princess12 says: hannah, are you there?
lullabyangel says: I am here, kit...
blossom_princess12 says: finally...
blossom_princess12 says: what happened to you?
blossom_princess12 says: we were worried about you...
blossom_princess12 says: especially danson
lullabyangel says: please do not... I repeat... DO NOT speak that freakingly stupid guy's name ever again!

Kit wrinkled her brow as she read Hannah's message. “What's wrong with her?” she thought.

blossom_princess12 says: owkey...
blossom_princess12 says: I won't say that freakingly stupid guy's name again
lullabyangel says: good.
lullabyangel says: how are you lately, kit?
blossom_princess12 says: i'm doing fine...
lullabyangel says: are you sure?
blossom_princess12 says: yes...
lullabyangel says: glad to hear that...
lullabyangel says: I heard calvin's courting joy?
blossom_princess12 says: actually...
blossom_princess12 says: they finally got together...
lullabyangel says: WHAT???
lullabyangel says: how are you coping with it?
lullabyangel says: are you ok?
blossom_princess12 says: I am...
blossom_princess12 says: they've been together for a month now...
lullabyangel says: oh, kit...
lullabyangel says: I wish I was there for you...
blossom_princess12 says: well, it did hurt, hannah...
blossom_princess12 says: but I realized that I have to move on
blossom_princess12 says: and I have to let other people love me as well...
blossom_princess12 says: the fact will still remain that calvin will never learn to love me
blossom_princess12 says: since he only sees me as a friend...
lullabyangel says: so you're saying that...

As Hannah typed her message, she was thinking of ways to tell Kit that Danson already have a girlfriend so that she won't give him a chance. After all, he wasn't completely honest with her.

blossom_princess12 says: this may sound weird...
blossom_princess12 says: remember the childhood friend I told you about?
blossom_princess12 says: the guy I saved before?
lullabyangel says: yep
lullabyangel says: I remember
lullabyangel says: jay, right?
blossom_princess12 says: right
blossom_princess12 says: I found him
blossom_princess12 says: on the night that joy answered calvin...
lullabyangel says: really?
blossom_princess12 says: and you wouldn't believe who he is...
lullabyangel says: who?
blossom_princess12: it's jiro...

Hannah was surprised at what she have learned. “Jiro is Jay? That's freakingly weird!” she thought.

lullabyangel says: jiro?
lullabyangel says: as in jiro wang?
blossom_princess12 says: yes
lullabyangel says: I... i'm surprised...
blossom_princess12 says: I am too...
lullabyangel says: so...
blossom_princess says: he said that he loved me all this time...
blossom_princess says: and I felt guilty because I am the cause of joy's heartache...
lullabyangel says: it's not your fault that jiro still loved you
lullabyangel says: it's jiro's fault that he could not forget you
lullabyangel says: anyways
lullabyangel says: she also broke your heart, right?
blossom_princess12 says: she never knew that I am in love with calvin
lullabyangel says: you never knew that jiro is jay
lullabyangel says: that made you two even...
lullabyangel says: so does that mean that... you know... you and jiro...
blossom_princess12 says: I realized that chun is right
blossom_princess12 says: that is should give other people a chance to love
blossom_princess12 says: and so I gave jiro that chance

Hannah was surprised at Kit's news, and she was happy for her friend.

lullabyangel says: oh my god!
lullabyangel says: that's great!
lullabyangel says: i'm so happy for you!
blossom_princess12: thanks...
lullabyangel says: at least you didn't end up with that two-timing
lullabyangel says: cheating
lullabyangel says: stupid
lullabyangel says: freakingly stupid guy
blossom princess12 says: wei...
blossom princess12 says: why are you mad at danson?

Before Hannah could explain everything to Kit, she saw Danson's name pop up on MSN. “He's online...” she thought as she panicked. She knows Danson will try his best to talk to her, and she's not in the mood to talk to him yet.

lullabyangel says: gotta go
lullabyangel says: will call you tomorrow

lullbyangel is now offline

Kit was surprised that Hannah left. “What's wrong with her?” she thought. She looked at the corner of screen, and saw Danson's name pop up. She clicked on his name and began to chat with him.

blossom_princess12 says: what did you do to hannah?

Danson was surprised at Kit's question. “What did I do? I haven't done anything yet!” he said. Then, he typed his reply to Kit.

rockerdt0902 says: I haven't done anything
rockerdt0902 says: I am just trying to reach her
rockerdt0902 says: that's all
blossom_princess12 says: then why did she call you a two-timing, cheating, freakingly stupid guy?
rockerdt0902 says: you talked to her?
rockerdt0902 says: is she online?
blossom_princess12 says: a while ago, yes
blossom_princess12 says: but she left
rockerdt0902 says: I haven't done or said anything yet
rockerdt0902 says: I swear, kit...
blossom_princess12 says: did you try to call her?
rockerdt0902 says: yes I did....

Danson reached for his phone and then looked at his call log. To his surprise, it registered there a call to Hannah's dormitory that's much longer that his first call. “Wait...” he said. Then, he remembered that Chun borrowed his phone a while ago.

rockerdt0902 says: I am going to kill chun tomorrow
rockerdt0902 says: I SWEAR!!!!

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The next day, Jiro decided to go over at Kit's house and pick her up. “What are you doing here?” Kit asked as she got out of the gate. “Well... I want to drive my girlfriend to school...” Jiro said. “Good thing Cal went to school early, or he'll get suspicious with you being here...” Kit said. Jiro just smiled at her. “Then, I'll tell him that Danson was supposed to pick you up but he's not available... so he sent me instead...” he said. Kit just laughed at him. “Well, good thing you will drive me to school as my daddy dearest will be borrowing my car. Shall we go?” she said. Jiro smiled and nodded his head. They walked towards his car, and as she reached for the door, Kit paused and realized something. “Wei...” she said as she turned to him. “Aren't you going to open the door for me?” she asked. Jiro just gave her a smirk. “Why should I? You're a big girl now, Tin.” she said. Kit just pouted at him. “And I thought you're a gentleman...” she said in a hurt tone. She turned her back on him and then slowly opened the door. As soon as she opened it, she was surprised to see a big teddy bear inside, and a bouquet of peach roses. Jiro know that his girlfriend was surprised at what she saw. “Wei... what's keeping you? Get inside, will you?” he said. Kit stood up straight and then smiled at him. “Is that bear for me?” she asked, pointing at the bear. He looked at the bear, and then gave her another smirk. “That wasn't there a while ago!” he said. Kit just laughed at him, and then hit him slightly on his arm. “Jay!” she said. Jiro laughed, and then put his arm around her. “Of course it's for you. It's my little surprise for you...” he said to her ear. Kit looked up at him and smile. “Thank you...” she said. “Thank you for always surprising me...” Jiro smiled and then planted a kiss on her cheek. “Anything for you, my princess...” he said. Kit couldn't but giggle at him.

“Shall we go?” he asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. Jiro helped Kit inside the car. He suggested on putting the teddy bear at the back seat, but Kit insisted on holding on to it. As they were on their way, Kit was silent, and Jiro noticed this. “Anything wrong, Tin?” he asked. Kit looked at him and gave him a faint smile. “Chun knew about us...” she said. Jiro turned his eyes on the road and then smiled. “Is that a good thing, or a bad thing?” he asked. “I don't know... but still... I told him the truth...”
“What if he tells Calvin and Joy about us?”
“Chun know how complicated our situation is. He promised to keep it until we're ready to tell them about us...”
“I can't understand why we can't tell Calvin and Joy about us. I don't think Joy would be mad because I can see she have moved on...”

Jiro sighed and shook his head. Kit paused and just looked at Jiro. “Jay...” she said. “Calvin... he... he didn't really like you...” she confessed. Jiro fell silent upon hearing that. He could not blame Calvin if he'll get mad when he learned that he is Jay. After all, she made his best friend wait for a long time. “Is... is it because of what I did in the past?” he asked as he looked at her. Kit slowly nodded his head. “Then, the more that we should tell him about us. So that I could prove to him that I really love you...” he said. “I don't know what he'll do t you if he found out...” Kit said. Jiro looked at her and sighed in frustration. “Kit... we can't hide this forever from them. One day, we have to tell them about us. I want the whole to know that I am in love with you.” he said. Kit lowered her head, and then held his hand. “Jay... please understand... I don't want any conflicts between you and Cal. I know you wouldn't want me to have a rift with Joy as well, right?” she said. Jiro realized that Kit is right. Although he knew that Joy have moved on by being Calvin's girlfriend, he wouldn't know what Joy would do to Kit if she found out that Kit is Tin. “I guess you're right...” he said in a low voice. “Let's just wait for a perfect moment to tell them about us. But we have to tell Danson about us...” Jiro said. Then, he looked at her and smiled. “I don't want him to get hurt and be mad at me if he finds out that I am your boyfriend.” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head in agreement. “Let's tell Danson about us later...” she said. Jiro smiled, and squeezed her hand.

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“Wu Ji Chun!” Danson said as soon as he saw Chun at the hallway. Chun knew that by now, Danson have already found out about the prank he did yesterday. “Look, Dannie boy... I can explain.” he said as he looked at him with fear. Danson did not heed him, instead he gave him dagger looked and marched towards him. Afraid of what he will do, Chun began to ran away from him, and Danson chased him. They chased each other until they reached the parking lot. At that moment, Kit and Jiro were getting out of the latter's car, and as soon as he saw Kit, Chun immediately hid behind me. “Kitty.... protect me from Danson!” he pleaded. Kit and Jiro gave the two a confused look. “What's wrong?” Jiro asked the two. Then, Jiro looked at Danson, who looked really mad. “Why do you want to kill Chun today?” Kit asked. “That freakingly stupid guy! He called Hannah yesterday and said something that she got mad at me!” he said. Kit gave Chun a questioning look. “Did you call Hannah, Chun?” she asked. Chun nodded his head. “I did a prank yesterday...” he confessed. Upon hearing that, Danson charged at Chun, but Chun hid behind Kit. Before Danson could hurt Chun (especially Kit), he stopped Danson. “You stupid bastard!” Danson shouted at Chun. “What did you say to Hannah?” he asked. “Hey... calm down, Dan...” Jiro said as he stopped him. Chun looked at him and smirked. “And why are you affected if I said anything to Hannah?” he asked. Danson wanted to attack Chun, but Jiro held both of his arm. “Tell me, you stupid, idiot, useless bastard!” Danson shouted at him again. Kit glared at Chun. “Wei... tell us what did you do yesterday...” she said.

Chun got out from Kit's back, and then faced Danson. “I pretended to be Charlene... your girlfriend...” he confessed. Kit was trying to control her laughter upon hearing what he said. Meanwhile, Danson looked at him furiously. “You did what? What did you say to her?” he demanded. Instead of answering, Chun hid behind Kit again. “Why did you do that, Chun?” Jiro asked, confused with what's going on. “It's just a prank!” Chun wailed. “But it's not a good prank, Chunnie. Look what you did... Hannah is obviously mad at Danson...” Kit told him. “Did you know how long I have been trying to reach Hannah? When you were able to talk to her, you pretended to be someone else just to play around!” Danson shouted at him. Kit looked at Chun, and gave him an I-told-you-so look. “So, you have to call Hannah and explain to him that you were just tricking him. Although I really don't understand why you did that.” she said to Chun.

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Calvin hid the bouquet of roses behind him as he waited for Joy to come out of the classroom. As soon as the bell rang, the students came out of the room, and Joy tailed behind them. Joy was both surprised and happy to see Calvin waiting for him. “What are you doing here?” she asked as she smiled at him. Calvin smiled back at her. “Waiting for my girlfriend, of course.” he said. “And I thought you have to make a research for the upcoming debate try-outs?” she asked. “That can wait... but this...” he said as he showed her the bouquet of roses. “they can't wait...” he said. Joy was surprised to see the bouquet of roses that he gave her. She doesn't know how many roses he have brought, but she's sure that it's more than a dozen. “Wow... so many roses... these are all for me?” she asked. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. “100 roses all in all. Why don't you count them?” he said. Joy smiled and nodded her head. Then she counted the roses, and Calvin watched her she counted the roses. He saw her wrinkle her bows as she counted the last few pieces. “98... 99...” she said. Then she looked up at him, frowning. “Wei, Calvin Chen, are you fooling around? You said it's 100 roses. Why is it only 99?” she asked again. Calvin just gave her a smirk. “Count again.” he said. Joy looked at the roses, and counted it. She is really sure that the bouquet only contains 99 roses. “It's 99 roses, Cal!” she said to him. Calvin gave her another smirk. “Are you sure? Try counting again...” he said. Joy began to count again, but it's still the same. This time, Joy glared at him. “Wei... it's really 99 roses. Why did you say its 100?” she asked.

Calvin smiled at her, and then he put his hand on her shoulder. “Because...” he said. Then, his hand reached to her ear, and pulled another rose. “You are my hundredth rose, Joy...” he said. Joy could only smile as he handed her the hundredth rose. She felt giddy at what he said, and he could see that Joy blushed as he gave her the last rose. “Thank you...” she said as she took the rose on his hand. “See.. now you have 100 roses...” he said. Then, Joy gave Calvin a kiss on the lips, and Calvin hugged her tight.

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The classes have ended, and Danson was left alone in the classroom to take down notes. As soon as he was finished, he heard his phone ring. “Hello?” he said as he took it. “Hi, Dannie boy!” he heard a familiar voice on the other line. Danson's lips curved into a smile as he heard that sweet voice. “Hannah?” he said. “Finally! You called! Did you know how worried I am about you?” he said. He heard Hannah giggle on the other line, and at that moment, he felt more than happy to hear her voice again. “Chun explained everything to me. I should've known it was him all along... I was too gullible to believe that he is 'Charlene', your girlfriend...”
“Of course, you are. I don't have a girlfriend yet. You should know that...”
“I know... I know... so will you forgive me for not trusting you?”
Danson smiled to himself. “Now that I've heard your voice... I'm willing to forget everything...” he said. “Anyway, what happened to you?” he asked. “I was busy finding you a hot Austrian girlfriend, that's why I wasn't able to call you...”
“Actually, you really don't have to find me a girlfriend there. I was just joking around the other time.”
“And I thought you were really serious...”
“I realized I don't need a hot Austrian girlfriend. I have you, and that should matter, right?”
“Aiyo! Stop teasing me now. Just promise me that if you got yourself a girlfriend, you'll tell me first, OK?”
“Of course, I will. I will tell you once I meet a girl that I would really like.”
“Great! Anyway, I'll call you later. Need to sleep now...”
“OK.. sleep tight. I lo-”
Danson paused before he could speak those three words that he is not supposed to say. “I miss you.” he said instead. “Miss you too, Dannie. Talk to you later.... or tomorrow...”

As soon as Danson ended the call, he saw Chun standing by the door. “Awww... that's so sweet of you, Dannie boy!” Chun said. Danson glared at him. “Don't start, Chun... just don't start...” he threatened. Chun smirked at him, and then took the seat beside him. “I didn't start it, you did.” Chun said. Danson just ignored him, and continued writing something on his notebook.. Chun took a peek on his notebook, and saw that he was writing Hannah's name in fancy fonts. “You know what the problem is, Dannie boy? You don't want to admit what you really feel inside your heart...” Chun said.Danson looked at him, confused at where is getting at. “What do you mean don't want to admit? I know what I feel...” he said. Chun folded his arm. “Are you sure?” he asked. Danson just nodded his head. “So tell me... who do you like most? Kit or Hannah?” Chun asked. Then, Danson paused, not able to answer his question right away. “Kit?” he said. “Why are you asking me?”
“I like Kit.”
“Sure?”
“Sure...”
“Why do I feel that you are unsure with your answer. You seem confused with your choice.”
“I like Kit even though she can't return my feelings for her.”
“And what do you feel for Hannah?”

Danson just looked at Chun, as if asking him for the right answer. “What do I feel for Hannah?” he asked in a confused tone. “She is special...” he said in a low voice.. “Why is she special if she is just a friend?” Chun asked again. Danson turned away from Chun, for he can't answer his question. “Look, Danson...” Chun said in a more serious tone. “I've seen the two of you together. When she's still here, you would rather hang out with her that with us. When you find something fun, you would always include her. You care for her more than how you care for Kit. When you look at her there's this spark in your eyes that I couldn't explain. You always encourage her, giving her small surprises, helping her out even in her littlest tasks. You run to her when you're sad, when you're mad, when you want someone to listen to you. You hold her and protect her, as if telling the whole world that he is yours to keep. Tell me, with all those thing I've told you, do you think it's something that only a friend would do?” Chun said. Then, he sighed and shook his head. “I don't think so...”

Slowly, Danson realized what Chun is trying to tell him. He realized that Chun is right, that there is something that's in his heart that he didn't want to acknowledge at all, maybe because he is too blind or too stupid to see it. He is in love with Hannah all this time, and Chun have to spell it out for him. “I love Hannah...” he said in a low voice. The, Chun saw him turn into a smile. “I loved Hannah all this time...” he said. Chun smiled and sighed with relief. “Finally, at least you figured it all out by yourself. “Yes, you love Hannah. You love her since you got close to her, but you don't want to admit it because you've always thought that you are in love with Kit, when you only see Kit as just a friend.” Chun said. Then, Danson looked up at him, and Chun saw the smile slowly fade on his face. “I am in love with Hannah... but he loves...”
“Calvin?”
Danson nodded his head. Chun shook his head, and sighed with dismay. “Wei... either you're blind or just plain stupid...” he said. “What do you mean?” Danson asked in a confused tone. “Hannah is obviously in love with you.”Chun said to him. Danson could only give him another confused look. “She is?”
“Can't you see how she's rather be with you all this time? She would rather call you than call us... Can't you see how happy she is whenever she is with you? Can't you also see how giddy she is whenever anyone of us speaks your name? She managed to know everything about you, and she cares for you more that anything else in this world. I doubt it if she would be willing to be Calvin's girlfriend if he courted her... maybe she only confessed her feelings for Calvin that time because she wanted you to have the courage to confess to Kit as well. That's all... but I know... I could feel... she loves you.” Chun said.

Then, Chun smiled at him and patted his back. “Now that you realized that you love Hannah, then go and pursue her. Tell her how you feel...” he suggested. Danson just smiled at him. “Of course, I can't tell her now. Not over MSN or over the phone. I want to tell her how I feel in person...” Danson said. “So you'll be waiting until her return here in Taipei? Wei! That's four years from now!” Chun said. Dansaon looked at him and smiled. “I can always go to Vienna, can't I?”

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The next day...

It was way past lunch when Kit's seminar ended. She rushed to her locker to get her things for her next class, and as she opened it, she saw a small lunch box with a note on it. Kit smiled to herself as she took the note attached to the lunch box.

I know you're quite busy today, but don't forget to eat, OK?
I love you my princess... ( ^ _ ^ )

Jay [your prince charming]

Kit laughed after reading his note. Then, she took the lunch box, and opened it. She saw that the food inside was arranged to form a heart. “He's so sweet...” she said to herself. “Who's sweet?” she heard someone say. She looked behind her, and saw Jiro standing. “Wei... I left that lunch box two hours ago... and you still haven't started eating the food?” Jiro asked. “Sorry Jay... my seminar just ended today...” she said as she gave him puppy eyes. Jiro just smiled at her. “I understand. Come on let's find a place to sit so that you could have your lunch, OK?” he said. Kit smiled and nodded his head. Jiro put his arm around her, and then they walked together.

On their way, they bumped into Danson and Chun. Danson was surprised to see Jiro and Kit together, and he was more surprised to see his arm around her protectively. “He guys...” he said in a confused tone. Kit looked up at Jiro worriedly, and Jiro just gave her an assuring smile. “Don't worry... I think its about time that we tell him...” he said. Kit just nodded her head, then she looked at Danson again. She saw Chun nudging him, and as Danson looked at Chun patted his back. “They have something to tell you... and I think you have something to tell Kit as well. I'll leave you guys alone for a while...” he said. Then, he left the three alone in the hallway.

“Danson.... there's something you should know about me and Kit...” Jiro began. Danson just nodded his head and began to listen to him. “I told you about Tin before... and I've told you about how I feel about her....” Jiro said Danson nodded his head again. “Yes, I know about Tin... but what does it have to do about Kit?” he asked. “Dan... I am Tin...” Kit said. Then, she looked up at Jiro and smiled. “And I decided to give Jay another chance...”

--

“So, what did you say to Kit after you found out that they are finally together?” Hannah asked Danson over the phone. Danson plopped on his bed before he answered her question. “Well, I told them that I am happy for them, and I'm giving them my blessing...” he said in a sad tone. He heard Hannah sigh on the other line. “Oh, Danson... you must be really heartbroken right now... I wish I could do something for you...” she said. Danson smiled to himself. Chun is right. Hannah cares for her more than anyone else. “I'll be OK, Hannah. I just have to accept the fact that Kit and I will never be together...” he said. “Besides, I know the right girl is just out there... right in Vienna.” he said, hinting on his feelings for her. He heard Hannah laugh on the other line, and he as she laughs, it seems like he is falling more in love with her. “OK, OK... I'll find you a girlfriend here. But I must warn you about long distance relationships.” she said. “You don't need to find me a girlfriend just to make me feel better. Why don't you just sing for me? Maybe I'll feel better after that...”
“Are you sure you want to hear me sing?”
“More than sure.”

He heard her sigh again, and then giggle. “OK, but I must warn you. I am not a good singer.” she said. “I don't mind at all...” he said. Then, Hannah began to sing.

I'll take care of you
Don't be sad, don't be blue
Cause I'll never break your heart in two
Cause I'll take care of you
I'll kiss your tears away
And I'll end your lonely days
All that I'm really trying to say
Is I'll take care of you...

“That's a nice song... thank you for serenading me...” he said. Then, he yawned. He know for himself that he is sleepy, but he was trying his best to stay awake so that he could talk to Hannah longer.”Wei... you're already sleepy. Better get some shut-eye so that you won't be late tomorrow.” Hannah said. “Okie-dokie. Take care of yourself there...”
“I sure will... And Danson...”
“Yes?”
“Always remember that no matter how far I am, I will always be here for you no matter what.”

Danson smiled upon hearing what he said. “Thanks, Hannah...” he said. “Night. Goodbye...” he heard her say before the call ended. “I love you Hannah...” he said, even though he knows that Hannah have ended the call. He closed his eyes to slumber, hoping to dream of Hannah again.

Meanwhile, Hannah looked at her phone after she ended the call. She stared at the wallpaper of her phone, which is a picture of her and Danson. “I love you Danson...” she said as she kissed the screen of her phone.

[Feelingerang Mo Mo [chunina]]

Chun!!
Please lang, mag-heart-to-heart talk / i-enlighten mo lang si Calvin
nung parang ginawa mo kay Danson nang ma-realize nia ang mga bagay na dapat niang ma-realize.

Okay, carried away na naman..
Pasenxa na, author. bwahahaha.. bitin sa update. 10 pages amp

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

una sa lahat, d magiging posible tong chapter 40 kung wala ang tulong ni josche. Girl, thanks sa idea!

up now, Chapter 40...

may revelation kaya si Calvin?



Chapter 40 – His Selfishness



\Danson.... there's something you should know about me and Kit...” Jiro began. Danson just nodded his head and began to listen to him. “I told you about Tin before... and I've told you about how I feel about her....” Jiro said Danson nodded his head again. “Yes, I know about Tin... but what does it have to do about Kit?” he asked. “Dan... I am Tin...” Kit said. Then, she looked up at Jiro and smiled. “And I decided to give Jay another chance...”

Danson looked at them, surprised at what they said. He could not believe the turn of events. First, he found out that Kit is the paper crane girl. Then, Jiro and Joy broke up because of Tin. Then, Calvin and Joy got together, and he is somewhat wondering how Joy could have easily moved on. And then, this – Kit's revelation that she is Tin. “You are Tin?” Danosn asked Kit in disbelief. Kit smiled and nodded his head. “And... and the two of you...” Jiro smiled at him, and then looked lovingly at Kit. “Yes, we're together now...” he said. “Together after 10 years of suffering.” Danson smiled at them, but his mind is somewhat confused. He is happy that Jiro found Tin, finally. He is happy that he sees Kit happy with him. But the fact still remains that Kit is in love with Calvin - or have she finally gave up on him? “B-but Kit...” he said as he turned to her. “Danson...” he heard Jiro say. “I know that you love Kit. I know that you've been pursuing that. We're telling you this because we don't want you to wait for nothing. I love Tin... and I know that she loves me as well.” he said. Danson sighed as he turned to Kit again. “That's the thing... are you really sure that Kit really loves you?” he wanted to say. “Danson...” he heard Kit say. He looked up at her and turned to a smile. “You are a lucky girl, for Jiro have loved you for so long...” he said. Then, he looked at Jiro. “Will you promise to always love and care for Kit?” he asked him. Jiro smiled and nodded his head. “I promise...” he said. Then, he looked at Kit again. “Kit, are you sure of how you feel for Jiro? Are you sure that you are willing to take this chance and love him?” he asked. Kit nodded her head. “I do...” she said in a low voice. “It's settled then. As long as the two of you are happy, then you have my blessing.” he said.

Jiro and Kit were both surprised and happy at what he said. “Danson... you don't know how much this means to us.” Jiro said to him. “I know. I wish the two of you happiness...” Danson said, and then he looked at Kit and smiled at her. “Especially you, Kit. I hope you will find your happiness with Jiro. And I hope that you will love him the way that he loves you...” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head.

--

“I thought Chun told me that you have something to tell me as well?” Kit asked Danson as soon as they were alone. “Oh, it's nothing...” he said. “Come on, tell me.”
“Promise me that you won't feel hurt, OK?”
“And why would I be hurt?”
Danson just gave her a smile. “I realized I'm barking at the wrong tree all this time. I don't really love you. I realized that I only care for you as a friend.” he said. Kit looked at him, unable to believe what he said. “Really?” she asked. Danson just nodded his head. “Let me guess... because of Hannah?” she asked. It was Danson's turn to give her a surprised look. “Am I that obvious?” he asked. Kit laughed at him and nodded her head. “I knew from the start that you love her. That's one of the reasons why I couldn't accept your love... because I know that you really don't love me, but Hannah.” she explained. “And am I so glad that you never gave me that chance, or I wouldn't feel this way.” he said. “So, when are you planning to tell Hannah?” Kit asked. Danson looked at her and smiled. “I'm planning to go to Vienna as soon as the semester is over. Surprise visit, then love confession.” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head.

There were silence between them for a while, and then Danson began to speak up again. “Kit... are you really sure that you love Jiro?” he asked. Kit nodded her head. “How about Calvin?” he asked again. Kit paused, and then looked at him. “I think its about time that I give myself that chance to be loved by someone that I love...” she said. Then, she turned her gaze away and looked down at the ground. “I was nine when we met, and I knew the moment that I saw him that I am in love with Jay. It just so happens that a lot of things happened that separated us...” she explained. Then, she looked up at him again and smiled. “I will not lie anymore, Danson. I still have feelings left for Calvin, but I realized that I have to give him up because the fact remains that he could never be mine. Somehow, I'm getting tired of giving all my love to someone who couldn't return it to me.”

Danson understands what she was trying to say. He reached for her hand and held it, and then gave her an assuring smile. “Just always remember that I will be here for you. If you feel that your heart is getting confused between those two guys, or if you feel that you are doubting yourself if you love Jiro or not, you can always talk to me. I will enlighten you.” he said. Kit looked at him and smiled, and then she nodded her head. “I'll bear that in mind...” she said. “You know, you should give your heart to Jiro. Love him like the way you love Calvin... because if you still have that love for Calvin... in the end you will hurt a lot of people, especially yourself.” he said.

Just then, Jiro came over them. “Hey, do you mind if I take my girlfriend now?” he asked Danson. Danons looked up at him and nodded his head. “Thanks for giving us the time to talk.” he said. Kit stood up from her seat, and then Jiro put his arm around her. “Thanks for everything, Danson, most especially for understanding us.” he said to Danson. Danson just smiled and nodded his head. “Take care of Kit, OK?” he said. Jiro smiled and nodded his head. The two said goodbye to him, and as the left, Danson watched them. He is happy that Jiro have finally found Tin. He is happy to know that Kit feels the same for Jiro, but he couldn't help but worry about Kit. He jut hope that her love for Calvin would totally fade away. Because if she realizes that she loves Calvin more than she loves Jiro, she will not only risk herself from getting hurt, but also hurt the heart of the man who truly loves her.

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The next day...

As soon as Kit got out of the library, she heard her phone ring. She took it from her bag, and saw Jiro's name flashing on the screen. She smiled as she answered the phone. “Hi, Jay.” she said sweetly. “Hey, princess. Done with your research?” he asked. “Yup. Done with it. I thought you'll meet me here outside the library?” she asked. “Change of plans. Anyway, do you know the mini theater a block away from the school?”
“Yeah, I know that one...”
“OK, I'll meet you there in a while.”
“I thought you made reservations at our favorite restaurant?”
“I did, but I want to show you something first. I'll see you there.”
Before Kit could ask further questions to him, Jiro ended the call. “Why would he want to meet up at the theater?” she thought. Kit sighed and shook her head. He lips curved into a smile. “Maybe he is up to something again...” she said to herself.

As she got on her way to meet Jiro, she heard her phone ring again. Thinking it's Jiro, she didn't bother to look at the screen to check who's calling. “I'm on my way.” she said. “On your way to where?” she heard Calvin's voice on the other line. She paused, her smile slowly fading from her lips. “Oh, Cal... I never thought it's you.” she said. “Of course it's me. Hey, are you busy right now? It's Friday today, and maybe we can hang out or something.” Calvin said. “I'm sorry, Cal... but I have something to do today.” she said. “Oh...” he said. She could hear the disappointment in her voice. “I'll talk to you later, Cal. I really have to go.” she said to him. Then, she ended the call. She know she have been taking Calvin for granted for the past week, and she been ignoring him for days now. Somehow, she felt guilty for doing that to her best friend, but then she wanted to spend more time with Jiro and make up for lost times. Jiro is her priority as of now, because she knows Calvin have Joy, who would be able to take care of him. “I think I'll call him tomorrow...” she thought. Then, she smiled again, and went on her way to the mini theater.

Meanwhile, at the theater,

Danson and Jiro were done arranging the place for Jiro's surprise for Kit. “This is just perfect.” Danson said to himself after making the final touches. “Do you think she'll like it?” Jiro asked him. Danson smiled and nodded his head. “She sure will...” he assured Jiro. Jiro took a deep breath, and then smiled. “I hope she would be happy with what I'll be doing... it's the first time I'll do this in my entire life...” Jiro said. Danson patted him and gave him a nod. “She would appreciate this, don't worry. As if you don't know Kit. She appreciates all the little things you've done for her. Trust me. And don't be nervous.” Danson said. Just then, Danson's phone rang. He looked at the screen and saw the name of the theater's caretaker calling him. He immediately answered the call. Jiro looked at him, and saw him turn into a smile. “OK...” he heard Danson said before ending the call. Then, he looked at Jiro. “Kit's here, so you better start. As for me, Im outta here.” he said. Then, he turned his back to leave, but before he could, Jiro stopped him. “Wait! Can't you stay?” he asked. Danson looked at him and smirked. “Please. You guys will only make me green with envy. Especially since the love of my life is in a different continent.” he said.

--

As Kit opened the door to the theater, she saw the red carpet in the middle aisle with rose petals laid on it. The whole place is filled with flowers, but it was dark inside. Just then, the spotlight turned on, and she saw Jiro standing at the center of the stage, holding a guitar. Then, he began to play a tune on his guitar and sing. As he played the subtle tune, she smiled and walked towards him.

zhe shi yi ge mei you da an de wen ti
这是一个没有答案的问题
This is a question without an answer

wo gan jue wo bian le OH~shei rang wo bian le
我感觉我变了 OH~谁让我变了
I feel I've changed OH~Who changed me

yin wei zhe shi yi ge mei you da an de wen ti
因为这是一个没有答案的问题
Because this is a question without an answer

jiu bei ni jie kai le jiu na me jie kai le
就被你解开了 就那么解开了
Then you undid it, and this is how it was undone

ni zou guo le zai zhe ge mi ren ku tong de dui bai
你走过了 在这个迷人苦痛的对白
You went by at this mesmerizing painful scriipt

ni shen zhi bu rang wo zhi dao ni dui wo you duo hao
你甚至不让我知道 你对我有多好
You don't even let me know how good you are to me

man man de zhe fen ai qiao qiao de zhu xia lai
慢慢地 这份爱悄悄地住下来
Slowly, this love lives (settles) here silently

shen shen de zai xin li mei ren kan de chu lai
深深的 在心里没人看得出来
Deeply, nobody can see it in the heart

an jing de dan que yi zhi dou zai shi ni mo mo de ai
安静的 但却一直都在数你默默的爱
Silently, but this silent love have always been including you

man man de zhe fen ai yi jing bian cheng yi lai
慢慢地 这份爱已经变成依赖
Slowly, this love has already become a dependent

jian jian de xiao rong li que rang wo cong man qi dai
渐渐地 笑容里却让我充满期待
Gradually, your smile makes me filled with anticipation

bu yong shuo wo jiu neng gou ming bai OH ni mo mo de ai
不用说 我就能够明白OH你默默的爱
You don't need to say it and I'll be able to understand OH your silent love


As Jiro serenades her, she could feel tears falling from her eyes. It was tears of joy, she know. No one have ever made her feel this special except Jiro. Before she knew it, she was already standing in front of him. She looked up at him and smiled, and continued to listen to his serenade.


zhe shi yi ge mei you da an de wen ti
这是一个没有答案的问题
This is a question without an answer

wo gan jue wo bian le OH~shei rang wo bian le
我感觉我变了 OH~谁让我变了
I feel I've changed OH~Who changed me

yin wei zhe shi yi ge mei you da an de wen ti
因为这是一个没有答案的问题
Because this is a question without an answer

jiu bei ni jie kai le jiu na me jie kai le
就被你解开了 就那么解开了
Then you undid it, and this is how it was undone

ni zou guo le zai zhe ge mi ren ku tong de dui bai
你走过了 在这个迷人苦痛的对白
You went by at this mesmerizing painful script

ni shen zhi bu rang wo zhi dao ni dui wo you duo hao
你甚至不让我知道 你对我有多好
You don't even let me know how good you are to me


Just then, Jiro walked towards the stage, and went down to her, then he looked at her and smiled as he continued to serenade her.


man man de zhe fen ai qiao qiao de zhu xia lai
慢慢地 这份爱悄悄地住下来
Slowly, this love lives (settles) here silently

shen shen de zai xin li mei ren kan de chu lai
深深的 在心里没人看得出来
Deeply, nobody can see it in the heart

an jing de dan que yi zhi dou zai shi ni mo mo de ai
安静的 但却一直都在数你默默的爱
Silently, but this silent love have always been including you

man man de zhe fen ai yi jing bian cheng yi lai
慢慢地 这份爱已经变成依赖
Slowly, this love has already become a dependent

jian jian de xiao rong li que rang wo cong man qi dai
渐渐地 笑容里却让我充满期待
Gradually, your smile makes me filled with anticipation

bu yong shuo wo jiu neng gou ming bai OH ni mo mo de ai
不用说 我就能够明白OH你默默的爱
You don't need to say it and I'll be able to understand OH your silent love

wei lai de mei yi tian bu guan fa sheng shen me ne
未来的每一天 不管发生什么呢
Everyday in the future, no matter what happens

bu neng tiao gei wo ne
不能挑给我呢
You cannot choose me

wo yao yong yuan pei zhe ni shou hou zhe ni zhi dao zui hou WOO~~~~~~~
我要永远陪着你守候着你 直到最后WOO~~~~~~~
I want to accompany you forever, watching you until the very end WOO~~~~~~~

man man de zhe fen ai qiao qiao de zhu xia lai
慢慢地 这份爱悄悄地住下来
Slowly, this love lives (settles) here silently

shen shen de zai xin li mei ren kan de chu lai
深深的 在心里没人看得出来
Deeply, nobody can see it in the heart

an jing de dan que yi zhi dou zai shi ni mo mo de ai
安静的 但却一直都在数你默默的爱
Silently, but this silent love have always been including you

man man de zhe fen ai yi jing bian cheng yi lai
慢慢地 这份爱已经变成依赖
Slowly, this love has already become a dependent

jian jian de xiao rong li que rang wo cong man qi dai
渐渐地 笑容里却让我充满期待
Gradually, your smile makes me filled with anticipation

bu yong shuo wo jiu neng gou ming bai OH ni mo mo de ai
不用说 我就能够明白OH你默默的爱
You don't need to say it and I'll be able to understand OH your silent love


Kit looked into Jiro's eyes, and smiled at him. Jiro smiled lovingly at her, and then wiped the tear from her eyes. “I promised myself I would never make you cry...” he said in a low voice. She smiled and shook her head. “I'm just so happy that I can't help but cry...” she said. Then, Kit moved closer to him, and gave him a hug. “Thank you, Jay... thank you for your love. Thank you for making me feel special...” she said to him. Then, Jiro looked at her. “You are special, Kit. You will always be special in my heart.” he said. Kit smiled and then reached for him and kissed him on the lips. “The surprise doesn't end here...” he said to her as he released her. Kit gave him a surprised look. “There's more?” she asked. Jiro nodded his head. Then, he took a long velvet box from his back pocket, and gave it to Kit. Curious, Kit opened it, and was surprised to see a platinum necklace with a shell pendant. “Jay... this is too much...” she said to him. Jiro shook his head. Then, he took the necklace from the box, and held it up for her. “This...” he said. “is the symbol of my love for you. As long as you have this, you have my love.” he said. Then, he turned Kit around, and helped her wear the necklace around her neck. She looked at the pendant, and sat her name 'Tin' written on it. She turned it back, and saw Jay's name engraved on the other side. “Try to open it.” Jiro whispered to her. Kit looked up at him and nodded her head. As she opened the pendant, she saw a message written on it. “I will love you for the rest of my life... I will never leave your side, my princess...” it read. Kit looked up at him again. “That is my promise for you, Tin. I will always love you, with all my heart... I will never let you go this time. I swear to be always here for you especially when you need me. I won't give you heartaches or even reasons to cry. Each day, I will make a special memory for you. I promise all of that.” he said. Kit smiled at him again, and the tears just keeps on falling from her eyes. Then, she turned and hug him again.

Of all the things she have done in the past, this is one thing that she would not regret in her life. If she have not given Jiro this chance, then she would not feel what it's like to be loved. She was glad that he came back in to her life, for he saved her from all the heartache that she felt before. “Jay, thank you for coming back into my life. You were everything I never knew I ever wanted.” she said. “And you were everything I have always dreamed of...” he said to her. Kit hugged him again, and Jiro gently kissed her forehead. “I love you, Jay... I love you...”

--

It's already evening, and Calvin was still hanging out at Kit's house. He and her sister, Annie, are in the den, playing Tekken on Play Station. From time to time, Calvin was looking at his watch, and at his phone. He have been in their house since that afternoon, but Kit have not gone home yet. “Yes! I won again!” he heard Annie said. Then, Annie looked at Calvin, and she noticed that he is not paying attention to her. “Wei, you're not paying attention to me! I thought you want to spend more time with me!” he heard Annie shout at him. Calvin looked at Annie, and saw her pouting at him. “This is not fun anymore. I think I'd rather sleep.” she said. Calvin began to panic at what she said. “No!” he said in a loud voice to stop Annie. He realized that if Annie goes to sleep, he wouldn't have the reason to stay at their house. Annie gave him a confused look. “Sorry... it's just that I'm worried...” he said absent-mindedly. “Worried?” Annie asked. Calvin realized what he just said. He couldn't let Annie know that he is worried about her elder sister. “Worried about... uh... my girlfriend have not been texting me... and I'm a little worried about her.” he lied. Then, he reached for his phone and pretended to read a message. “Oh, good. She's already home.” he lied. Then, he looked at Annie and smiled at her. “Come on, let's play another game.” he said. Annie smiled and nodded his head. She watched him as he took the console, and pressed on start. “Aiyo, I don't like to play video games anymore.” he heard Annie said. Calvin gave her a confused look. “So, what do you want to play?” he asked. Annie gave him an evil smile. “Let's play tag! And if you can't catch me until we reach outside, you have to give me a piggyback ride!” she said. Before Calvin could react, Annie began to run around the house, and Calvin was left with no choice but to chase her. After a while, he surrendered to Annie and just gave her a piggyback ride.

While he was carrying Annie, he heard a car stopped in front of their house. “It must be Kit.” he thought. He immediately opened the door to her surprise her, but he was surprised that no one was outside. “Weird, I thought a car stopped...” he thought. “Cal ge! Why did you bring me down?” he heard Annie shout at her. Calvin looked at Annie and smiled at him. “I... I thought I saw something...” he said. Annie folded her arms and smirked at him. “Saw what?” she asked. Before Calvin could answer, a cat jumped in front of him, which frightened him. “Aaaah!” he shouted as soon as he saw the cat. He looked at Annie and saw her laughing at him. “Wei, since when have you been scared of cats, Cal ge?” she asked. Calvin just looked away from her, embarrassed with his reaction a while ago.

Meanwhile, Jiro's car stopped in front of Kit's house. “Thanks for the best date ever.” Kit said to him. Jiro smiled at her. “And thank you for completing my day.” he said. Kit just giggled at what he said. “Do you think Annie's still awake?” Jiro asked. Kit nodded her head. “She must still be up, playing games.” she said. “Good, at least she could see our little surprise for her.” Jiro said. Kit nodded her head. Then she opened the door and got out of his car. Jiro soon followed her outside.

“I'm sleepy...” Annie said to Calvin. As she turned to go inside the house, Calvin stopped her by holding her hand. “Wait, Annie... you can't sleep yet!” Calvin said in a panicked tone. Annie looked at Calvin and pouted again. “But I'm sleepy!” she said. “We still have to finish that video game!” he said Annie tired to let go from Calvin's grip, but he was too strong for her. “Let me go! I want to sleep!” she said to him. “Wei, I haven't beaten you up yet in Tekken. Let's play again....”
“Don't want to!”
“It's weekend!”
“I want to sleep! Let me go!”
“Come on, just one more game.”
Annie stopped, and then she gave her an evil smirk. “If you won't let me go, I'll tell mom you let me stay up, and I'll tell Kit jie that...” she said. Calvin gave her another confused look. “Tell jie what?” he asked. “I'll tell her that you're waiting for her!” she shouted.

When Kit heard Annie shout, she began to panic. “Jay, Annie... I heard her shout!” she said as she looked at him. Jiro could see that she's already worried about her sister. “Better get inside and check on her. I'll follow you. I'll just get our surprise for her.” Jay said. Kit nodded her head, and rushed inside. As soon as Jiro got all of their things, he followed Kit inside the house. To their surprise, they saw Calvin holding Annie by her arm. “Calvin Chen! What are you doing to my sister?!” Kit shouted at him. Calvin paused, and as soon as he saw Kit, he let go of Annie. Then, Jiro got inside the house. As soon as he saw Calvin, he closed his eyes and shook his head. Calvin was surprised to see Jiro with her. Annie took the chance and ran towards her sister. She hugged her sister, and then looked at Calvin and stuck out a tongue at him. Kit looked at Annie and then caressed her head, then she knelt down to her and whispered something to her ear. “Go to Jay ge, he have gift for you.” she said. Annie looked up at her sister, and smiled, and then ran towards Jiro. She saw him holding a cake and a small doll house (together with Kit's bags and the bouquet of tulips he gave her a while ago. Annie's eyes widened as son as he saw what Jiro was holding. “Is that for me, Jaaaaaaaayyyyyyy ge?” she asked.

Upon hearing what Annie said, the three of them paused in shock. “Oh my God, did I hear Annie say Jay?” she thought. Calvin looked at Jiro and Annie, confused at the two. “What did you call him?” Calvin asked Annie. Jiro began to panic. He have to think of ways not to let Calvin think that he heard Annie wrong. “Oh...” he said as he laughed nervously. “I think Annie said. 'Is that for me yaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy ge!” he said, imitating Annie's voice and facial expression. Upon hearing that, Kit bit her lips, trying to stop herself from laughing at Jiro's lame excuse. Calvin just nodded his head slowly. “Oh... OK...” he said. Annie looked at Jiro and then nodded her head. “No! I said...” before Annie could further say something, he showed her the little doll house that he bought for her, and then carried her. “This is for you.” he said to Annie. Annie took it, and smiled at Jiro and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Then, Jiro put his pointer finger on his lips. “Ssshh... only the three of us know my pet name...” he whispered to her. Calvin was observing Jiro and Annie all this time. He was wondering since when did the two became really close. Kit looked at her sister and her boyfriend and smiled to herself. She is lucky to have a sweet boyfriend like him who loves her little sister very much. She wanted to hug Jiro as a reward for being sweet and caring, but she have to stop herself, or Calvin will suspect something. “Oooohhh...” Annie said. “Thank you Jiro ge!” she shouted. Then, she rested her head on his shoulder, and yawned. “Ge... I'm so sleepy...” she said. Jiro just laughed at her. “OK... I'll take you to your room.” he said. Then, Jiro looked at Kit and smiled. “I'll take Annie to her room and tuck her in. I'll leave you two to talk for a while. I'll put your things inside your room, OK?” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head. Calvin and Kit watched them as they went upstairs.

Calvin was surprised at what Jiro did. Then, it sinked in to him. Why is Jiro suddenly close to Annie, and why is he with Kit? Is Jiro Kit's date all this time? Why is Jiro carrying a bouquet of flowers? Why did he bought Annie gifts? Why is Kit isn't with Danson? Is there something that he didn't know about his best friend? He was trying to find an answer, but his mind is blank. “I hate this...” he thought. “I hate this... my mind is blank and I can't think of an answer...” Kit noticed that change in Calvin's expression. “Wei?” she said to him, but Calvin didn't seem to notice her because he was deep in his thoughts. “Hey!” she shouted to him. She shook Calvin, but to no avail. Then, she thought of something that would make him come back to his senses. She tiptoed, and reached up to him, and then gave him a kiss on the cheek. Calvin was surprised at what she did. He held the side of his cheek that she kissed, and then gave him a shocked look. “W-what's that for?” he asked. Kit just laughed at the way he reacted. He turned away from her, and then smiled secretly. He doesn't know why, but he felt giddy when Kit kissed him. “It's the only thing I know that will freak you out. You were thinking of something and you didn't notice me.” she said. “Look at you! You are as red as a beet” she teased. Calvin looked at her, mad at what she said. “No I'm not!” he denied. “It's just so hot here that's why...” Kit laughed at him again. “I'm just kidding. Don't take it seriously.” she said. Calvin sighed upon hearing what she said. “Whew... that was close. Am I really blushing?” he thought. He have to find a way to divert her attention.

Calvin gave her a stern look as he faced her. “It's not funny. And do you realize what time is it? You didn't return my calls or answered my text messages!” he said in a firm tone. Kit folded her arms, and smirked at Calvin. “Oh, what time is it? I think it's time for you to go to bed, or call Joy.” she said. “I'm serious, Kit. What time is it?” he asked again. Kit looked at her watch, and then looked up at Calvin again. “10:20 PM” she answered, Calvin got more annoyed at her. “Not funny!” he snapped at her. Kit was getting annoyed at Calvin's nagging. She sighed in frustration, and then stepped out of the house, but Calvin followed her outside. “Girls like you shouldn't stay up late outside. You made me worried about you!” Calvin nagged at her again. Kit looked back at him. “You were worried?” she asked. “I mean, us! Your mom and dad, Annie, and me. And why are you with Jiro? Did the two of you went out? Is he your date? Is he the reason why you stayed out?” he asked. She doesn't know if she'll get amused at Calvin or not. She tried to open her mouth to say something, but before she could, Calvin darted another set of questions at her. “And why do you have flowers? Did those came from Jiro? You know, Kit, it's not safe to to be outside at this time of the day... worse, it's not even safe for a girl to be with a guy at this hour! You better stop coming home late, I tell you.” he said. Kit tried to say something again, but before she could, Calvin interrupted her. He pointed his finger at her and shook it. “And don't give me any excuses, young lady! Next week, I'll drive you home. I'll make sure you're home before your curfew.” he said.

After hearing what Calvin said, Kit got irritated. He's acting like a strict father. “Look, Calvin.” Kit managed to say in an annoyed tone. “I think you're already crossing the line. First, I don't care about what people say. I'm a big girl now, remember? I can take care of myself. Besides, mom and dad knows I'll coming home late and they're cool with it. Second, you don't have to drive me home! I have a car and I can drive myself. Besides, I know you always drive Joy home, and if you tag me along, I'll just be the third wheel. Besides, you guys will only give me the creeps if I hear the two of you sweet talking.” Kit said. She paused for a while to take a deep breath. Meanwhile, Calvin was just staring at her, surprised at her reaction. “Third, Jiro is our friend as well, so don't accuse him of anything. He won't do anything to me. We did go out but it's for school. He helped me with my research.” she said. The last thing she said is partly true. She did stay at the library for her research, but Jiro's not with her as he is preparing a surprise for her. “I don't think you have the right to accuse me of anything, Calvin. I'm strong than you think... after...” then she paused before it could slip out of her mouth. “After you broke my heart and neglected me... after all this time, that you only see Joy, and not me. She's special to you while I... I will only be just your best friend...” she thought.

“After what, Kit?” she heard Calvin asked in a more calm tone. Kit looked at him, giving him that mad expression from before. “After you left me before and chose to end our friendship over that stupid ex-girlfriend of yours!” she shouted at him. Then, she saw Calvin laugh at her. He took her hand, and pulled her to him to embrace her. “I'm sorry if I reacted that way, Kit...” he said to her. “It's just that... I was scared... scared that something bad happened to you, and I couldn't even be there to save you. ” he said. Then, he looked at her and caressed her cheeks. “Whenever I call you, you seem to be always in a hurry. You're always busy... and I never have the chance to tell you what happened to me, and to share my happiness. It seems that you're always in a rush, and that you don't want to be with me. We never got the time to talk and be together, just like before...” he said in a low voice. Kit's lips curved into a smile after hearing what's on his mind. She felt guilty for neglecting her best friend these past few days. “I'm sorry, Calvin... it's just that I'm preoccupied with things, and I thought avoiding you would be for the best so that you and Joy could spend more time together.” she said. She could hear her voice crack as she speaks. “I... I l-like seeing you and J-joy together, you know...” she said. She could feel the tear forming at the corner of her eye, but she was trying her best to fight it. She couldn't let Calvin see those tears. Calvin smiled lovingly at her. “I miss you...” he said. Then, he hugged her again. “I miss you so much, my best friend...” she heard her say. She could feel her heart crush at the word 'best friend'. She closed her eyes to fight the tears from falling, but those tears couldn't help but fall. It hurts her most that she can only be his best friend, nothing more, nothing less. “Why am I so scared to lose you, when you're not even mine?” she thought.

Suddenly, she felt comfortable being in Calvin's embrace. It seemed like the time stopped while she's with him. She wanted this feeling. She wanted to feel how warm his embraces are. She knew for herself that this is all she ever wanted. She's getting too comfortable in his arms, and when she realized that what she was feeling is wrong, she pushed him away from her. Calvin got confused when she pushed him away. She turned her back on her to wipe her tears. “W-what's wrong?” he asked. “Nothing.” she said monotonously. Calvin pulled her to face him, and looked into her eyes. “Why are you crying?” he asked. “I said it's nothing, Cal. Something just got inside my eye...” she lied. Calvin put his hand on her cheek and then looked into her eyes. He moved closer to her face. When she looked into his eyes, she suddenly felt lost. Her heart began to be more confused. She have to stop herself from falling in love again with him, because she felt her heart breaking again. “I am just his best friend. Just hi best friend. Remember that...” she said to herself. She took his hands, and put it away from her cheeks. “I said it's nothing.” she said, turning her gaze away from him. “Let me check, OK?” he said. He put his hand on her cheek again, then, he blew on her eye.

As he looked down, he saw Kit's shell pendant. He stepped back from her, and put his hand on his pocket as he stared at her necklace. “Nice necklace...” he said in a low voice. She looked at him, and saw the faint smile on his face. He was hurt to see that shell pendant, because it's a reminder for him that Kit still loved Jay all this time. The, he looked at Kit and tried to smile. “You still love Jay, right? You even bought that necklace to tell the whole world that you still love him, even though he didn't came back for you...” he said in a hurt tone. He doesn't know why he is feeling this way. He knew Kit have the right to love, but he couldn't bear that she is in love with Jay. “I bet if he saw that, he'll be happy... because it means that you'll still give him a chance.” he continued. Kit smiled at him. She want to think that he is getting jealous with Jay again. She moved towards him, and then cupped his cheeks with her palms. “Calvin...” she said in a low voice. She gazed into his eyes again, and Calvin looked into her. “I love you, Calvin...” she thought. “If you just tell me that you love me, then I promise... I promise to love you for the rest of my life...” she wanted to say to him. Calvin moved towards her, their foreheads touching. They were in that position for a long time – and once again, she felt like being lost into his eyes. She closed her eyes as she felt Calvin moving closer to her, . “I... I'm sorry...” she blurted out. Calvin stepped back at her, giving her a confused look. “Why are you saying sorry?” he asked. “The necklace... ” she said in a low voice. Then, she moved away from Calvin. This made Calvin more confused. “What about the necklace?” he asked. “I... I didn't buy it... he gave it to me...”

Suddenly, Calvin's mind went blank. He felt that everything around him is turning, making him more dizzy. He knees began to feel week, that he couldn't even balance himself. “What's happening to me?” he thought. Kit noticed what's happening to Calvin. “Cal, are you OK?” she asked in a worried tone. She held his hand to keep him up, but he was too heavy for her. When Calvin lost his balance, she fell with him. She found herself lying on the ground, with Calvin on top of her. Calvin kept on staring at her face for a long time.

Just then, Jiro came out to check on Kit, but when he got out of the house, he saw them on that position. He wanted to walk towards them, and get Calvin away from Kit, but he was too stunned at what he saw. “Calvin...” he thought. “You already took Joy away from me... will you try and take Tin away from me? I can't let that happen, Cal... I can't let you take away the girl I love this time...” he thought. Then, he saw Kit push Calvin away from her, and then stood up. She have to stop herself, before she could do something that she know she will regret. She knows that if Jiro came down and saw them that way, he would get mad at them. She doesn't want to hurt Jay's heart. “I'm sorry...” Calvin said as he stood up. “I think it's time for me to go home... maybe I just need to rest...” he said in a low voice. Then, Calvin turned his back to leave, and Kit watched him. She felt sad at the sight of him leaving her again. She doesn't want him to go. She wanted to regret pushing Calvin away from him, but she know it's the right thing to do. “Cal, wait!” she shouted at him as he reached the gate. Calvin paused, not bothering to look. He felt her hands on hi waist. “Jay, he gave me this necklace....” she said to him. Calvin was stunned at what he heard. He was trying to fight the tears from falling from his eyes. Calvin felt his heart breaking at what she said. “So... Jay is finally back...” he thought. He felt as if he couldn't breath. When Jiro saw Kit hug Calvin, he wanted to come to them and pull Kit away from him, bu when he heard what Kit said to Calvin, he stopped. He smiled to himself when she heard her tell his name to Calvin. “I should trust her... I know now that she loves me very much.” he said. Then, he went back inside the house.

Calvin looked back at her. “So... you finally saw him again after years of waiting...” Calvin said in a low voice. Kit smiled and nodded her head. He swallowed hard. He could almost feel his heart crushing into a million pieces. If there would be a guy in Kit's life that he would consider his rival, it would Jay. He know that he is her first love, and that nothing could replace him in her heart. Yes, he is jealous of Jay, because he was able to capture the heart of his best friend at first sight, something that he was not able to do. “Kit would always love Jay, no matter what...” he thought. “And... Jay... he... he gave you that necklace... does that mean...” he said, his voice cracking. Even thought Calvin have not finished his sentence, she understood his question. She just nodded her head. He swallowed hard again upon getting her answer. “Y-you... you're with... with Jay now?” he asked. Kit nodded her head again. “Is he the reason why you came home late? Is he the reason why you didn't have time for me? Is he the reason why you have that smile on your face? Is he the reason...” he paused. “Is he the reason why you're forgetting me?” he wanted to say. “Is... Is he the reason why you have this glow on your face?” he asked again. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “Yes, Calvin. He's the reason for all of that...” she said in a low voice. “And he is the reason why I want to stop loving you...” she thought.

Calvin took her arms around her. He have enough heartbreak for tonight. “I... I have to go...” he said to her. As he walked away from Calvin, he felt the tears slowly falling down his cheek. He paused, and then wiped his tear away. “Calvin, please stay...” he heard Kit say. “I... I missed you. We have a lot of things to catch up on. I... I want you to tell me about you and Joy. Please stay for a while...” she said. “Nothing happened between the two of you, right? When you called me a while ago...” she asked. Calvin glared at her, he was hurt that she's accusing him of something. “Do you really think of me that way, Kit. Do you always think that I only call you when I have a problem, if I'm sad, if something bad happened to me?” he asked in a frustrated voice. Then, he shook his head. “I can't believe you'll think of me that way. I thought you know me too well... maybe I just want to talk to you because I miss you. Maybe I just want to check on you that's why I called...” he said. He is obviously hurt about it. Then, he saw Kit turn into a smile. “Aiyo, Cal... don't be too dramatic, OK?” she said, trying to lighten up the conversation. “So... what do you want to tell me about Joy?” she asked. She knew she should'nt have asked that question, for she will only feel hurt. “Right, Kit... go and ask him so that you'll break your heart.” she thought.

Calvin smiled at her again. “I.... I followed your suggestion on out first month together. I... I gave her 99 roses, and then told her that she is my hundredth rose... and... and she liked it.” he told her. It was Kit's turn now to feel hurt. “Oh...” she said in a low voice. “I... I'm glad she liked it...” she said. She wished that Calvin would also do the same for her. She also wanted to get 99 roses from him, and hear him say that she is his hundredth rose. She could feel her tears again. She wished that he would turn his back again on her so that he wont see her cry. “I'm glad for you, Cal. I'm sorry that I spoiled your happiness because of my news...” she said, her voice cracking. Calvin shook his head. “It's OK, Kit... don't say sorry... I'm glad that you found someone to take care of you... someone who would make you smile... just like the way that I make you smile. Don't say sorry, Kit. I'm happy for you as well...” he said to her. “He.. he's lucky to have you by his side, despite the fact that he have hurt you before. He's lucky that you gave him another chance...” he said. Then, he walked towards her and then cupped her cheeks. “Just promise me, Kit. Promise me, that you will never forget me. Always remember that I'm just here, your best friend. I also need you, Kit... I need a little of your time. I need you to listen to me, to share my feelings with... just like before. Please promise me you'll find time for me, even if you are with Jay now. Please promise me that...” he said in a low voice. Kit just nodded her head and smiled at him. “I... I promise...” she said. “I'm scared, Kit... I'm scared now that you found him. I'm scared that he will take you away from me. You know how much I hate him, how I envy him...” he continued. “I know... I know Calvin...” she said in a low voice. “I'll make sure to spend some time with you. We could be together every Sunday... we can talk, go out, anything you want. Your call.” she said. Calvin agreed and nodded his head.

“Promise me, we'll catch up on Sunday. And promise me one thing... please don't mention Jay to me.” he said. Kit could not believe what he said. “W-what?” she asked. “Whatever it is that you've done with him in the past two weeks that we're not together, please don't tell me about it. I don't care about it, and I don't want to hear about it.” Calvin said. Kit gave him a disappointed look, and then she shook her head. “Don't you think you're being unfair?” she asked. “Don't you think you're being too selfish? Calvin, we're best friends! We should catch up on everything... you should know about Jay as well and not just talk about you and Joy! You're not the only one who have the right to be happy.” she said. Calvin looked away from her, unable to say anything to her. “It's all about you, Calvin, isn't it? It's all about you, and you're being too selfish about this whole thing... and here I am, feeling guilty because of the times I have neglected you. Oh, wait... the two weeks that I have neglected you.” Kit paused and then took a deep breath. She's getting furious at Calvin. “You are being unreasonable, Calvin. Life is not all about you. I have my stories to tell as well, and if you won't let me tell you about it, then forget it. I'm not going to spend my Sundays with you.” she shouted at him. “I'm so angry at you, you selfish guy. Aaaaaahhhh!” she shouted in frustation. Then, she cried because of her anger towards Calvin.

Jiro heard Kit's cry. He got worried that Calvin did something to hurt her, so he rushed outside the house again. As he got out, he saw Kit crying. “What happened?” he asked her. He walked towards her, and then put his arm around her, then he glared at Calvin. “Wei, Calvin? What did you to Kit? I swear, if you hurt her, I will definitely kill you.” he said angrily at him. As Jiro was talking, Calvin turned his back on them and then walked towards the gate. He felt his tears falling from his eyes again. He now understand that Kit's heart has been totally taken away by Jay. Meanwhile, Jiro looked at Kit, and hugged her from behind. “Ssssh... don't cry now, my princess...” he whispered to her ear, trying to console her. “Don't worry I am here... I won't leave you... I'll stay with you... if I have to sleep here, I'll do so, I'll just tell your parents, I can't leave you like this...” he whispered to her. Kit looked up at him and smiled. “Thank you, Jay...” she mouthed to him. Then, she looked at Calvin. “I serious about that, Calvin.” she shouted to him. “It's not all about you. If I have to listen about you and Joy, then you have to listen about me and Jay. I want you to know about us.” she said to him. “I'm sorry, Kit...” Calvin said in a low voice. “I'm sorry for being selfish. Just forget about that promise. I'll listen to you... about Jay... I'm sorry if I only think of myself. I promise this will be the last time that you will cry because of my selfishness.” he said. He took another step, and then paused again. “Jiro... can you stay with Kit?” he asked. Jiro smiled at him. “Yes, I will...” he said. Then, he kissed Kit on her hair. “Jay is not here with Kit, and I don't want to see Jay... not right now. I... I still could not forgive him for all breaking Kit's heart. Please, Jiro... please stay with Kit and stop her from crying...” he said. “I will...” he heard Jiro said. “You don't have to tell me, Calvin. I know what to do with Tin...” he added silently. Then, Kit looked up at Jiro and smiled. She rested her head on his shoulder, and then hugged him. She turned her gaze away from Calvin because she couldn't bear seeing him leave. “Kit...” she heard Calvin call. She did not bother to look up at him. “I... I would be able to accept Jay... I just needed more time... I'm still your best friend, always remember that...” he said. Then, he walked away from them. His heart felt heavy as he took every step. “Kit... if you only knew why I hated Jay so much...” he thought. “Then, maybe you would be able to understand...”

[azkaban405]

waahhhhh...kaloka....
99 roses effect2 ni Calvin..haha ngamit..lol
ayyyiiii..how sweet naman..hehe

si JIRO kinantahan nya si Kit ng MOMO
pinatugtog ko pa ung momo habang binabasa ko ung lyrics..nyahaha
feel na feel ko ang kanta nya..hahaha

ayan, Calvin napaka selfish mo kasi. manhig ka lang..manhid..LOLz

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 41 – Finally Found



“Are you sure you're going to be OK?” Jiro asked as he and Kit walked outside the house. Kit smiled at him and nodded his head. “I'm OK, Jay. Don't worry about me...” she said. “You can't blame me if I got worried about you. Calvin made you cry, and so...” he paused, and then took a deep breath. Then, he looked at her smiled. “I just don't want to see you cry. I don't to see you hurt, especially if the reason is Calvin...” he said. Kit looked up at him, and then she hugged him. “I... I never thought he's still mad at me because I stood you up 10 years ago... now I know why we can't tell Calvin about us.” he said in a low voice. “Maybe in time... we would be able to tell him about our love. He needs more time so that he could accept you...” Kit said. Jiro looked at her and nodded his head. “I promise, I'll do my best to gain his respect. I'll prove to him that he is wrong about me.”
“You promise to do that for me?”
“There's nothing I wouldn't do for you...”

Kit gave him a loving smile, and then hugged him again. “I love you, Jay...” she said. “Tell me that you love me...” she asked him. Jiro took a deep breath and smiled to himself. “I love you, Tin...” he whispered to her. “I love you till there are no more stars in the sky. I will love you until there are no more sands on the shore...”

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“Wow, that's so sweet of Jiro!” Danson heard Hannah said on the other line. He told Hannah about Jiro's surprise for Kit that afternoon. “Yes, he is... but I can do better that that!” he said. He heard Hannah laugh at him. “Oh, really? You can't even tell Kit before that you like her, how would you be able to do the things Jiro did to surprise her?” Hannah asked. “I can do it. Just wait and see. I'll do better than Jiro.” he boasted. “Hmmm... seems to me that you have already moved on, huh?”
“Well... yeah... I realized I only like Kit as a friend.”
“So, is there someone else that you like.”
“Yeah...”

Then, he realized just what he told Hannah. “Oh nuts...” he thought. “It almost slipped my mouth!” he couldn't let Hannah know that he love her, for he wanted to tell her in person how he feels towards her. “Oh...” he heard her say. “Who is this unlucky girl?” she asked. Danson laughed nervously. “Oh... nothing... she's someone you don't know...” he said nervously. “Danson Tang! Either you will tell me now who that girl is, or I will not call you for the rest of my stay here in Vienna!” Hannah shouted at him. Danson flinched as she shouted at him. “Wei! Don't shout at me!” Danson told her. “And as if you can really stand not talking to me on the phone. I don't think so...” he said. “I can and I will...” Hannah warned him. Danson was alarmed at what she said. “Wait...wait... I'm just kidding. OK, I'll tell you about her... but I won't tell her name, OK?”
“Fine... I agree...”
Danson turn into a smile. “Well, she have a long hair, almond eyes, she doesn't play the piano, she's tall, she's very confident...” he said. He was describing Hannah, but he told her the opposite of Hannah's description. Hannah began to think who that girl is. “Hmmm... I don't know who she is...” she said. “Let's just call her.... Rainbow.” Danson said. “So, are you courting this girl now?”
“You bet I am!”
“Oh...”

Danson could hear the hurt in her tone. He smiled to himself again. “If you only knew that it's you...” he said. “T-that's great... really...” Hannah said. “I really like her, Hannah. I can tell that she likes me too. I think it's going to work this time.” he said. “W-well.. I wish you luck...” he heard her say. Then she fell silent. “Uh... Dannie, I think this call is getting expensive. I... I'll call you some other time, OK?” she said. Danson nodded his head. “OK. Take care of yourself.” he said.

Then, he looked at his phone, and then closed his eyes. “Ah... if you only knew that I love you, Hannah! I just can't tell you now because I want to tell it to you in person!” he said. He opened his eyes and was surprised that the call have not yet ended. He panicked at the thought that Hannah might have heard what he said. When he put the phone on his ear, he heard the busy tone, and he sighed with relief. “Whew.. that was close!” he thought.

What he didn't know was that Hannah was able to hear what he said. Hannah smiled to herself when he told her that he loves her. “I never thought that that Rainbow is me..” she said. She laughed silently at the petname he gave her. Then, she ended the call. “Hmmm... if you only knew that I love you too, Danson. Don't worry, I'll be seeing you in a few months' time...”

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That night, Calvin could not sleep at all. He felt guilty for making Kit angry. Yes, he is selfish, and his selfishness is hurting him as well. Kit also deserves to be happy, and to be loved. He know he have to be happy for her, but how can he be happy now that his mortal enemy is back? He hated Jay since the first time Kit mentioned him. He hated the fact that she always tell stories of Jay before, and how she was too excited to see him. She was too excited to see Jay, that she barely noticed him before. When that summer came, and Jay didn't came, he was happy. He was happy that he forgot his promise to Kit, to meet her at the beach that summer. But, he's sad, for he saw Kit sad that time. It has always been like that – every summer, Kit would wait for Jay, and he will stay by her side, keeping her company. Finally, the day came that she gave up on Jay. He thought that when she gave him up, she would be able to forget him, but he was wrong. All this time, Kit have been in love with Jay. Guess there's nothing he could do, now that Jay is back.

He stood up from his bed, and then went to the window, which is facing Kit's room. From his window, he could clearly see Kit sleeping peacefully. He took a seat by the window, and watched her. “I'm so sorry, Kit...” he said to himself. “I just can't lose you to Jay. I am not ready to lose you. I'm sorry that I hated Jay... I hated him for taking you away from me. I hated him because...” he paused, and then he shook his head. That was a long time ago, and he managed to forget all about it. It would be better if he wouldn't bring back the past anymore, after all he have to keep his promise to her as well. He leaned over the window, and watched her as she sleeps. He smiled to himself as he watched her. It's been a long time since he last did this, and honestly, he missed this moment. Finally, he closed his eyes, and drifted into a dream. He fell asleep while watching over his best friend.

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“Calvin!” she shouted at him. Kit ran after him, and soon after, she found herself in a deserted shore. “Calvin!” she shouted again. As she looked at the far side of the sea, she saw him walking away. “Calvin!” she shouted again, but he still did not bother to stop and heed her call. As she ran towards him, he faded. She looked around him, and then she saw Calvin by the sea. Afraid that he would drown, she same him. She was already in the middle of the ocean, when Calvin was gone again. She looked around the area, but he was nowhere to be found. Suddenly, she felt someone pulling her leg. She tried to resist and swim upward, but the pull was to strong. “Help!” she shouted. “Help! Calvin! Help me!” Then, she felt herself drowning...

“Calvin!” Kit shouted as she sat up on her bed. She slowly opened her eyes, and realized that it was just a nightmare. She looked outside the window, and saw Calvin turn his lights on. Then, she saw him took his plank, and the put it on her window. “What happened?” Calvin said as soon as he reached her room. Kit just looked at him and shook he head. “Just... just nightmare...” she said. Calvin sat on her bed, and brushed her hair. “Are you OK?” he asked. Kit nodded her head. Then, Calvin moved closer to her, and hugged her tight. “You... you don't need to be scared...” he whispered to her. “I am here... I am just here...” he whispered to her. Kit rested her head on his shoulder, and then hugged him. She closed her eyes and then let the tear fall from her eyes. She was frightened by that nightmare, for she thought it was all for real. “”Cal... can you stay with me? I... I'm scared and Jay's not here...” she said to him. Calvin felt his heart breaking upon hearing Jay's name again. “O... OK...” he said in a low voice. He let go of Kit, and then watched her as she laid down on her bed. He tucked her into her blanket, and then he lay on her bed. He brushed her hair as he watched her sleep. He smiled to himself, he was happy because he once again felt being needed by Kit. “Sweet dreams, Kit...” he whispered to her, before he closed his eyes to sleep.

--

The following week...

As soon as the bell rang, the students rushed out of the room. Kit was the last one to get outside, and she stepped out, she saw Jiro waiting for her. “Hey...” she said, smiling at him. Jiro looked at her, and smiled. “Princess...” he said. He walked towards her and then kissed her on her forehead. He put his arm around her and walked through the lobby. “How's Sunday with Calvin?” Jiro asked her. “It's OK. He just seem to be weird... when I came to their house last Sunday, he was looking through our old photos, reminiscing the old times. Then, we went to the park, and then talked about our childhood.” she said. Jiro laughed at what she said. “He seemed like a father reminiscing memories with the bride-to-be before the wedding.” he said. Kit laughed as well. “Well, he's not that dramatic as before... only now...” she said. Kit paused, and then faced him. “Now that you're back.” she said. Jiro smiled at her, but at the back of his mind, he felt guilty for taking most of Kit's time. He know how close the two are, and when they got together, Kit wasn't able to find time for Calvin just like before. “He must have really missed you...” he said. Kit just nodded her head. “Did you have the chance to tell him about us?” Jiro asked. Kit nodded her head. “I told him everything... from the time we met, to our dates... and I told him the surprise you gave me the other day.” Kit said. Jiro nodded his head upon hearing what she said. “So... he told you about him and Joy?” he asked. Kit paused again and then slowly nodded her head. “Y-yeah... he told me what they did on their 1st month together...” she said. She looked up at Jiro and saw him let out a faint smile. “And?”
“D-do... do you really want know?”
“I... I want to know...”

Kit turned her eyes away from Jiro. Each time that she thinks of what Calvin did for Joy, she feels hurt.
“H-he... he gave Joy a 99 roses and they told her that she is his hundredth rose.” she said. “Oh...” he said in a low voice. He could not deny to himself that he was hurt. He should have been in Calvin's place, giving Joy the roses, but he chose to let her go. Nevertheless, he was happy to know that Calvin is doing a good job making Joy smile. “That... that's sweet.” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “I... I gave that suggestion...” she said. Jiro looked at her again, giving her a smirk. “So...” he said as he put his arm around her again. “Does that you want to receive a hundred roses from me?” he asked. Kit giggled and shook her head. “I just want to be serenaded again.” she said, winking at him. Jiro moved closer to her until their forheads touched. Then, he began to sing again.

Man man de zhe fen ai qiao qiao de zhu xia lai (Slowly, this love settles here silently)
Shen shen de zai xin lin mei ren kan de chu lai (Deeply, nobody can see it in the heart)
An jing de dan que yi zhi dou zai shi ni mo mo de ai (Silently, but this silent love have always been including you)

Kit smiled at Jiro. Jiro moved closer to her, but before he could kiss her on the lips, he felt someone bump into him, sepearating him from Kit. “Excuse me!” They both heard Chun and Danson say. Then, the two walked in between them. Kit was laughing at what the two did, and she laughed even more when she saw the angry expression on Jiro's face. “Wei! That was rude!” Jiro shouted at the two. Chun and Danson looked at each other, and then laughed. “Hey, we are doing you guys a favor.” Danson said. “We have to break the two of you before someone else could see you... especially if that someone is either Calvin or Joy.” Chun said. Jiro folded his arm and looked sternly at the two. “I don't care if they saw us.” he heard Kit said. Surprised at what they heard, Chun and Danson turned to Kit. “I think its about time that Calvin know about me and Jay.” she said. Jiro looked at Kit, happy at what he heard. “Are you sure? But... what if he still could not accept me?” he asked. Kit looked at him and smiled. “He have to be ready now. Besides, you'll be with me when I tell him, right?” she asked. Jiro smiled and nodded his head. “I'll be with you. I'll face him, so that I could prove to him that I'm worthy of your love.” Jiro said. Then, he embraced Kit.

“Can you stop it? You guys are just making me feel jealous.” Danson said, rolling his eyes at the two. Kit and Jiro looked at him and laughed. Kit stuck out her tongue at him. “Do you think it's not yet the right time for Calvin to know?” Chun asked. Kit looked at Chun and shook his head. “There's not better time for him to know, but now.”

--

Meanwhile, at the library

“Koochiepoo, can you help me with this?” Joy asked as she showed her notes to Calvin. Calvin just kept on staring at the book on his table, as if he is in his deep thoughts. Joy noticed that he's too spaced out. “Koochiepoo?” Joy called again, this time, she shook him. Calvin looked at her and smiled. It's as if someone have awaken him. “Yes, koochiepoo?” he asked. “You seemed spaced out. Anything wrong?” she asked. Calvin lied and shook his head. Joy looked at him closely and let out an evil smile. “You're lying!” she said to him. “See? Your nose is getting longer...” she joked. Calvin just laughed at what she said. “I'm sorry if I'm not paying any attention to you... it's just that something is bothering me...” he confessed. Joy smiled at him, and then she rested her head on her shoulder. “You can tell me what's bothering you...”
“It... It's Kit.”

Joy gave him a confused look. “What about Kit?” she asked. “I'm worried about her. I just learned that she's seeing someone...” he said. Joy got even more confused at him. “You mean, she's dating someone?” she asked. Calvin nodded his head. “She told me the guy's already her boyfriend.” Joy was surprised at what he said. “How come I didn't know that? Why is she keeping secrets from us?” she asked. Calvin let out a sigh before answering her. “It's someone I don't want her to date, that's why she kept it a secret.” he said. “So, the boyfriend is not Danson?” Joy asked again. Calvin shook his head again. “There seems to be a fall off between the two... I don't know. The two are acting really weird lately...”
“So, who is this guy that Kit is dating that she is not supposed to date? Is he your mortal enemy or what”
“Mortal enemy. I've hated him since we were kids.”
“Why would Kit date your mortal enemy, if she knows that you hate that guy so much?”
“Because Kit have always been in love with Jay since the first time they met.”

Joy paused when Calvin said the name 'Jay'. “Jay?” she asked again. Calvin nodded his head. She know that it's Jiro's childhood nickname. “Could... could Kit be dating Jiro?” she thought. She shook her head, erasing that thought. “There are a lot of Jays in the world... it could not be Jiro...” she said to herself. “If... if Kit is happy with this Jay, then you should be happy for her. Remember, she even asked me to set her up for dates before?” she said. “It's not the thing, Joy. I'm worried about her. What is Jay hurt her again just like before? What if he leaves her again? If he hurt Kit again, I swear I will never ever forgive him...” he said Joy held Calvin's hand and smiled at him. “If that Jay would hurt her again, you will be right there for her, right? You would be there for her just like before. We would be there for Kit, no matter what. You just have to assure Kit that you are he friend, and that she can always run to you.” she said. Calvin looked at her and smiled. He realized that Joy is right. Even if Jay hurt Kit again, he just have to assure Kit that she still have him as her bet friend. “Why am I so lucky to have you as my girlfriend?” he asked sweetly at her. Joy just giggled, and as Calvin put his arm around her, she rested her head on his shoulder. “Now, can you help me with I disagreeignment?” she asked. Calvin smiled and nodded his head.

--

“Thanks for staying with me and Annie...” Kit said as she walked Jiro outside their house. Jiro paused and then looked at her. “Anything for you, princess. You know that I love it hanging out with your little sister.” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “Annie's really fond of you, and I'm glad that you love my little sister as well.” she said. Then, she looked over at the Chen's house, and saw that Calvin's car is not yet there. “Calvin's still not home...” she said, turning to Jiro. “Maybe tomorrow, we can catch up on him and talk to him about us.” she said. Jiro nodded his head. “If I have to hang out here always just to catch on him, I'll do that.” Jiro said. Then, he held her hand, and then pulled her towards him. He embraced her tight. “I'm going to miss you tonight...” he whispered to her. Kit smiled upon hearing what he said. “We'll still be seeing each other tomorrow, you don't have to miss me...” she said. Jiro looked at her and smiled. “I miss you every time that we're not together...” he said. Kit felt herself blushing at what he said. Jiro is too sweet towards her, and he knows exactly what to say to make her feel special. “Aiyo, stop it already, Jay. You're making me blush...” she said. Then, she looked up at him and saw him smiling at her. “I love you, my princess...” he said to her. “I love you too, my prince charming...” she whispered. Then, he leaned over to her, and gave her a long kiss on the lips.

“What's the meaning of this?” they hears someone shouted. They looked up and saw Calvin walking towards them Kit could clearly see that he was confused at what he saw. “Jiro? Kit? What the hell is happening? Why are you kissing Kit, Jiro?” Calvin asked. He was confused as to what's happening, confused at why Jiro and Kit were intimate. “Is there something that I didn't know? Kit, I thought you're dating Jay?” Calvin asked. “Cal... let me explain...” Kit heard Jiro say. She looked up at him, and she felt him hold her hand. “Yes, you're right, Kit is dating Jay...” Jiro said. “Yes, I know she is. Now, can you tell me, why are you kissing my best friend?” Calvin asked again. Jiro closed his eyes, and then took a deep breath. As he opened his eyes, he looked into Calvin's eyes. “Calvin... I am Jay.” Jiro finally said.

Calvin felt all of his blood rushed up to his head due to anger. He clenched his fist, then, turned his back and closed his eyes. Of all people, why does Jiro have to be Jay? Why does it have to be his girlfriend's ex-boyfriend? And most of all, why does his best friend have to be the cause of Joy's heartbreak? He could not accept that Jiro is Jay, and most of all, he could not accept Jay as of this very moment. He still hated him. He hated him taking away his best friend, for making Kit wait and cry in the past. Then, he turned to face Jiro again. Jiro could see how mad he is at what he have learned. “Calvin, I'm telling you this because I want to prove to you how much I love Kit. I know you hate me because of the thing I have done in the past...” Jiro said to him. “Hell, yes... I hate you so much, Jay. I hated you...” he said. Then, he walked towards him, and then punched him on the face. Kit was surprised at what Calvin did. Kit threw a worried look at Jiro as he fell on the ground. “Jay!” she shouted. She rushed to him, and helped him up. Jiro wiped the blood from his mouth, and then looked up at Kit. “I'm OK, Tin... don't worry about me...” he said to her. Then, Kit turned to Calvin, giving him a furious look. “What did you do that for, Calvin? Why did you have to hurt Jay?” she shouted angrily at him. Calvin stepped back, shocked at the way Kit reacted. He have never seen Kit this mad before. He watched as Kit helped Jiro to stand up. “You know I hate him, Kit... I hate Jay so much. Why didn't you gave me enough time before you let me know that this bastard is Jay?” he said, pointing at Jiro. “There's no other time but to tell you now, Calvin...” Kit said as he looked into his eyes. “I love Jay. I am with him now, and you have to accept that.” she said in a low voice.

Calvin was taken aback by what she said. “Kit...” he said in a low voice. “Jiro... he hurt you before when he made you wait... he hurt Joy because he could not forget his past... I... I can't believe... I can't believe that after all this time, after all that have happened... you will still chose him...” he said. Kit slowly nodded his head. “I am happy with Jay now, Calvin. I... I don't care what happened in the past...” she said. Calvin glared at her. “And Joy? You don't care about how would she feel? Aren't you guilty that you are the reason why Jiro broke up with her?” he shouted at her. Kit slowly shook her head. She could feel the hot tears forming at the corner of her eyes. “Joy already have the heart of the man I love... do you think she should be the one feeling guilty for breaking my heart? For stealing my dream away?” she thought. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath before answering his question. “I don't care anymore, Calvin...” she said. She opened her eyes and looked at him. “I am happy now, Calvin. I just hope you would be happy for me as well...”

--

“I heard what happened...” Chun said as he saw beside Calvin the next day at the bleacher. Calvin didn't bother to look up at him, instead, he just shook his head. “Don't start, Chun... just don't start...” he said in a low voice. Chun let out a chuckle as he shook his head. “I have already begun, Calvin. Look, you can't stay mad at Kit just because you found out that Jiro is Jay, and Kit is Tin, who caused Joy's heart ache before. Does it ever occur to you that maybe she also have the right to be happy, after all the things she have gone through?” he asked. Calvin gave him a confused look. “What do you mean?” he asked. “She have been though a lot, Calvin. From the time you got mad at her and sided Trixie, until this time that you have been neglecting her because of Joy. Don't you think that she also deserves to be happy, after all the times that she was there by your side, helping you in each and every way she could? Don't you think you're being too selfish? From what I'm seeing, between the two of you, it's her that always gives, and you always take what she gives you. She wanted you to be happy, and did every possible way to make you happy... and it seems to me that you want to be happy while you want her to suffer in silence...”
“But the fact still remain that I hate Jay...”
“But can you find it in your heart to accept the truth? Jiro obviously did a good job keeping her happy. I've never seen her more happier. Can you at least give Jiro the credit for that?”

Calvin looked at Chun and sighed. “I could not forgive him. He made Kit cry before... he made Joy cry as well. He is the reason why Kit can't -” then he paused, and looked away from him. “That what?” Chun asked. “That Kit could not see you as you see her before?” Calvin looked at him, unable to believe what Chun have said. “I can't accept that it's my best friend who caused all of this chaos...” Chun just smiled at him, and patted his back. “All I know is that everything have a reason... why all of these things are happening now. For now, we just have to accept things as they are...”

--

“Should we worry about them?” Danson asked Chun. Chun smiled and shook his head. “The love story has just began, Danson...” he said. “Obviously all of them are bound for heartache. As their friends, all we can do is be there for them and advise them. That's all...” he continued. Danson smiled and nodded his head. “How do you see this love story end? Is it going to be a sad one or a happy one?” Danson asked again. Chun just shrugged his shoulder. “I don't know...” he said. “All I know is that the leaf have finally departed from the tree, and was taken away by the strong wind. I have a feeling that it's the same strong wind that will take the leaf back to the tree it has loved.”

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 42 – When Truth Hurts



“I am happy now, Calvin. I just hope that you would be happy for me as well...” Calvin looked at her sadly. “Kit...” he said in a low voice. Then, he looked at Jiro. “I can never accept that fact that it's you... That it was you all this time. I just hope you're happy now... now that you are with Kit.” he said to him. Then, he threw one last glance at Kit before turning his back to leave. As he walked away from them, he felt the tears began to fall from his eyes. He took a deep breath as he took another step. He never thought that meeting Jay would hurt this much, he never thought he could get mad like this. He once lost to Jiro, when he was able to win Joy's heart, and he lost to him again now that he is with his best friend. He hated Jay for always taking Kit away from him.

Kit could only watch as Calvin leaves. She was fighting the tears from falling as she watched him. “Calvin...” she said silently. “I'm sorry... I'm sorry if I have to hurt you and Joy... I just want to be happy. It was you that I love, but I have to accept the fact that you can only see me as your best friend. I hope one day you would forgive me for being selfish this time... for not considering Joy's and your feelings when I got together with Jay... I'm sorry...” she said to herself. Jiro looked at her, and saw the sadness in her face. He put his arm around her, and pulled her to embrace. “Tin...” he called. Kit looked up at him, her tears finall falling from her eyes. “I have lost him, have I? I have lost him because I wanted to be happy... and my happiness is hurting him?” she asked. Jiro shook his head. “Don't think that way, Kit. He needed time to accept things. In time, he would be able us.” he said. “And Joy... if she found out... Jay, I'm scared... Joy is my friend, and... and I don't want to think that I betrayed her. I have hurt her...” she said as she buried herself into his chest. Jiro hugged him, his hand rubbed her back. “Ssshh... it's going to be all right...” he whispered to her. “It wasn't your fault, Tin. It's not your fault... I am to blame because... because I loved you too much that I could not give my all to her...” Jiro said. He could feel the pain she is feeling right now. He know she is scared that she will lose Calvin again. He knows that he will always come first in her life, because he is his best friend... and if there's anything he could do so that the two would make up, he'll do it. Even if Calvin asks him to stay away from her.

--

Joy heard a soft knock on the door. She stood up from her seat, and then went to the door to open it. She was surprised to see Calvin standing by the door, wearing a sad face. “Calvin? What... what happened?” she asked. “Can I come in, Joy? I... I need someone to talk to.” he said in a low voice. Joy nodded her head, and let Calvin inside her pad. “Did something bad happened?” Joy asked as she watched Calvin sit on the couch. Calvin slowly nodded his head. “I... I just found out something very... very shocking...” he said. Joy looked up at him, confused at what he is saying. Then, he noticed his right hand. It was swollen. Joy took his hand and had a closer look. “What happened to your hand?” Joy asked. She did not wait for Calvin to answer. She stood up and took her first aid kid, and bandaged his hand. All throughout, Calvin was silent. He was thinking how he will say what happened a while ago to Joy. She deserves to know what he have learned as well, since it involved her ex-boyfriend, and the reason why they broke up. “But I couldn't bear to break her heart...” he thought. “Then again, I know that everything that happened between them... it's all in the past. Maybe it wouldn't hurt her anymore if she find out who Tin is...”

Calvin watched Joy as he finished bandaging his hand. “There.” she said. She looked up at him and smiled. “From what happened to your hand, it seems like you punched someone.” she said, making it a joke. Calvin's face remained serious, then he slowly nodded his head. “You're right, Joy... I punched someone.” he said. Joy was surprised at what her boyfriend said. “You punched someone? It's unlikely of you to hurt someone...”
“I did. I hurt him... because... because I was mad at him.”
“And, who did you punched?”
“Jiro.”
Joy was even more surprised at what he said. “Jiro? Why did you hurt Jiro? Did he do something to you that pissed you off?” she asked. Calvin nodded his head again. “God knows how much I hated him. I hated him ever since we were kids. I hated him... I hated him for hurting you...” he said in a firm tone. “Calvin... you don't have to hate him that much because of what he did to me...” Joy said in a low voice. Calvin looked at him and shook his head. “You don't understand...” he said. He paused, his eyes turning away from him. Joy waited for him to speak again. “Jiro is Jay... and he is the same Jay that Kit is seeing... he is the same Jay that became Kit's boyfriend.” he said. Joy could not believe what she heard from Calvin. “Y-you meant to say... you mean to say, Kit is Tin?” she asked. She could hear her voice cracking. Calvin looked at her again. She wished that Calvin would shake his head, but he paused. Closing his eyes, she heard him take a deep breath. “Yes. Kit is Tin, the girl Jiro have loved for so long...” he said.

She felt the world crush on her upon hearing what Calvin said. She never thought that the friend she have trusted too much, would be the same girl that cause her heartache. What hurts her the most is the fact that Jiro have finally found what he was looking for, and knowing that, she knows that Jiro will not let go of Tin this time. “So... he found Tin finally...” she said in a low voice. “And all this time, it was Kit...” The tears couldn't help but fall from her eyes. She immediately wiped it, so that Calvin won't suspect a thing. A part of her is still loving Jiro, and there is still small hope in her heart that one day, Jiro will come back for her. That hope have finally waned, as he have let her go, and e have found Tin. There's nothing left for her to do but give all of her love to the man who mended her heart. She turned to face Calvin and gave her her sweetest smile. “We should be happy for them.” Joy said. “We should be glad that they finally found each other. I know Jiro. I know he would take good care of Kit...” she continued. Calvin shook his head in frustration. “How can I trust him when he have hurt Kit before. Joy, she waited for him for four summers. Four years... until she finally gave up! I was there for her whenever she cries... whenever she realized that he isn't coming back. I can't stand seeing her being hurt because of Jiro again...” he said in frustration. Joy sighed and shook her head. “You don't understand... you don't know what happened... the reason why he wasn't able to come back for Kit.” she said. “I don't care about his reasons! All I care about is the pain he gave her... the long wait... the time she have wasted just waiting for his return!” he shouted in anger. “Calvin!” Joy shouted in anger. She took another deep breath to calm herself down. “If Jiro had the chance, he would have came back for Tin that next summer. He badly wanted to fulfill his promise to your best friend... but that summer... that summer... he couldn't go back, because he was dying that time!”

Calvin fell silent at what she said. “It's true. He went to Singapore because his dad got promoted, and it was a last minute decision by his dad. Calvin... he was supposed to go back to Taiwan that summer after they settled there. He was supposed to come back to meet Tin... but... but he had an accident on their way to the airport. A car accident that almost caused his life. For months, Jiro was struggling for his life. and when he woke up, he found himself unable to move. He couldn't walk. Calvin, Jiro was paralyzed from his waist, and by some miracle... he was able to get through it. He didn't came back because he didn't want Tin to see her that way, he thought if Tin sees him, she would not befriend him anymore... so for four years, he struggled to move. Once he was able to walk again, he went back here in Taiwan, but he was too late. Kit gave up on waiting for him, but he... he did not. Every summer, he would still go to that beach, hoping to see her once again.” Joy explained. Calvin fell suddenly weak, that he fell on the couch. “You can hate Jiro, Calvin. You can... but please forgive him if he was not able to come back for Kit. Because Kit is the reason why he did his best to walk again.”

--

The next day, Calvin waited for Kit outside the classrom. He wanted to talk to her, and apologize for all the things he have done and said the night before. After a while, he saw Kit getting out of the room. She paused upon seeing him. “Kit...” he said. Kit was surprised to see Calvin by the gate. “C-calvin... what are you doing here?” she asked. “Aren't you going to meet Jiro today?” he asked. Kit shook her head. “He have a class right now. I asked him to meet me after school, I don't want you to see us together, because you too might have a conflict again.” she said in a low voice. She lowered her head, and turn her eyes away from him. Calvin sighed, and the put his hands on his pocket. “I'm sorry for being a jerk...” he began. “You're right. I should be happy for you. You deserve to be happy and to feel loved by someone. I admit I am being selfish... because all this time, you cared for me and did your best to make me happy, while I couldn't even do the same for you... I'm sorry if you feel that I have neglected you, that I took you for granted. I'm sorry if you feel that I'm only around you when I needed something, if I'm sad, or if I had problems. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you during the times that you needed me...” he said.

Kit listened to him, and then turned into a smile. She reached up to his cheek, and gently caressed it. With her warm touch, Calvin felt like he is quivering. “I forgive you, Calvin...” she said. “I... I'm sorry that I was being too inconsiderate of your feelings. You're right, I should be blamed with what happened between Jiro and Joy before.” she said in a low voice. Calvin looked at her, and then gave her a faint smile. “I don't blame you for that. I understand now, Kit. You have waited for Jay for a long time. He searched for you... waited for you... he loved you although he lost hope in finding you.” he said. Kit just nodded her head. “A lot of things have happened in the past that's why he wasn't able to come back for me. He explained to me why. He didn't hide anything from me, Calvin.” Kit said.. “I know, Kit. I now know why... Why didn't you tell me about it? If... if I only knew what happened to him, then.. then I wouldn't hate him that much.” he said. Kit paused and looked at him. “Because you never gave me the chance to tell you so.” she said. “When I talk about him, you cut me off, like you don't want to hear what I am about to say about him. I wanted to tell you so that you could understand, but you didn't want to listen to me. But I understand why... I know you don't like Jay...” she said in a low voice. “I'm sorry... I was blinded by my anger and my jealousy that's why... that's why I acted that way...” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “It's OK, Calvin. I understand.” she said. “Please tell sorry to Jiro for me. I... I feel ashamed of myself because of what I have done. I... I'll catch you later.” Then, Calvin turned his back to leave.

--

“Jiro...” he heard someone call him. Jiro paused, and looked back. He saw Joy walking towards him. He gave her a faint smile. “Hey...” he said. Joy just smiled at her. Joy noticed the bruise at the corner of his lip, and she know that Calvin was the reason behind that bruise. “Are you OK? I heard about what happened between you and Calvin last night...” she asked. Jiro nodded his head. “Yeah... I'm OK now. Tin helped me...” he said. Joy swallowed hard upon hearing Tin's name. She felt her heart breaking again. “Oh...” she said in a low voice. “I... I'm glad to hear that...” Jiro walked towards her, and looked into her eyes. “Maybe by now you know... maybe Calvin have already told you who Tin is...” he said. Joy slowly nodded her head. “I know... I know that it's Kit. And I know that... that she is your girlfriend now...” she said in a low voice. Jiro nodded his head. Then, Joy turned her back on him. “I... I'm happy for you.” she said, her voice is cracking. “I... I'm happy that you were able to find her. She... she's so lucky to be loved by someone like you...” she said. She took a deep breath and wiped the tear from her eyes. Jiro looked at her sadly. “Joy...” he said. “I asked you to wait for me... to wait until I could forget all about her... but you couldn't. You chose the love of another guy... to be happy in his arm...” he wanted to say. Joy looked back at him and forced a smile. “I wish you and Kit all the happiness in the world. I just hope... I just hope... she could love you in the same way that I have loved you...” she said in a low voice. She felt her lips quivering as she speaks. She turned her back on him again, and began to walk away. “Joy...” she heard him call again. “I... I'm sorry for... for the heartache I have given you...” she heard him say. Joy just nodded her head. “I... I forgive you...” she said. All Jiro could do is watch the girl he once loved walk away from him.

--

As Kit was walking through the empty hallway, she saw Joy at the opposite direction. Joy gave her a faint smile, and Kit nodded at her. “Hi...” Joy said. “Hi...” Kit answered. Then, there was a awkward silence between them. “C-can... can we talk?” Joy finally managed to ask. Kit just nodded her head. “I've been wanting to talk to you as well... about...”
“About Jiro.”
Kit looked away from her. “I'm sorry, Joy...” she began. “I know I am the reason why Jiro could not love you before... and I know I am the reason why he broke up with you.” Then, Kit looked at her. “I... I don't want you to think that I have betrayed you. The last thing I want to do is hurt you... because you are my friend...” Kit said. Joy just looked at Kit. “I was hurt, Kit. I could not deny that to you. I was hurt when Jiro chose you over me. I was hurt with the truth that he have always loved you. What hurts the most is that of all people, you have to be Tin, his first love...” Joy said to her. Kit lowered her head, feeling guilty. She felt that she have hurt a lot of people around her, so that she could be happy. “But I understand, Kit. Right from the start, I know that Jiro have loved you. I have accepted that fact long ago... All I'm asking of you is to take care of Jiro... to love him in the same way that he loved you. Because if you hurt him... you'll be hurting me too.” Joy said as she smiled faintly at her. Kit could not believe what she have heard. “Joy...” she said in a low voice. “Our love story have ended. You have this chance to continue where you left off 10 years ago... before his accident. Please don't break his heart...” she said. Kit smiled at her and nodded her head. “I promise to love him with all my heart, Joy... I promise you that...” she said. Then, she walked towards Joy, and gave her a hug.

--

It was evening when Jiro and Kit reached the latter's house. As the two got out of the car, they were surprised to see Calvin waiting by the gate. “Cal... what are you doing here?” Kit asked him. Calvin smiled at the two. “I was waiting for you...” he said to Kit. Then, he looked at Jiro. “I know Jiro would be driving you home, so I decided to wait for you guys so that I could talk to him.” he continued. Kit looked at Jiro, and smiled at him. Jiro held Kit's hand and squeezed it. Then, Kit turned to Calvin again. “So, does this mean you'll be giving your blessing to us?” she asked. Calvin let out a faint laugh. “We have to talk first, then let's see. Remember, he must come to me first before I could approve of your boyfriend.” Calvin said. Kit laughed at what he said. Then, she let go of Jiro's hand, and then gave Calvin a hug. “Thank you, Calvin. You don't know how much this means to me.” she said. Then, she reached up at him, and kissed him on the cheek. Calvin was stunned when Kit kissed her. Then, he saw Kit looked at Jiro and smiled at him. “Don't worry, it's just a friendly kiss.” she said. Jiro just laughed at what she said. Then, Kit turned to him and smiled. “Get inside now. Jiro and I have to talk. Man to man.” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head. The two guys watched as she got inside the house.

Calvin looked at Jiro, and saw him smiling lovingly at Kit. “You really love her, huh?” he asked. Jiro looked at Calvin and nodded his head. “You don't know how important she is to me.” Jiro said. “And you don't know how important she is to me, Jiro... or Jay...” he said. Jiro smiled and shook his head. “I know how important she is for you. I also know how much you mean to her. I've seen her cry before because you almost ended your friendship with her. Last night, when you left, she was sad. I know she's thinking that because of what she did, she'll be losing you again. I even considered... to beg you and not to be mad at her or avoid her... I just don't want to see her sad...” he said. Calvin smiled. He looked down, and put his hand on his pocket. “I only wanted the best for Kit. She deserves only the best...” he said. Then, Calvin looked up at him. “I know I have no right to be mad at you. You should even be mad at me because... because of Joy. But... but when I found out that you are Jay...”
“You have the right to be mad at me, Calvin. I stood her up. I never came back...”
“But you had your reasons...”

Jiro looked away at him, and smiled. “I was suppose to come back, but I had an accident. When the doctor told me that the chances of me not being able to walk is slim, I became sad. I became sad because it means I wouldn't be able to come back to Taiwan and see Tin again. The only chance I have is an operation... and I took the risk, even if it means that there's a chance I will die because of that operation. I was able to walk again after that... and the first thing I did is go back home and look for Tin. I was already too late. She never came back... I know I am to blame because she waited for me for four years. I blamed myself... thinking I have hurt her so much....” Jiro said. Then, he looked at Calvin and smiled. “I almost gave up on her. I chose to let her go... let go of her memories, our past, and my love for her. But on that day that I have let go, she came. I thought she would be mad at me... I thought she would hate me... it's beyond my imagination that she would give me that chance to love her.”
“Jiro... you couldn't blame me if I hated you. I was there all throughout. I've seen her cry because of you. She loved you even though you never came back. The last thing I want is to see my best friend being hurt by another guy.”
“I know that, Calvin. You're just protecting her, that's why. I hope you could give me a chance to prove to you and to the world that I love her, and that I'm worthy of her...”

Calvin paused, and then slowly nodded his head. “I'm giving you that chance.” he said. Then, he looked at him, and smiled faintly. It's about time for him to give way to Jiro. “Take good care of her. Love her with all your heart. Always make her smile. She love little surprises, so you have to surprise her once in a while. She's scared of thunder, so if you're together and there's a thunderstorm, just put an earphone on her ear and then play her favorite song in the loudest volume so that she won't get scared by it. If she's sad, or scared, or frustrated, give her a hug. If she gets mad at you, let her calm down before she talks to you... because if you didn't, she will only ignore you or say things that you don't want to hear.” he said. Then, he paused and looked away from Jiro. “She liked peach roses. She likes giving chocolates, so always accept it even if it tastes terrible. If something's bothering her, ask her until she tells you what's on her mind. You can watch her as she sleeps. If she got drunk, make sure to be ready when she vomits on you. She hated to be called Katherine, so don't say her full name when you're mad. She loves Annie very much, so you should learn to love Annie as well, even though she is a brat. Anyway, I see that you and any are in good terms, so that's my least worry. Sunday is our time together, so give us that few hours to catch up on each other.”

Calvin walked towards him, and put his hand on his shoulder. “She's in your hands now, Jiro. I expect that you will take care of her the way that I do. If you make her cry, I can't promise you that I won't hurt you.” he said. Jiro smiled at him and nodded his head. “Don't worry, Calvin. I have no plans of making her cry.” he said. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. “Good. I wish you and Kit all the happiness in the world, You are one lucky guy to have her as your girlfriend.” he said. “Calvin, thank you for giving me this chance. I won't disappoint you, I assure you that.” Jiro said. Calvin nodded his head again. “You better get inside now. Kit might be waiting for you.” he said. He watched Jiro as he went inside the house. He saw Kit standing by the door, smiling at him. Calvin smiled back at Kit. Then, he saw Jiro give Kit a big hug, and as Kit hug him back, she mouthed her thanks to him. Calvin just nodded his head and then turned to leave. As he walked away, he felt his heart become heavy. Now, he could understand how Kit is feeling each time he tells her about his new girlfriend. It's does hurt to give your best friend to the one who loves her, but he have to do this for her happiness. He took a deep breath and smiled to himself. “Just always remember that I am just here, Kit...” he thought. “You can always run to me when you need me...”

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 43 – The Stolen Kiss



“The annual St. John's University College Ball will be held next week.” Chun said as he sat beside Danson. He put the flyer on the table, and Danson took it to read. “Drats... I don't have a date!” Danson said. Chun looked at him and smirked. “Is that a problem? There are a lot of girls waiting in line to be your date.” Chun said. Danson just smiled and shook his head. “If it ain't Hannah, then I want nobody, baby...” he said. “So does that mean, you're not coming to the ball again?” Kit asked. Danson nodded his head. Jiro just shook his head. “Aiyo... Danson... you can't keep missing the ball. You have to come this year.” Jiro said. Chun and Kit nodded in agreement. “And besides, you don't need a date to come to the ball.” Joy said. “You have to go, Danson. Maybe you could meet the girl of your dreams at the ball.” Calvin said. Kit could not believe what his beast friend said. She glared at him, and the kicked him under the table. Calvin flinched in pain, while his friends laughed at him. “Wei! Why did you kick me?” Calvin said to Kit. Kit rolled her eyes at him. “Didn't you hear what Danson said? He said he doesn't want to date anyone except Hannah!” kit said. Calvin gave his best friend a confused look. “So?” Kit sighed at him for being slow. Jiro and Chun shook their heads while Danson and Joy just laughed. This made Calvin even more confused. “What's wrong? Did I say anything wrong? Is there something that I didn't know?” he asked. Joy looked at Kit and gave her a meaningful smile. “I know I missed a lot, Kit... but am I thinking what you're thinking?” she asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “Ooohhh... I was right...” Joy said. Calvin gave his girlfriend a confused look. “What is it?” he asked. Chun looked at Calvin and rolled his eyes at him. “Either you're stupid or slow...” he remarked. Danson turned to Calvin and smiled. “Just so happen that I have a big crush on Hannah now...” he explained to him. Calvin was surprised at what Danson said. “Really?” he asked, his eyes widened. “That explains why you and Kit were acting weird lately...” he said.

Then, Chun looked at Kit and smiled. “So, who will be your date, Kit? Is is your best friend, or your boyfriend?” he asked. Jiro laughed at his question. “Isn't it obvious, Chun?” he said as he held Kit's hand. Then, he looked at Kit and smiled at her. “Of course, I'm going to be her date... right, Tin?” he asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. Calvin was just watching as the two became sweet again. He felt jealous, but he know he have no right to be jealous of Jiro. “Just asking...” he heard Chun say. “Last year, Calvin was Kit's date, and you were Joy's date. I was thinking if it would still be the same as last year...” Chun said. Calvin sighed and shook his head. “Of course not. Kit is with Jiro now, so technically, Jiro is going to be Kit's date. As for me...” he stretched his arm, and then put his arm around Joy. “Joy will definitely be my date.” Calvin announced. Joy gave her boyfriend a glare. “Wei! You didn't asked me out yet, so don't assume things. And besides, maybe I want to be Danson's date that night!” she joked. Calvin gave her puppy eyes. “I thought you want to be my date that night...” he said. Joy smiled at him, and then she pinched his cheek. “Of course, I will be your date... don't worry.” she said to him. Kit watched them as they kissed. She is happy for her best friend, but inside, she felt jealous. She wantede to be Calvin's date again that year, but that's not possible anymore. She's with Jiro now, while Calvin is now with Joy.

“Hey, it's time for our classes now...” She heard Jiro say. Kit looked at him and smiled. “I'll see you later after school, OK?” he said. Kit smiled at him and nodded his head. Jiro and Chun stood up and left the cafeteria. “Social Studies class time.” Danson announced as he stood up from his seat. Joy also stood up from her seat. “Koochiepoo, where are you going?” Calvin asked. Joy looked at him and smiled. “I'm going with Danson. Both of our classes will be seeing a documentary at the at the auditorium.” she explained. Then, she leaned down and gave Calvin a kiss. In the end, Kit and Calvin were left alone at the cafeteria. “So... what are we going to do now?” he asked. “Wait for our next class, koochiepoo...” Kit answered. She laughed at what she said, while Calvin glared at him. “Very funny, Katherine.” he said, folding his arms. Kit smirked at him. “At least we're even now, koochiepoo.” she said. “Wei, as if you and Jiro don't have any pet names for each other!”
“Of course we do. We're not just as mushy or as corny as you two.”
“Koochiepoo is a nice pet name.”
“It sounds like you two are calling a puppy.”
“Oh, really? Tell me, what does Jiro call you, aside from Tin?”

Kit folded her arms and smiled proudly at him. “Jay calls me princess.” she said. Calvin fell silent at what he heard. “Oh...” he said in a low voice. “So... he also calls you princess...” Kit gave him a confused look. “What's wrong if Jay calls me princess? It's a nice pet name. I call him my prince charming.” she asked. Calvin looked up at her, unable to believe that she forgot all about it. “Didn't you remember? I... I used to call you princess when we were still kids? And... and you call me your prince charming...” he said. Kit suddenly remembered that. They were kids back then, and they were playing – acting out on their favorite fairy tale. Kit was the princess, while Calvin was her prince charming that time. “That... that was a long time ago, Calvin...” she said. She could not believe that Calvin would still remember that. She thought that Calvin have forgotten that he used to call her princess, since he have not heard him say that for years now. Meanwhile, Calvin felt hurt that Kit have forgotten about it. “Seems like Jiro took everything away from us...” he thought. Kit noticed the change in his expression. “Hey, Cal... don't tell me you're jealous just because my boyfriend calls me princess?” she asked. “I should be the only one who should call you princess!” he said to her. Kit just laughed at the way he reacted. “You're a very jealous guy...”
“You can't blame me. For me, it seems he took everything away.”
“I thought you and Jiro are OK now?”
“Didn't you promise before that if you got yourself a boyfriend, you will leave something that only the two of us know?”

Kit just laughed at him, being stubborn and jealous again. “I've kept my promise.” she said. Then, she leaned over him and then held his hand. “He doesn't know that when I have nightmares, I want someone to stay with me to hug me until I fell asleep. He also doesn't know that when I hold on to any accessories that I'm wearing, I feel tensed and that the only way to calm me down is to rub my arm.” she said. Calvin looked at her and smiled. “Well, that's two...” he said. “So, don't be jealous, OK?” Calvin nodded his head.

--

“Jay ge!” Annie shouted as soon as she saw Jiro entering the house. She ran towards him, and gave Annie a hug. “Did you miss Jay ge?” Jiro asked. Annie smiled and nodded her head. Calvin, Joy, Kit and Danson followed behind Jiro. Calvin looked at the two and smiled. He's happy to know that Annie is fond of Jiro. “Jay,” he heard Kit say. “Are you sure it's OK with you to stay here with Annie while Joy and I go on shopping?” she asked. Jiro stood up, carrying Annie, he nodded his head and smiled. “Of course. Annie and I need to catch up on a lot of things. Right, Annie?” he asked her. Annie smiled and nodded her head. Then, he looked at Danson, who was standing beside her sister. “Jie, is Danson ge coming with you?” she asked. Kit smiled at her little sister and shook her head. “Danson ge is staying.” she said. She smiled at Annie, and she was happy seeing her little sister happy. She knows that her little sister have a crush on Danson. “Yay! Danson ge is staying!” she shouted in glee. Kit just laughed at her sister. Then, she felt Calvin nudging him. “Wei... what's wrong with Annie?” he whispered to her. “It's enough that she's happy that your boyfriend is baby sitting him, why does she want Danson around?” he asked. “Can't you see, my little sister have a crush on Danson.” Kit whispered to him. Calvin just nodded his head.

“Hey, I think you girls should get going before it gets late. Don't worry about Annie, Danson and I will take care of her.” Kit heard her boyfriend say. Kit smiled at him and nodded his head. As Annie let go of Jiro and latched herself to Danson, Kit leaned over Jiro and gave him a kiss. “OK, girls... come on, I'll drive you to the mall.” Calvin said. Both Joy and Kit glared at Calvin, to his confusion. “What?” he asked the two. “You're staying. I'll drive us to the mall.” Kit said. Calvin was surprised at what she said. “What?! Why can't I go with you girls? I want to see the dress you'll be buying.” he protested. Joy smirked and shook her head. “Sorry, but it will be a surprise. You can stay here with Jiro and Danson, as for me and Kit, we're going now.” she said. Before Calvin could further protest, the two girls were already outside. “But... but I want to come too!” Calvin shouted. Jiro and Danson just laughed at their friend. “Aiyo...” Jiro said as he walked over him. “Let the girls bond for a while. Besides, shopping will just bore you out.” he said. Calvin looked at Jiro and shook his head. “You don't understand, I always accompany Kit whenever she have to buy a dress for a special occasion. She always asks for my opinion on the dress she tries on.” he said. Jiro fell silent as he stepped away from him. “Oh...” he said in a low voice. He never thought that Calvin would react that way. “Anyway, you don't have to worry about a thing.” he said as he smiled at Calvin. “She's with Joy, and I know Joy's fashion sense. Tin's in good hands.” Calvin just sighed, and nodded his head. There's nothing he could do now, since the girls have already left. “Fine... let's just play with Annie.” Calvin said to Jiro. Then, he noticed that Danson and Annie have left. “Weird, where's Annie and Danson?” he asked Jiro. Jiro just shrugged his shoulder. “Annie?!” Jiro called. “We're up here!” they heard Danson shout. “I'm playing tea party with Annie... want to join us?” he shouted again. The two guys burst out laughing. “Let's not join them.” Calvin said. Jiro nodded in agreement.

--

It was late in the evening when Kit retreated to her room. As she opened the lights of her room, she went to the cabinet near the window, and took her pajamas, then she began to undress. Then, she heard a window open. “Kit!” she heard Calvin said. Kit panicked upon hearing him call. She immediately covered herself. She looked at the window, and glared at Calvin who was laughing so hard. “Peeping Tom!” she shouted angrily at him. “Wei, I wasn't the exhibitionist!” Calvin said in defense. “Have I told you many times not to peek on me when I am dressing?” she asked again. “And how many times do I have to tell you to put on your blinds when you are dressing.” he said. Kit could not think of anymore come back for Calvin. “You're nose is bleeding. That's what you get for taking a look at my sexy body.” she said. Calvin laughed at what she said. “Sexy body I disagree...” he said. He wiped his nose, and found that there was no blood on it. As he looked up, he saw Kit laughing at him. “I fell for that one...” he said. “Ooohh... my best friend is lusting over me. Tsk tsk tsk... that's too bad.” she teased. Calvin felt himself blushing. He was embarrassed as he saw something that he was not supposed to see. Kit saw him him blushing and laughed at him again. “Stop laughing at me!” Calvin said angrily. “Aiyo, I'm just kidding. Anyway, what do you want?” she asked. She saw Calvin smile as he rubbed his hands. “Can I see the dress you're going to wear to the ball?” he asked.

Kit just smiled at him. “The dress that I'll be wearing?” she asked. Calvin nodded his head. “Hmmm... let me think about it... how about no?” she said. Calvin frowned at her answer. “Aiyo... why don't you want me to see the dress?” he asked, pouting at her. “It's a surprise.”
“Let me see!”
“The answer is no...”
“Please?”
“No.”
“Pretty please?”
“No.”

Then, he began to pull his plank again and put it on her window. “OK, Calvin Chen... what are you doing?” she asked. She watched him as he balanced himself on the plank and went to her room. “Let me see.” he said as soon as he got in her room. Kit put her hands on her waist and shook her head. “No.” she said. Calvin noticed a shopping bag by the floor. “That must be her dress...” he thought. He let out a vicious smile, and then took the shopping bag on the floor. Kit panicked when she saw Calvin tok it. “Give it back!” she demanded. Calvin just smirked at her. “Let me see this first, OK?” he said. Before he could take a peek inside the bad, Kit jumped on his back and tried to reach for the bag. “Give it back!” she shouted on his ear. Calvin tried his best not to let Kit get hold of the bag. “Let me see first!” he said to her. “No! No peeking!” she said to him. Kit grabbed his both hands, and Calvin tried to let go from her grip. As he was trying to get Kit off of his back, he feel out of balance, making Kit fall on the bed with him on top.

They stayed that way for a while. Calvin stared into her eyes, and Kit stared into his. “I'm sorry...” Calvin whispered to her. He still did not move, and kept on staring at her face. “Cal...” Kit called. She watched him as his face began to move closer to hers. The tip of their noses touched, and then she saw him close his eyes. “Oh my God... he's going to kiss me...” she thought. Part of her wants to push him away, but another part of her wants to kiss him. “I missed this...” Calvin thought as he closed his eyes. “I missed being this close to her...” At the moment Kit closed her eyes, she felt Calvin's lips touched hers. He gently kissed her lips, and she responded to that kiss. She felt his hand slowly caress her cheek. At that moment, she felt like she's in heaven. She wished that the world would stop spinning, and the time would stop so that he would kiss her forever, but she know that what they are doing isn't right. Not only are they best friends, but they are betraying Jiro and Joy because of that Kiss. Her mind is spinning as Calvin conquered her lips. “This is wrong... this is wrong...” she thought. All though her mind is telling her stop, her body couldn't.

When Calvin's hand trailed to her cheeks, she felt something wet flowing for her cheeks. He opened her eyes, and saw Kit crying. As he saw that tear, he felt as if someone have awaken her. He immediately broke the kiss and stood up, feeling guilty for kissing her. “I... I'm sorry...” he said in a low voice. He turned her back on her, not wanting to look into her eyes. “I... I didn't mean to kiss you Kit. I'm really sorry...” he said again. Kit sat up on her bed, staring at Calvin's back. “Calvin...” she called in a low voice. Calvin looked at her, and she could see the guilt written all over his face. “Please don't think I have taken advantage of you. I... I didn't know what came to me...” he said. Then he looked at her. “I'm sorry Kit, please don't be mad at me. I know this is wrong...” Kit gave him a faint smile and shook her head. “I'm not mad. I... I should be the one who should say sorry... I think I... I did something...”
“No, you did not. It... It's me...”
“Calvin...”
“I'm really sorry, Kit. This... this wouldn't happen again.”

Calvin stood up from her bed. “I think you should rest now. I'll see you tomorrow at school.” he said. As he was about to go out, Kit called him again. “Calvin... promise me that nothing would change after... after this...” she said. Calvin looked at her and nodded his head. “I think... I think we should forget that this ever happened.” he said. Kit watch Calvin as he got out of the window and went back to his room. She sat up on her bed for a long time, the tears voluntarily rolls off from her eyes. “I will never forget this kiss, Calvin... how could I if this is what I have dreamed of for a long time...”

--

Days passed by and it was already the night of the College ball.

Jiro sat on the couch, patiently waiting for Kit to come out of her room. While he was waiting for her, Annie was keeping him company. After a while, he heard the door bell ring. “Is Kit expecting another date?” Auntie Jin asked Jiro. Jiro just shrugged his shoulder. As Auntie Jin opened the door, he saw Calvin entered the house. He was surprised to see him. “What are you ding here? I thought you're going to pick up Joy?” Jiro asked. Calvin smiled at him and took a seat next to Annie. “I figured that she's not ready by this time, so I decided to stop by and see Kit.” he said. Jiro just nodded his head, and then turned his attention on the stairs. Just then, they heard footsteps on the stairs. The two guys stood up from their seats and waited for Kit to come down.

Calvin saw how pretty Kit is that night, She wore a black haltered dress that come up to her knees. She wore a light make up, and she put her hair up, with a few strands on the side of her face. She smiled at the two, and then she twirled around. “How do I look?” she asked. Jiro smiled at her. “Perfect. Just perfect...” he said. Then, he walked towards her and then handed her a stem of peach rose. “For my lovely princess...” he said. Kit smiled at him and then took the rose. “Thank you, my dashing prince.” she said. Calvin was mesmerized by the way Kit looked tonight. He have never seen Kit this beautiful before. “Calvin ge, you're drooling!” they heard Annie said. Kit and Jiro looked at him and then laughed. Calvin gave Annie a shocked look, and then wiped the side of his lips. “No, I'm not drooling, Annie.” he said defensively. “You are! Maybe it's because you've never seen jie this pretty!” Annie said. Kit gave him a confused look. “Cal, aren't you going to pick up Joy? She must be waiting for you by now...” she said. “Uh... I just stopped by to... to check on you...” Calvin stuttered. Kit just laughed at her best friend. “Wei, Cal... I think you should go and pick up Joy now. We'll see you at the ballroom later.” Jiro said. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. “I'll go ahead. See you guys later.” he said. As he turned to leave, he was wishing that he was Kit's date that night.

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 44 – The Last Dance



This is my last dance with you
This is my only chance to do
All I can do
To let you know that what I feel is real...

--

The door of the ballroom opened, and Calvin and Joy stepped inside. Calvin looked at her lovingly, then, she held onto his arms. “There they are...” he heard someone say. Calvin looked at his side, and saw Chun waving at them. They walked towards them, and they saw Jiro, Kit and Danson with him. “Don't tell me you and Danson don't have a date?” he asked Chun. Chun just smiled at him. “I am a lucky guy. I have two dates. Dannie boy here doesn't have one, and doesn't want one.” he said. Then, Calvin saw two girls came by his side. “Excuse me, guys... but I have to go with my dates.” he said, winking at them all of them laughed as they watched Chun leave with his dates. Danson found himself being left with the two lovers. “I think Ill go and ask Chun if I could borrow one of his dates for tonight.” he said as he followed Chun.

“So...” Calvin said to break the awkward silence among them. “I think we should find a seat and have dinner. I'm starving.” he said. Kit laughed at what he said. “You're always starving, Calvin.” she remarked. Calvin looked at her, and smirked. “I'm a growing boy, Katherine.” he snapped at her. Kit flinched upon hearing her name. “Or is it because you have a lot of tape worms in your stomach...” Kit snapped back at him. Jiro and Joy could see the tension building up between the two. “Aiyo... don't start fighting over nonsense matters now...” Jiro said as he stand between the two. Calvin and Kit laughed upon seeing the look on Jiro's face. “Didn't we got you on that, prince charming?” Calvin asked. Joy gave the two a confused look. “Don't worry, we're not really fighting. We're just acting like we're fighting.” Kit said. Jiro sighed with relief upon hearing what she said. “And I thought the two of you are really fighting.” he said. Then, he put his arm around Kit and smiled at her. “Don't scare me like that ever again.” he said to her. Kit smiled and nodded her head. Then, Jiro turned to Calvin. “I think we should go find our table so that we could have our dinner.” he said. Calvin nodded his head, then all of them followed him.

--

After settling to their table, the four went to the buffet table to get their food. Calvin took the serving sthingy, and then took some stir-fried shrimps. “Joy, dear, do you want some shrimps?” he asked. “Uh... Cal.. Joy is allergic to shrimps. Better not give her some or she'll have an attack.” Jiro said. Calvin nodded his head, and then put the shrimp on his plate instead. He looked at Jiro and saw him putting some asparagus on Kit's plate. “Uh... Jiro.. Kit is not fond of asparagus. Don't bother putting some on her plate for she won't eat it.” he said. Jiro then gave a confused look at Kit. “You don't like asparagus?” he asked. Kit nodded her head. “OK. I'll just get those asparagus later...” he said in an apologetic tone. “It's OK, Jiro. I'd like to try some of these as well.” Kit said. Calvin gave her a surprised look. “Wei... you hate asparagus! Why would you want to eat them now?” he asked. Kit looked at Calvin and smiled. “I want to try it out. Besides, it looked delicious.” she said. As Kit looked at Jiro and smiled at him, Calvin could only glare at his best friend. “And since when did she want to try out asparagus? You hated it ever since...” he thought while watching Kit.

Just then, he saw Joy putting some chili pork on her plate. “Koochiepoo...” can you give me some of that?” he asked sweetly at her. Joy smiled at him and nodded her head. As she put some chili pork on his plate, Kit stopped her. “Wei... Joy... Calvin doesn't like anything spicy.” she said. Joy gave Calvin a confused look. “I thought you want some?” she asked. Calvin nodded his head, then he glared at Kit. “Maybe I want to try it too, Katherine.” he snapped at her. Kit was confused at the way Calvin was acting. “Fine...” she said in a confused tone. “Don't cry if you found it too spicy.” she said. Calvin saw as she looked at Jiro again and smiled. He felt jealous again, because Kit turned all of her attention to Jiro. “Calvin, is there anything else that you want?” Joy asked. Calvin looked at her and shook his head. “I'm good. Joy smiled at him and nodded his head. Then, she looked at Kit, and saw her putting some oysters on Jiro's plate. “Kit... not too much on the oysters. He have a little allergy on those.” she said. Kit looked at Joy and nodded her head. Calvin felt more jealous, because even Joy cared about Jiro. “Why him? I'm also here... why are they ignoring me?” he thought. Then, he went back to the pan with chili pork and took some more of it. Kit saw what Calvin did and was even more confused at him. “Calvin!” she called. Calvin paused, and smiled. “This is it... he'll tell me to stop getting these chili pork...” he thought. Kit walked towards him, and then tapped his should. “I just want you to know that my camera is ready to take a picture of you when you ate all of the chili pork. I know you'll cry and turn red if you eat all of that, so... good luck!” he heard Kit say. He looker at her with disbelief.

--

This is that chance for us
This is the moment that I just cannot let end
Before I know that there's a chance
We're more than friends...

--

All throughout dinner, Calvin was watching Jiro and Kit. The two are very sweet as they ate dinner. Jiro had his arms wound Kit, and from time to time, Kit would look lovingly at Jiro. She would help Jiro wipe his mouth as he eat. Calvin tried to do the same with Joy, but he always gets distracted by the two. “Why does she only have her eyes on him? She's ignoring me...” he thought. He absent-mindedly stuck his fork on the food on his plate. “Calvin, are you OK?” he heard Joy asked. Calvin looked at her and smiled. “Of course I am, koochiepoo. Don't worry about me.” he said, smiling at her. He leaned over Joy, and then kissed her on the cheek. “Hmmm... I think why you were too silent is because the chili pork is way too spicy for you.” Kit teased. He looked at Kit and gave her a smirk. “In fact, it's not.” he said. He took one, and then ate it. As he chewed on the pork, he realized that Kit is right. He could see the I-told-you-so look on her face, and that triumphant smile as he turned all read. But, he can't let Kit think that she won. “Not... that... spicy...” he said in between chew. Jiro and Joy just looked at him. “Are you sure you're all right, koochiepoo?” Joy asked. Calvin turned to Joy and forced a smile. He took another chili pork, and put it inside his mouth. He chewed it, but it was way too spicy that he was already sweating profusely. “I... can't... let... Kit... win...” he thought.

Kit leaned over the table, and then smirked at Calvin. “See, I told you so...” she said. Unable to take it anymore, Calvin grabbed the glass of water and gulped it down. The three laughed as they watched Calvin finished off a glass of water. He put the glass down and sighed with relief. He looked at the three, and found them laughing at him. “Wei... there's nothing funny!” he snapped at the three. He leaned on his chair, and then looked sternly at Kit. Kit just raised an eyebrow at him, and smirked at him. Then, she turned her attention to Jiro. “Jay, taste this one...” he said as she took the food from her plate, and put it on Jiro's mouth. “It's delicious!” Jiro said. Then, he leaned over Kit, and kissed her on the cheek. Calvin flinched at he watched the two. “Eewww... you two are very disgusting.” he remarked. Kit looked at Calvin, trying her best to control her temper. “You're just jealous because my boyfriend is sweet.” she snapped at him. Calvin smirked at her, and then put his arm around Joy. “Oh, really now...” he said to her. Jiro and Joy looked at the two, confused if they are fighting or still acting. “Err... guys... maybe you two should calm down...” Joy suggested. Calvin just smiled, still glaring at Kit. “I am calm, koochiepoo. Don't worry.” he said. Kit smiled as well as she glared at Calvin. “Yeah... we're calm already...” she said.

“Uh... princess... would you like some deserts?” Jiro asked. Kit looked at him and nodded her head. “Would love to, my prince charming.” she said. She watched as Jiro stood up from his seat and went to the buffet table. Joy couldn't handle the tension between the two, so she stood up and followed Jiro. “I... I think I'll get us some deserts too, Calvin.” she said. The two were left alone at the table. Kit folded her arms as she looked away from him. There was a hostile silence between the two. Then, Kit glared at Calvin. “You started it... and I don't know why you're acting like that...” she thought as she looked at him.

--

“Hey Jiro! Hey Joy!” Danson called as soon as he saw the two walking towards the buffet table. Jiro looked up at him and smiled. “Hey, Dannie boy! Enjoying the ball?” he asked. Danson smiled and nodded his head. Danson noticed that they were together, and not with their respective beau. “Where's Kit and Cal?” he asked. Joy pointed at their table. “They were fighting, I guess...” she said. Danson gave Joy a confused look. “Fighting? About what?” he asked. Joy just shrugged her shoulders. “Weird, what's wrong with them?” he thought. Then, he turned to Jiro and Joy, and smiled. “I'll check out on them first. See you guys around.” he said.

He walked towards their table, and he could see that the two best friends were not talking. “Hey, Kit...” he said as he walked towards her. Kit looked up at him and smiled. “Hey, Danson!” she greeted. “Enjoying the ball?” she asked. Kit nodded her head. “Sure I am... I don't know with this guy in front of me.” she said, eying on Calvin. Calvin looked at Danson and smiled at him. “I am enjoying the ball, thank you very much.” he said to Danson. Then, he looked at Kit and glared at her again. Although they say that they are OK, Danson could feel that there is something going on between the two. “You guys aren't fighting, aren't you?” he asked. “Of course not, Dannie. I didn't do anything to piss Calvin off, haven't I, Calvin?” she asked. Calvin glared at her and smiled. “Of course, you didn't. You were ignoring me the whole night, so why would you piss me off?”
“I am not ignoring you, koochiepoo.”
“You are, Katherine.”
“No I am not.”
“Of course you are. You have your eyes on your 'prince charming' the whole night, that you forgot that I am here...”

Kit is getting mad at Calvin, but she doesn't want to explode at him, for it will just ruin her night. “It's no use talking to a stubborn guy like you, Calvin.” she said as she stood up. “Come on, Danson. Let's just dance instead. I don't want to be stuck with this insecure guy here.” she said as she held onto Danson's arm. Danson nodded his head, and as they walked towards the dance floor, he threw a glance at Calvin. Meanwhile, Calvin was getting mad at Kit as well. Not only is she ignoring him, but she asked Danson to dance with him instead. “Stupid Kit! I am here... why did you have to ask Danson to dance with you?” he thought. And yes, he is jealous. Very jealous.

--

“I don't know what's with him!” Kit said as she danced with Danson. “First, he snapped at me because I took the asparagus that Jay gave me. Then, I warned him about getting too much chili pork, and then he snapped at me like that!” Kit sad in an angry tone. Danson laughed at what Kit said. “I think he just wants you to notice him. From what I see, he wants your attention tonight.” he said. “But he is with Joy. Why would he still want my attention?” she asked. Danson paused and smiled at her. “Because you are his best friend, remember?” he said. He held Kit's hand, and lead her out of the dance floor. “Did you compliment him on his suit tonight?” he asked. Kit shook her head. “No.” she answered. “Have you told Jiro that he's dashing tonight?” he asked again. This time, Kit nodded her head. “I did...” she said in a low voice. “See? Calvin's jealous because Jiro have all of your attention for tonight, and he only wants you to take a glance at him. Why don't you come to him, and then tell him he looks good tonight, and then spend sometime with him. You don't have to be with Jiro the whole night, and he doesn't have to be with Joy the whole night as well.” he said. Kit lowered her and head and let out a faint smile. “Guess you're right...” she said. “And besides, I think this is the first time that you two went to this ball with a different partner. Go talk to him... maybe you could ask him to dance with you. For sure he misses his best friend.” Danson suggested. Kit looked up at him and smiled. “Thanks, Danson.” she said. She then walked towards their table to talk to Calvin. After taking a few steps, Kit turned back and smiled at Danson. “Anyway, enjoy the night. Thanks for the dance.” she said.

--

So don't let go...
Make it last for a night...
This is my last chance to make you mine...

--

“Calvin...” Kit called him in a low voice. Calvin looked back at her and just glared at her. “What?” he snapped at her. She took a deep breath and counted silently. She is starting to lose her patience on him. “What is wrong with you?” she asked him. Calvin looked away from her, ignoring her question. “Why are you in a bad mood? Was there something I said or done that you didn't like?” she asked again. “Wow... so finally you're talking to me after ignoring me...” he snapped at her again. Kit walked in front of him and glared at him. “I am not ignoring you!”
“Yes, you are... princess!”
“Look, koochiepoo... you have you eyes on Joy. Don't I have the right to shower my boyfriend with attention?”
“You have the right, but can you put in that little mind of yours that I do exist as well?”
“Are you mad because of what happened at the buffet table?”
“You're making it look like as if I don't know you anymore!”
“Why? Because I wanted to eat asparagus? Are you mad because of that?”
“I am mad because -”

Calvin paused as he stood up. He couldn't recall why he was mad at Kit in the first place. “Because?” Kit asked as she folded her arms. She was waiting for his answer. “Because you would rather eat that asparagus that Jiro gave you.” he said. Kit sighed in frustration. “Look. I am not having this fight over a a stupid asparagus.” she said. Calvin could tell that he have successfully made her pissed off. He saw her storm out of the ballroom.”OK... now she's really mad.” he thought. He decided to follow Kit.

Calvin followed her until she reached the elevator. She pushed the button, and waited for the elevator door to open. “Where are you going?” Calvin asked her. Kit didn't bother to look up at him. “Away from you.” she said. As soon as the elevator opened, Kit immediately went inside, and still, Calvin followed him. “What are you doing here?” Kit asked as soon as the elevator door closed. “I am going with you.”
“I am mad at you, Calvin Chen. Can't you give me the space to calm down first?”
“Look, I just want to talk...”
“Talk about what? You're going to piss me off again?”
“I didn't mean to snap on you like that.”
“Didn't mean to? You were picking at me out there! You wanted me to look like at fool in front of our friends.”
“I didn't mean to -”

Before Calvin could finish his sentence, the lights went off and they felt that they stopped. “W-what's wrong?” Kit asked nervously. “I don't know.” Calvin said. He pressed on the emergency button on the elevator, hoping it would help. They heard a voice over the speaker. “Hi. Uhmmm... me and my friend got stuck in the elevator... we're not moving.” Calvin said over the speaker. “OK sir, please give us twenty minutes to fix the problem.” they heard them said. “Great! I'm stuck with you for the next 20 minutes.” Kit said sarcastically. Calvin just glared at her. “As if I want to get stuck with you...” he snapped at her again. Kit slumped on the floor, and began to toy with her necklace. She fell silent. Calvin know that if she toys with her necklace, it means that she is really nervous. “Are you OK, Kit?” he asked as he sat beside her. “None of your business.” she snapped at him. She continued to toy with her necklace. “God... please let us out of here...” she thought. Calvin just watched her. He took his coat off, and then put it on Kit. Kit was surprised at what he did, and as she looked up at him, he smiled. He moved closer to her, and then he began to rub her arm to calm her down. “Nervous, aren't we?” he asked as he rubbed her arm. “No, I'm not.” she lied. She looked away from him, trying her best not to smile at him. He continued to rub her arm, and she could not deny that it felt good. She was really scared when the elevator stopped, and she felt at ease as she felt Calvin's warm hands against her skin. “Don't be scared now, princess. They said they will fix the problem in 20 minutes, so let's trust that they will.” he assured her. “Good...” she said as she smiled at him. “I can't wait to see Jay. I want to dance with him the whole night.” she said. She heard Calvin sigh again, and she can tell that he is getting pissed off at her again. She smiled to herself, as she never thought that making him mad and jealous is fun.

--

I've kept my feelings so deep
I've kept a dream of you and me somewhere inside
Although I pray that you would see it in my eyes
But this is my last chance to say
What's in my heart before you fade out of my life
And never understand the way I feel inside

--

“Chun?” Joy called the guy in front of her. Chun looked back and saw Joy coming up to him. “Hey, Joy! What's up?” he asked. “Chun, have you seen Calvin?” she asked. Chun just shrugged his shoulder. “I don't know... Isn't he with Kit a while ago?” he asked. Then, Jiro came up to him. “Chun, have you seen Kit?” he asked. Chun shook his head. “Saw her dancing with Dannie boy a while ago.” Chun said. “Where's Danson?” both of them asked. “Stepped out to make that important call to Hannah.” Chun said. The two of them sighed. They left the two best friends a while ago to get some more food, and when they came back, they where gone. “Where did they go?” Joy asked in a worried tone. “Maybe they went somewhere to talk about their issues. You can clearly see that they were already fighting a while ago.” Jiro said. Joy sighed again and shook her head. “It's Calvin fault. He started it. Maybe Kit is really pissed off at him right now.” Joy said. Jiro smiled and shook his head. “No, Joy. It's Kit's fault. She should have not said those things to Calvin a while ago. She made Calvin pissed off.” he said. Joy smiled at him and shook her head. “No, Jiro. It's really Calvin's fault. He shouldn't have teased Kit.” she said. Before Jiro could rebut, Chun stepped between them. “Wait, wait, wait... can you guys stop arguing who's fault is it and who started the fight? Why don't we just go and find the two? If they fought, most likely, Kit have already tore Calvin into a million pieces by now.” Chun said.

--

Kit was walking back and forth as she waited for their elevator to move. Calvin was just watching her as she moved. He laughed silently at her. “Wei... can you stop moving around? You're making me dizzy.” Calvin said. Kit stopped, and glared at him. “I am waiting for this elevator to move because I don't want to get stuck with you here for a long time!” she said. “But you don't have a choice. This is much better that you being alone.” he said. Kit walked over him, and put her hand on her waist. “Why don't you think of other ways to get us out of here, Mr. Smartypants?”
“What do you want me to do? Be like Tom Cruise in Mission Impossible?”
“Then why don't you call for help?”
“I already did, remember? They said to wait for twenty minutes.”
“But twenty minutes have passed, Mr. Chen.”
“If you can't wait, then why don't you call them?”
“Because no one is answering... Mr. Chen. Can you at least call one of our friends so that they won't worry about us? You have your phone with you, right?”

Calvin smirked at her. He took his phone from his pocket and showed it to Kit. Kit was shocked that his phone have no signal. “We are in an enclosed area, Ms. Jin. Of course, there's no signal here.” he snapped at her. “And why didn't you tell me?”
“Because you would only get more tensed if I tell you!”
Kit shook her head as she sat beside him. “Great. Just what I needed for tonight – an argument with my best friend.” she said sarcastically. Calvin smiled as he looked at her. “Actually, I'm thankful that we got stuck here.” he said. Kit looked at him, confused at what he said. “What is there to be thankful for for being stuck in the elevator?” she asked. “Can't you see... it's just you and me here. No Jiro, no Joy, no Danson and Chun to bother us. Just you and me... no one to get in our way...” he said. Then, he put his arm around her. “It's just I miss being like this. I'm used to getting all of your attention... but Jay came into your life, and since then, you only had your eyes on him...” he said to her. Kit smiled at him. “You're like that with Joy. You barely notice that I am around when you are with her.” she said. She leaned over him, and rested her head on his shoulder. “I'm used to being the only guy in your life. I'm used to having you around. Honestly, I miss it when you praise me... when you say how good-looking I am in my suit... or that I look dashing.... the likes. When I came over your house a while ago, I was expecting you to say that, but instead, you questioned why am I at your house, and even reminded me to pick up Joy. You didn't even complimented me.” he said in a hurt tone. Kit just laughed at what he said. “So, is that why you were acting up a while ago?” she asked. Calvin nodded his head. “I'm more hurt that you didn't gave me the chance to ask you to be my date. Maybe I want to be your date again... maybe I want to spend this night with you...”
“I assumed that you'll be going with Joy... and you know that Jiro is my boyfriend so I'm left with no choice but to go with Jiro.”
“Maybe if you gave me the chance to ask you out, then maybe I could ask Jiro this big favor. I really want to be your date tonight...”
“And what about Joy? Don't you want to be with her?”

Calvin became silent, and just looked at her. Kit smiled at him, and she reached for his face. “Joy is your girlfriend, and I don't want her to think that I am taking you away from her. You have to enjoy this night with her, because I am enjoying mine with Jiro.” she said. Calvin felt hurt at what she said, but he didn't let her show that. “I can see that... but I can still dance with you later, right?” he asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “Of course. You can dance with me right after I danced with Jiro.” she said. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. Just then, Then light went on, and then they felt the elevator moving.

--

“Jay!” Kit called as soon as she saw him inside the ballroom. Jiro looked back, and smiled at her. He walked towards her, and gave her a big hug. “Where have you been, princess?” he asked in a worried tone. Kit looked up at Calvin before answering him. “Cal and I talked. We got stuck in the elevator on our way back here.” she explained. Jiro looked up at Calvin and smiled. “Thank you for bringing back my princess to me.” he said. Calvin smiled back at Jiro and nodded her head. “Kit, I have a surprise for you...” Jiro said. Kit gave him a curious look. Before she knew it, she heard their song playing. “I requested it just for you... would you like to dance with me?” he said, offering her his hand. Kit smiled sweetly at Jiro, and took her hand. “I would love to have this dance.” she said. Then, they walked together towards the dance floor, and slow danced to their song.

Calvin was watching the two as they danced. He felt envy again because of the surprise Jiro have given Kit. He wished he was the one who have thought of that, so that he could dance with her. “Isn't Jiro sweet?” he heard Joy. Calvin looked at her and smiled. “Yeah, he sure is...” he said as he put his arm around her. “He never did this to me before, but with Kit... it seems that he always have surprises in store for her. I envy her...” she said in a low voice. Then, she looked up at Calvin. “But I am more lucky because my date is the most handsome prince of the school.” she said. Calvin smiled at her, and leaned down to kiss her on the lips. “Don't worry... one of these days, you'll get a surprise much better than this.” he promised. Joy smiled and nodded her head. “Can I dance with the girl I love?” Calvin asked again. Joy let out a giggle and nodded her head. Then, they went to the dance floor and danced side by side with Kit and Jiro.

After the music stopped, one of the teachers walked up to the stage. “May I have your attention please...” she said. All of the students turned their attention to the teacher on stage. “Before we continue with the ball, we would like to announce the king and queen of the ball.”

--

So hold me close
Coz it feels so right...
This is my last chance to make you mine...

--

“And the King of the night is... Mr. Calvin Chen!”

As soon as his name was announced, the spotlight focused on him. Everyone around him congratulated him, and Joy gave him a kiss on the cheek before he walked up to the stage. The teachers helped him wore his crown and his sash. “I think the queen would be Joy...” Kit said as she watched Calvin. Jiro put his arm around her and smiled. “Don't worry... you may not be the queen of the night, but for me, you are the most beautiful girl in this room tonight.” he said to her. Kit blushed at what he said, then she gave Jiro a kiss on the cheek.

“The Queen of the night is...”

Everyone inside the ballroom held their breath as they waited for the announcement. Some of them have assumed that it will be Joy, since she is Calvin's date that night. “The Queen of the night is none other than... Ms. Katherine Jin!”

Kit was surprised to hear her name. She looked at Jiro, who was as surprised as she is. “D-did... did they just called my name?” she asked. Jiro nodded his head. “Why don't you go up and get your crown, princess...” he said, smiling at her. Kit nodded her head, and then she left his side to go up the stage. Calvin smiled at her as soon as she got up the stage. She watched her as the teacher put on her crown and sash. Then, she stood next to her. “You deserve to be the queen of the night.” he whispered to her. Kit looked at her, and smiled. “And now, the king and queen will have their dance.” their teacher announced. Calvin held Kit's hand, and helped her down the stage. By some trick of fate, the song that played was their favorite love song. As they turned to face each other, the spotlight was on them, and then they began to dance.

“I never thought I would become the queen of the night...” Kit said. Calvin just smiled at her. “You are the most beautiful girl in this ball tonight, Kit. You deserve it.” he said. Kit looked up at him and smiled. “By the way, Cal...” she said. “You look as dashing as a king tonight...” Upon hearing that, Calvin smiled at her again, and pulled her closer to him. “And I am glad that you are my queen for tonight...” he whispered to her. They continued to dance, until their favorite song is over...

[Feelingerang Mo Mo [chunina]]

I feel so huli na.
Missing cranes so muchhhhh T.T

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 45 – Where Confusion Lies



Jiro could only watch as Kit and Calvin danced. He doesn't know why, but he felt suddenly scared at their closeness. There was something in the way Calvin looked at Kit that he could not let pass. There was something in the way he held her, the way he was being protective to her as if telling the world that Kit is his alone. There was something in his smile, the happiness that he could not hide now that he is with Kit.

He looked at Kit, and carefully observed her. There was this sparkle in her eyes as she looked up at Calvin. She smiled sweetly at him, something that she have never done before. She rest her head on his chest, as if asking him not to let her go.

Then, it hit him. “Could it be...” he thought. “Could it be that...”

--

Kit looked up at Calvin and smiled at him. Calvin smiled at her, as he puller her closer to him as they danced. “I've never seen you smile like this.” Kit said. Calvin laughed at what she said. “I'm just happy...”
“Happy because you were able to dance with a very pretty girl?”
“Happy because I got to dance with the most important girl in my life...”
Kit smiled at him again, and Calvin could see her blushing. “Aiyo... stop being like that...” she said. “Kit...” she heard him call her. She looked up at him. “Thank you for completing my night.” he said. Kit smirked at him. “Wei... shouldn't Joy be the one who should complete your night? After all, she is your date...” she said. “She made this night memorable as she is my date. You were the one who completed it, because you were my queen for the night.” he said. “Don't you want Joy to be your queen?”
“I want her to be my queen, but with the way you look tonight, you deserve to be my queen...”
“Too bad, I want Jiro to be my king for tonight. But I guess I'll just settle with you.”

Calvin just laughed at what she said. Then, he felt someone tap his back. He looked back and saw Jiro standing behind him. “Hey, would you mind if I dance with my princess?” Jiro asked, smiling at him. Calvin smiled at him, and nodded his head. Then, he gave Kit's hand to Jiro. “You're lucky to have Kit as your date, tonight.” he said as he patted his back. Kit and Jiro watched him as he walked towards his lady love. Jiro turned to Kit, and smiled at him. “Shall we dance, princess?” he asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “I would love to, my prince charming.” she said. As another song played, he held her close to him to dance.

“Hey there, beautiful girl...” Calvin said as he walked towards Joy. Joy looked at him at smiled. “Hey there, handsome...” she said. He put his arm around her waist, and then gave her a kiss on the lips. “Sorry that you were not chosen to be my queen for tonight...” he said. “It's OK, Calvin. I feel like I already won because you are my date.” she said. Calvin moved closer to her until their foreheads touched. He rubbed his nose against her, making her ticklish. “Love you...” he said in a childish voice. “Love you too...” she replied to him. She put his arms around his neck, and then they danced with the music.

Meanwhile, Kit watched Calvin and Joy together. Jiro stared at her as she watched her best friend. “Tin...” he said in a low voice. He searched for her eyes, and he saw the sadness in it as she watched them. Then, he looked at Calvin again. There's no denying that he is happy with Joy. He held her in the same way that he held Kit a while ago. His smiles at Joy is more warmer than the ones he gave Kit. He watched as he planted another kiss on Joy's lips. He looked at Kit again. “Don't they look good together?” he heard her say. Jiro just nodded his head. He could hint bitterness and sadness in her tone. “Tin...” he said in a low voice. “If there's one good thing that happened among us, it's that I'm seeing how happy my best friend is with Joy. He have loved her for so long, and I'm happy to see that he is being loved by the girl he loves.” she said to him. Then, she put his arm around his neck, and then hugged him tight. He held her, glancing at her face. The smile that he saw on her face when she danced with Calvin was not there anymore. It was a forced smile, it's as if she was trying to hide her loneliness from him, and from everybody. But most of all, he could feel she is hiding something in her heart, something that he didn't want everyone to know.

--

The engine of his car stopped as soon as they reached her house. He looked at her, and smile. “Thank you for being my date tonight... Tin...” Jiro said, smiling at her. Kit smiled at him. “I should be the one thanking you, Jay. You made this night really special.” she said. Jiro looked at her hand, and then held it. “I'll make every day and every night a special one for you. You deserve it, my princess...” he said. Then, he looked up at her. “About you and Calvin a while ago... what happened? Why did the two of you fought?” he asked. Kit laughed as he remembered what happened that night. “Hes throwing tantrums because he felt like I am ignoring him the whole night, that's why he's making a big deal out of everything. Anyway, we talked about it when we got stuck in the elevator.”
“And why did the two of you got stuck there?”
“I don't know... I was trying to get away from him because I'm really mad at him, but he followed me. It was a good thing Calvin is there with me, or something might have really happened to me. He was there to accompany me, and the make me feel at ease. You never knew how nervous I was that time.”
Jiro just nodded his head as he listed to her. “Yeah... I'm glad Calvin is there with you...” he said in a low voice as he turned his gaze away from her. Kit noticed the change in his expression. “Jay... don't tell me you are getting jealous with Calvin?” she asked. Jiro looked at her and shook her head. “I have no right to be jealous of him. He have always been a part of your life.. while I... I...”

Kit looked at him. She cupped his cheek, and made him face her. “He is my best friend. You are the man I love...” she said. Jiro felt at ease upon hearing what he said. It made him feel secure about how she feels towards her. “You don't have to be jealous of Calvin because I love the two of you, in a different way. I love him as a friend, while you... I love you with all my heart...” she said in a low voice. Jiro held her hand, and kissed her palm. “I love you too, Kit. I'm sorry if I am feeling this way... it's just that... I feel threatened by him.” he said. Kit wrinkled her brows “Wei... now it's your turn to be threatened by Calvin? Don't be like that, Jay. I love you, nothing can change that.” she assured him. “You can't blame me, Tin. I'm seeing something back there that... that...” Jiro shook his head and looked at her. Kit paused as she listened to him. Could it be that Jiro could sense that she is in love with Calvin? “It's just a crazy thought I'm having. Don't mind it.” he said. He caressed her cheek, and moved closer to her. “I love you, Tin. I love you and I trust you. I give you my heart, and I trust that you will never break it...” he said in a low voice. Then, he gave her a kiss on the lips.

Kit felt guilty at what he said. She know she love Jiro, but a part of her is still loving Calvin. She felt bad that she could not give her whole heart to Jiro, but she is trying her best to forget her feelings for her best friend. Just when she was about to give up on Calvin, he gives her the reason to continue loving him. She opened her eyes, and stared into his almond eyes. “Jay...” she said in a soft voice. She wondered where she was getting all the strength to look into his eyes, when she know for a fact that she is lying to him. “Tell me that you love me, Tin...” she heard him say. She turned into a smile. “I love you... I love you with all my heart...”

--

“Tell me I'm wrong. Tell me that I'm hurting him already...” she said to the guy sitting beside him. He looked at her for a while, and sighed. “Yes.” she heard her say. Tears began to fall from her eyes. “I... I can't do this anymore, you know... Everytime I look at him, all I see is Calvin. Every time I kiss him, I am thinking of Calvin. I thought if I gave him a chance to love me, I could soon forget about him... but in the end... in the end...”
“In the end, you are hurting yourself more.”

Silence.

She lowered her head as she stared on to the ivory keys of the piano. “I can't bear to look into his eyes anymore. Not now...” she said in a low voice. “Tell me honestly...” she heard him say. “Do you truly love him, or you only gave him a chance because you are hurting?”
“I know in my heart that I love him... I waited at long time for him... and now...”
“Someone has taken his place in your heart, that's the fact, Kit. Calvin took his place in your heart a long time ago... but you chose to take this chance with him. I don't think that you still love him, Kit...”
Kit looked at him, and he could see the confusion in his eyes. “What should I do? Tell me... what should I do?” she asked. He stared into her eyes before answering. “You know what you should do. You don't have to ask me...”

--

Chun took a deep breath before he entered the classroom. He looked at the bouquet of his hand and shook his head. “Why the hell am I doing this?” he thought. He entered the classroom, and saw Kit at her usual seat, just right beside Calvin. He walked towards her, and then put the bouquet on her table. Kit was surprised to see the flowers, but she is more surprised to see that it came from Chun. “Chunnie?” she asked. Calvin looked up at Chun and glared at him. “Wei, Wu Chun. My best friend already have a boyfriend. Do you think it's too late to court her?” he snapped at him. Chun looked at Calvin and rolled his eyes at him. “It didn't came from me, stupid! It came from the boyfriend.” he said. Kit smiled as she took the bouquet of flowers. She buried her nose on it, and then read the card that goes with it.

You are lovely as these flowers
And your beauty never fails to mesmerize me
I love you my princess

Your prince charming.

Kit smiled as she read the card. Calvin was curious at what was written on it, so he took the card from her hand and read it. “Hey!” Kit shouted at him. She saw him laugh after reading the card. “Wei... tell you boyfriend he is too corny. Can't he think of better things to write to you?” Calvin said. Kit looked at him and rolled her eyes at him. “Jealous.” she said. “By the way,” she heard Chun said. “The boyfriend said that he have to leave early and won't be attending his classes until Friday. He have to go to the north to accompany her mom for some business. He said he's sorry for not telling you earlier, as it was too sudden, and that he'll call you as soon as they arrived there.” Chun said. Kit smiled at him and nodded her head. “Thanks for relaying the message, Chun.” she said to him. Chun nodded his head, and then left the classroom.

“Why can't he even say goodbye to you in person. Why does he have to relay the message to Chun?” Calvin asked as soon as Chun left. Kit just shrugged her shoulder. “I think he's in a hurry...” Kit said. “And look at the flowers he gave you. I told him before that you love peach roses, not any other flowers.” Calvin said. He leaned on his chair and shook his head. After hearing what he said, Kit turn to him, giving him a wondering look “You told Jiro that I like peach roses?” she asked. Calvin nodded his head. “Did he ever gave you peach roses?” he asked. Kit smiled at him and shook her head. “He didn't?” he asked in a surprised tone. “Aiyo... it's OK. As long as he gave me flowers and it came from his heart, that's all that matters. It's the thought that counts.” she said. Calvin shook his head. “Of course not! He know you like peach roses so he should give you peach roses. I think I'll talk to Jiro when he came back.” he said. Kit just laughed at the way he reacted, and Calvin noticed it. “What?” he asked in a sarcastic tone. “You really care for me, Cal... thank you...” she said. Calvin smiled at him and nodded his head. “I only want the best for you, that's why...” he said.

Calvin suddenly felt dizzy. He leaned on his table, and massaged his head to make it feel better. “What's wrong with me?” he thought. Kit looked at Calvin, and noticed what have happened to him. “Are you OK, Cal?” she asked. Calvin tried to smile and nodded his head. “This is nothing...” he said. He stood up from his seat, but his knees felt weak that he almost fell on the ground. Good thing Kit was able to catch him. “I don't think you're OK, Cal...” she said. She helped him back to his chair, and then she checked his temperature by putting the back of her hand on his forehead. “You're hot... well hot as in hot... hot as in other things...” she said. Calvin let out a faint laugh. “You're running a fever, buddy. That's what you get for being such a busybody!” she scolded him. “I'm going to be OK. No need to worry about me. I'll get some medicine at the clinic.”

Before he could stand up again, Kit stopped him. “Aiyo, Calvin. You need to rest. You are not just going to pop some medicine on your mouth.” she said. She stood up, and then took all of his things. “What are you doing?” he asked. Kit turned to him and smiled. “We're going home, Mr. Chen.”

--

Calvin sat up from his bed as soon as he saw Kit by the door. “Feeding time!” Kit said as soon as she entered. She put the tray beside him, and then took the soup she made for him. “You have to eat first before you drink your medicine.” she said as she put the sthingyful of soup onto his mouth. Calvin sipped it, and then he smiled at her. “You know... I love being taken care by you...” he said. Kit laughed at what he said. “Then, I'll be your nurse for the day. That is until Auntie comes home tonight.” she said. He just nodded his head. “Promise me you'll stay with me the whole day...” he asked. Kit nodded her head, and help up her right hand. “I promise.” she said.

Calvin was able to finish the bowl of soup that Kit have prepared to him. She then helped him to drink his medicine. After he took his medicine, she helped Calvin on his bed. She looked around the room, and noticed that there was a jar of paper cranes on his side table. “So... you're still keeping the paper cranes, huh? If Hannah finds out about this, she will be touched...” she said. Calvin gave her a faint smile. “Nah... actually I don't collect those paper cranes and love notes as before...” he said in a weak voice. “Why? Just because Hannah is gone and there is another paper crane girl, you didn't collect the notes and the paper cranes anymore?” she asked. Calvin let out a faint laugh. “I'm getting tired with all the mystery.”
“I thought you were in love with this paper crane girl? That you think she is your soul mate because she knows what's inside your heart?”
“That was before. I realized I can't be in love with someone who doesn't exist. And besides, I have Joy... I think she is my soul mate and not this paper crane girl. And besides, I think this paper crane girl is just playing around with me... and I don't find it funny...”

Kit fell silent upon hearing what Calvin said. She felt her heart break into pieces upon hearing what he said about the paper crane girl. “Oh...” she said in a low voice. She turned away from him, so that he won't see the sadness in her eyes. “B-but... What if... what if this paper crane girl really loves you? What if... she's not playing around?” she asked. “Doesn't matter now. I thank her for the encouragement, but I don't think I can accept her love anymore. I love Joy, and I know that this time, our love is for keeps.” he said. “Besides, if she really exists, she should have shown herself to me...”
“Maybe... maybe she got scared... if... if you found out who she is?”
“She had her chance, but she just wasted it. I'm willing to accept who she is, but each time I look for her, seems like she doesn't want to be found. It's better that way, I guess.”
“If... if she showed up to you... what will you do?”
“I'll say my thanks to her, but then she can't expect me to love her anymore. I am madly in love with Joy, and Joy is my everything... she just have to accept that.”

Kit felt her tears fall from her eyes. “I... I see...” she said in a low voice. “B-but... but what if... what if that... that paper crane girl is someone... someone you didn't expect to... to fall in love with you. What if... what if you found out that... that she is someone who...” she paused. She looked back, and saw Calvin already sleeping peacefully. “What if it's that someone who is not suppose to fall in love with you?” she said in a low voice as she brushed his hair. “What if it's me? Would you be able to accept it? Would you be able to accept that I broke my promise? Would you still love, despite the fact that it's your best friend? Or would you leave me?” she wiped the tear from her eyes, and then she gave Calvin a kiss on his forehead. “I'm sorry... I can't do this anymore...” she thought. “As much as I want to love Jay... I can't love him more than I love you. I'm sorry that I have to stay away from you... because... because... it's breaking my heart, and I can't bear the pain anymore...”

She stood up from his bed and slowly crept out of his room. She threw one last glance at him before she closed the door behind her. She took her phone from her pocket, and began to dial a familiar number. She waited three rings before someone answered her call. “Hello... Joy... it's about Calvin...”

--

He opened the door of his car, and got inside. He looked at the man beside him, staring outside of the window. He sighed loudly so that he would know his presence. The guy looked at him and gave him a faint smile. “Tell me... I am wrong with my thoughts, right? I am wrong to think that...” he paused as he saw him smirk. “What is it that you are thinking?”
“I am seeing something that's not right. I've not noticed it before... but...”
“Tell me what you're thinking, maybe I have the answer...”

Silence.

“I'm scared to know the answer... I'm scared to ask because... because it might be true...” he said in a low voice. He turned his eyes away from him. “I'm scared to know the truth.” he said. “Or you're scared to find out that... that maybe...” He looked at him and gave him a glare. “Stop!” he shouted at him. “I don't want to hear it...” He sighed again, and then patted his head. “Sometimes, it's OK to get scared, to be confused. But I am telling you and you have to believe me... Jay... Tin loves you, and she wouldn't do anything to hurt you...” he aid. His lips curve into an assuring smile. “After all, she've been through a lot of heartache. I don't think she would hurt you... just trust in her...”

--

Calvin slowly opened his eyes, and the first thing he saw his the pretty smile of Joy. “Hey, koochiepoo...” he said weakly. “Hey...” she said in a low voice. She leaned towards to kiss him on the lips. He sat up on his bed, and Joy helped him. “What are you doing here?” he asked. Joy glared at him. “Why didn't you tell me you're sick? Kit have to call me about what happened to you!” she said. Calvin looked at Kit and saw her smiling at him. He was wondering why Kit called Joy. Doesn't she want to take care of him anymore? Is she tired to taking care of him? “Kit...” he said in a low voice. Kit stood up from her seat, and then went to Calvin. “I told Joy that you have a fever, so she came over to take care of you.” she said. “But... but I thought you said you'll be my nurse for the day?” he asked her. Kit let out a faint laugh and then looked at Joy. “Wei... you have your girlfriend here, willing to take care of you. I don't think you need me anymore.” she said, smiling at him. He fell silent upon hearing what she said. “I... I still need you, Kit... I need you here with me... how can you assume that I want Joy beside me when all I ever needed is you?” he thought sadly. He looked up at her, and Kit could see the anger in his eyes. “You promised...” he muttered. Kit tried to smile at him as she hold his hand. “Aiyo, Calvin... don't be like that. And besides. Joy would be could take care of you more than I do... You need her so that you'll recover soon.” she said as she winked at him.

Kit looked at Joy, and smiled at her. “It's your turn to take care of him now. If you need anything, just call me from that window.” she said, pointing at her room. Joy smiled at her and nodded her head. “Thanks for looking after Calvin while I'm not around.” she said. Then, Kit looked at Calvin. “Get well soon, OK? I'll see you once you're OK.” she said. As she turn to leave, she felt Calvin hold her hand. “Kit...” he said. She looked back at him, and then saw him turn to smile. “Thank you... thank you for always being here with me...” he said. Kit smiled at him and nodded his head. She took his hand away from him, and left his room.

--

“So, you left because you were confused? You made her believe you left because of this crazy thought?” he asked him. He paused and slowly nodded his head. “You're right... it's just a crazy thought. Maybe I'm being too paranoid, but you can't blame me. I love her... and I'm scared that...”
“That she will do what you have done to Joy before?”
“What if I'm right? What if it's the truth?”
He sighed again and shook his head. “She would never do that... you have to trust her. And she needs you now more than ever. Calvin have taken her for granted now that she is with Joy... you can't abandon her just because of that gut feel, Jiro...” he said. Jiro looked up at him, and the guy beside him could see the fear in his eyes. He know Jiro have loved Kit with all his heart, and could not bear to lose her. “I saw her that night... I saw the look in her face that moment she danced with Calvin. And I saw Calvin's face... how happy he is... Chun... don't you understand? I am scared because Calvin took away everything from me! He took Joy from me... and I'm scared that he... he will take away Kit...”
“Calvin would never do that... he love Joy too much...”
Jiro sighed and shook his head. “You're not seeing what I am seeing, Chun. You weren't there when he found out about us.” he said. “You didn't see how scared he was that I came back into her life. You didn't see the anger... because he have always thought I will take Tin from him. Chun... can't you see?” Jiro shouted at him. Chun gave him a confused look. “See what?” he asked. “That Calvin has always been in love with Kit...”

--

“I know what to do...” she said in a low voice. “It's just that my heart is telling me not to do it...” She looked away from him and stared into the piano keys once more. He put his arm around her, and stared into her sad face. “But it's the only thing left to do...” he said to her. “You're hurting yourself, can't you see? Most of all, you are hurting the guy who have loved you ever since. You have to be strong and do the right thing...” he said. She looked up at him, her tears falling from her eyes. “I should let go... But I don't know how to start. I don't know how to do it...” she said in a low voice. “Kit... even if you can't, you have to try and let go of your love for Calvin... you have to let him go gradually... and accept the fact that the two of you will be nothing more than best friends...” he said. Kit looked up at him, and smiled. She wiped the tear from her eyes. “You're right, Danson...” she said. “I will let him go this time... after my hundredth paper crane... I will stop this madness...”

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 46 – Can't Let Go



It was midnight, and everything around him was silent. He felt a little weak, but he gathered all of his remaining strength to get into her room. He stood before her bed, he stared into her face as she peacefully sleeps. He knelt down by her bed, and caressed her cheek. He stared into her sleeping face for a long time, and then he smiled sadly. “Katherine...” he said in a low voice. “Do you know why I love calling you Katherine? It's because it's the only name I know no one would call you... It's the only thing that I could say that's my own. Everyone calls you Kit... Jay calls you Tin... he even stole my secret petname to you...” He paused as he brushed her hair. “Do you know how much I miss you? Do you know I want to spend more time with you? Each time that I come to you, you would turn away from me... I only want a little bit of your time, but even that, you can't give it to me...” he said to her. He took her hand, and then held it up, his cheek touching the back of her hand. “Why did you have to call Joy and tell her that I am sick? Don't you know that I need you to take care of me? I hope you haven't done that... I don't need Joy, I need you beside me. Are you really pushing me away? Don't you want to take care of me anymore? Are you really giving me away?” he asked.

He felt the tears falling from his eyes. He closed his eyes to stop them from falling. He opened his eyes, and then caressed her face again. “I feel so good when I'm with you, Kit... don't you know that? And I hate it when I'm starting to get comfortable with you, you would push me away. I hate the feeling of losing you... I'm losing you to Jay... he's taking you from me and I hated it.” he said in a low voice. “Katherine... I'm hurting now... I'm hurting because it's as if you don't want me in your life anymore. It felt like you're not even worried about me...” Then, he smiled sadly, and then let out a faint laugh. “How silly of me, princess.... you're already in the dream world, probably dreaming about your prince charming, and here I am... looking at you and telling all of these things. So silly of me... I'm letting this go. It hurt so much and I can't take it anymore. I promise to have my distance and not to be possessive of you. Always be happy, Kit. I won't demand from you anymore...” He leaned over her, and then gave her a long kiss on the lips. “Goodnight, my princess. Sweet dreams...” he whispered. He stood up, trying not to make any noise, and then he went out of the window.

What he didn't know is that the whole time that he was talking, Kit was awake and was able to hear what he have said. She slowly opened her eyes, and let the tears fall from her eyes. “Calvin...” she called in a low voice. “I'm sorry Calvin... I'm sorry if you think that way. I'm sorry if I chose to leave your side, because it's hurting me... it hurts me to know that you can never love me. I know I had my chance, but I was scared... I was scared that you would be mad at me if you found out I am your paper crane girl. It's time for me to let go of my love for you, and love Jiro with all my heart...” she said in a low voice. She closed her eyes as another tear falls on her cheek. “It's time for me to let you go, Calvin... I can't bear to hurt anyone... not even you... after my 100th paper crane, I will forget my feelings for you...”

--

“Ah-choo!”

Jiro handed Kit a tissue. He was trying his best to suppress his laughter as he watched her blow her nose on the tissue. “See what happened to you?” Jiro said to her. Kit looked up at him and pouted. “I was just taking care of my best friend...” she said. Jiro smiled and nodded his head. “I know, princess. Look at you, you also caught the fever. You should have taken vitamins or something.” he said. Then, he walked towards her and sat beside her. “Aiyo, Jay... don't come closer or you'll also have fever.” she said. Jiro shook his head. “Don't worry, I took some vitamins before coming here. Good thing I was able to get back here early, or else no one would take care of you.” he said. Kit smiled at him, and then gave him a hug. “Thanks for being here to take care of me, Jay...” she said. Jiro looked at her, and then smiled at her. “I'll do anything for you, princess. That's how much I love you...” he said. He leaned down to her, and kissed her on the forehead.

“Kit!” they heard someone say. They both looked at the door, and saw Calvin standing there. “What happened to you?” he asked in a confused tone. “She have a fever. I think she got it from you...” he said. Calvin looked at Kit, feeling sorry for what happened to her. “Sorry, Kit...” he said in a low voice. Kit just gave him a smile. “It's OK, Calvin. Jay has been taking care of me since this morning. Don't worry about it.” she said. Jiro stood, and then walked towards him. “Hey, can you look after my princess? I need to check on the soup I'm cooking.” Jiro said. Calvin looked at him, and nodded his head. As soon as Jiro is gone, Calvin walked towards her bed, and sat on it. “Why didn't you tell me you have a fever?” Calvin said in a worried tone. “I don't want you to get worried. Besides, Jiro is here to take care of me.” she said, smiling at him. “But still... you should've told me. Don't you want to rely on me, for once?” he asked. Kit could see how hurt Calvin is. “Calvin... I know that you can't always be there for me. Jay is here now, and I know he's the one I should rely on. I can't always depend on you.” she said in a low voice. “Didn't you ever think that maybe... maybe I want you to depend on me? To rely on me, just like before? Didn't you ever think that maybe I want you to need me, just like how you need me before? Didn't you ever think that maybe I want to take care of you as well?” he asked in a hurt tone. Kit looked away from Calvin. “I want to be there for you, Kit... but... but... it seems to me that Jay is getting in my way. I miss the time that you would call on me first when you need help. Can't you see that it's hurting me? You were the one who's taking me for granted, Kit...” he said. Kit looked up at him. “I'm sorry, Cal...” she said in a low voice. “I thought you would be too busy for me. After all, you have Joy...”
“Why are you always making Joy an excuse?”
“Because she has always been your priority.”
“And can't I prioritize my best friend sometimes?”
“I should not be your priority anymore, Calvin.”
“Why, because I am not your priority anymore?”
“Calvin... it's not like that...”
“Why, because you know Jay is here? Because he promised you that he will never leave you? What if he did? Will that be the only time that you will need me again?”

Kit fell silent, and just stared at him, not knowing what to say. “Calvin, I am not letting you have this conversation with Kit.” they heard Jiro said He walked inside her room, and then put the tray on her table before facing him. “It just so happen that I was here when we found out that she have a fever. I insisted to take care of her. I insisted her to call you, but she didn't want to disturb you. Please don't blame my girlfriend... maybe there are things that you can't do for her that only I can do, in the same way that there are things that only Joy could do for you.” Jiro said. Calvin looked up at him. “So please, don't start any fight with Tin. The last thing I want for her right now is to be stressed out.” Jiro continued.

Defeated, Calvin stood up from the bed and looked at the two. “I'm sorry if I acted that way...” he said in a low voice. He put his hands on his pocket and looked down. “I forgot... I have no right to intrude in your life now...” he said. He looked at Kit, and she could see the hurt in his eyes. “Calvin... it's not like that...” she said. She was trying to find words to let him know that what he's thinking is wrong. Calvin smiled at her bittterly and shook his head. “It's OK, Kit. I now know how you felt when I took you for granted. We're even now. Don't worry, I now know where I stand in your life.” he said. Then,, he looked at Jiro. “Take good care of her...” he said. He turned his back to leave, and all Kit could do is watch him. “Calvin...” she said. She tried to stand up from her bed, but she was too weak. She fell from that stand, but Jiro was able to catch her. Calvin paused when he heard her call. “It's not what you think...” she said in a weak voice. Calvin looked back, and he saw Jiro helping her to her bed. “Ssshh... Kit... don't try to stress yourself out... you and Calvin can talk when you're already well...” he said. Then, Jiro looked at Calvin. “Cal.... it would be better if you leave first. Please... just... just don't do this to Kit...” he pleaded. Calvin just nodded his head before leaving her room.

--

Danson looked at Calvin, wondering what's on his mind. He have been silent since he saw him that afternoon at school. “Anything wrong?” he asked. Calvin just shook his head. “Why are you too quiet?” he asked. “Nothing.” Calvin said monotonously. “Nothing?” Danson asked. He smirked at him and shook his head. “Oh, Calvin... I know when something's on your mind! Come on, speak to me!” Danson said, mimicking Kit's voice. Calvin could only glare at him. “What?” Danson asked in a confused tone. “Stop it... it's not funny...” he said. Danson sighed as he looked away from him. “What's wrong with you? Why are you in a bad mood?” he asked. Calvin remained silent and did not answer his question. “Did you and Joy fought?” he asked. Calvin shook his head. “Something happened between you and Kit?” Calvin did not react at his question. Danson let out another smirk, and then he sighed. “I knew it. It's not the girlfriend, it's the best friend. Speak up.” he said.

This time, Calvin faced Danson. “Why do I feel that Kit doesn't need me anymore? Why do I feel like I'm being set aside by her? Was it because of what I did before? Why does it have to be always Jay?” he said. Danson was surprised at him. “Whoa, man... You are jealous of Jiro? Man... you have no right to be jealous because you are only her best friend!” Danson said. “She used to need me. She used to rely on me... and ever since she and Jiro got together...”
“It's only natural for Kit to rely on her boyfriend. She knows that you are busy with Joy... and she understands that she can't always be your priority...”
“Why can't she see that I am here too? I can take care of her the way Jiro takes care of her!”
Danson sighed as he looked at Calvin. “Seems to me...” Danson said. “that you are being too possessive of your best friend. Cal, you can't always be beside Kit. There would come a time that she would need something that even you could not give her... and that someone else could.” he said. “Then what is it that I can't give my best friend?” he asked. Danson paused and look at him for a long time. “Can you love her the way she loves you?” he wanted to say. He shook his head as he turned his eyes away from him. “Cal... calm down first and think. The problem is, you're used to getting all of her attention, and now that she is with Jiro, you were competing with him for that attention. It's not good, you know...” Danson said. “You're just making her all confused...” he thought.

Danson looked at Calvin again. “There's something wrong with this guy...” he thought.”Dan...” he heard Calvin say. “Yeah?”
“Let's go out tonight?”
Danson gave him a confused look. “Tonight?” he asked. It's very unlikely of Calvin to ask them out, especially during a school night. “Where would you want to go?” he asked again. “Let's go and party. Get drunk, get high, flirt with girls...”
“Whoa! Are you serious? What if Joy found out? You know what happened to Jiro the last time...”
“She won't know about this, don't worry...”
“And Kit? What do you think will your best friend say if she finds out?”
Calvin paused and looked at him. “I don't care what she'll say...” he said. “Not anymore...”

--

“Kit...”
Kit looked back, and saw her mom walking towards her. “Are you sure you want to wait up for Calvin? Maybe he decided to sleep over at one of your friend's house...” Mrs. Jin said. Kit smiled at her and shook her head. “I don't think so, mom. Besides, Auntie Chen said she told Calvin to stay here with us for a while, until they're back from Hong Kong.” Kit said. Mrs. Jin smiled at her nodded and smiled at her. “OK... just don't stay up for so long... remember you just had a fever this morning.” she said. Kit smiled at her and nodded her head.

Kit pulled the blanket closer to her as she waited for Calvin. After a while, she saw Danson's car stop in front of them. She stood up as she saw Danson got out of his car. “Kit... good you're here...” he said. Kit gave him a confused look. “What happened?” she asked. Danson didn't answer her. She watched him as he opened the door of his car, and helped Calvin out. He was so drunk, and was unable to walk by himself. “What happened to him?” Kit asked as she helped Danson with Calvin. “He asked me out to drink tonight. I don't know why. You should have seen him... he was drinking a lot and he was flirting with a lot of girls. I finally convinced him to go home, even though he didn't want to. He said he'd rather sleep at some random girl's house than go home. Later, I found out that he was supposed to stay here because his mom and dad have gone to Hong Kong for a few days.” Danson explained. Kit looked at him and nodded his head. “Did something happened between the two of you? Did you guys had another misunderstanding? We were talking about you a while ago, when he asked me out. Calvin has not been like this, Kit...” Danson said. Kit paused and looked away from him. “Something happened, Danson... but he didn't gave me the chance to explain...” she said. Then, she looked at Calvin. “Danson... let's go back to the bar... I don't want to go home yet...” she heard him mumble. “I don't want to see Kit...” he said again. Kit paused, and look away from Calvin. “He doesn't want to see me?” she thought. Danson noticed her face turn sad upon hearing what Calvin said. “Are you OK, Kit?” he asked. Kit looked up at Danson and tried to smile. “I'm OK. Just help me bring Calvin up to the guest room.” she said.

As soon as they reached the guest room, Danson and Kit laid Calvin on the bed. “Don't want to go home... don't want to see Kit...” he mumbled. Danson looked at Calvin for a while, and then he looked at Kit. “He's hurt...” he told her. “He's hurt because of what you are doing, Kit...” Kit remained staring into Calvin's face. “This is the only thing I know I could do to stay away from him...” she said in a low voice. “But you staying away from him is breaking his heart. He needs you, Kit... and he wanted to feel what it's like to be needed by you...” Danson said. Kit looked at him with those sad eyes. “Why is it that when I try to move on, I can't? Why is it that I can't even let him go?” she asked. Danson sighed, and put his arm around her. “You don't have to let him go... just let go of your feelings for him and see him like a normal friend. That's all. Unless... unless....” He looked at her, then let out a faint smile as he shook his head. “Think I also drank too much. I'll see you guys tomorrow...” he said. Kit nodded her head. “Dan, thanks for bringing Calvin home.” she said as she watched him leave.

As soon as Danson is gone, Kit looked at Calvin's sleeping face. She walked toward hims, and sat beside him. She stared into his face for a long time, caressing his face. “Why do I love you too much? Why do I have to fall in love with you? Why did I even forgot our promise when I loved you? All this time, I've been fighting for your love... I've been hesitating to tell you I am the real paper crane girl because if you found out I am in love, I will lose you permanently. I don't want to lose you, Calvin... I'm scared to lose you, and I don't even have you.” she thought. She brushed his hair. She closed her eyes as she felt the tear coming out of her eyes. “I'm sorry that I have to hurt you this way. I'm sorry if I'm keeping my distance from you. I love you too much that it's breaking me apart. I don't want to hurt Jiro, or Joy, or even you... I want to suffer alone... for this mistake I did. I thought this is the only way I could to finally let go of this love I'm feeling for you... but I was wrong. The more that I try to keep away from you, the more that its harder for me to stay away from you. The more that I tried to forget you, the harder it is for me to let you go. My heart only fought for what it wanted, not it's fighting to let you go...” She leaned towards him, and gave him a kiss on the lips.

She stood up from his bed, but before she could, she felt Calvin held her hand to stop her. “Don't go... don't leave me, please...” he whispered. Kit paused, and looked at him. “Calvin...” she said in a low voice. He opened his eyes and smiled at him. “Don't leave me... I would die if you leave me...” he said. He sat up from his bed, and hugged her tight. Kit froze as he hugged him tight. “I need you here... I love you...” he said to her. Then, he let go of her. He cupped her cheeks and stared into her eyes. “I love you...” he said in a low voice. Kit was speechless at what he said. She doesn't know if he has been sober or still drunk, but she could see the sincerity in his eyes as he said those three words. “Calvin, I...” Before she could say anything, Calvin's lips found its way to her own lips, and have silenced her. She closed her eyes, and let herself drown into his passionate kiss. Though her mind is fighting if this is wrong or not, she doesn't care anymore. All she wanted to do is to feel his love, even for just this moment. As Calvin kissed her, she felt her hand gently touched her neck. His hand roam at her back, and then he held her hand, and put it on his cheek. Calvin broke their kiss and stared at her for a long time. He smiled to himself, and planted small kissed on her forehead and on the tip of her nose. “I love you...” he said again. He planted another kiss on her lips before staring into her eyes again. “I love you so much, Joy...”

Kit froze upon hearing the name that he called. All this time, she thought he was saying those words to her, but she realized that those three word are only meant for Joy. His kiss was for Joy. His touch was for joy. He have mistaken her for Joy. The tears cascaded on her cheek as she looked at him. She could feel her heart breaking upon realizing what just happened. It hurt so much that she could not breath. She swallowed hard as she watched Calvin lay on his bed and sleep again. “I can't take this anymore...” she thought. She looked at him once again, and the truth have dawned to her – no one can break her heart this much but Calvin. No one have given her this much heartache but the man she have always loved. “Why do you always have to break m heart, Calvin? What did I do, that you have to hurt me this way?” she thought.

Her lips quiver as she cried. She stood up from his bed, and then ran back to her room. As she closed the door behind her, she began to cry uncontrollably. She slid down the floor as she cried. The pain she is feeling right now is unbearable. For a while, she thought that maybe Calvin do love her, but she was wrong. There is only Joy in his heart, and even she could not replace her in his heart. What hurts the most is the fact that Calvin ave thought that she is Joy, and he kissed her. “This is it...” she said to herself. “I swear this will be the last time you would hurt me, Calvin... this will be the last... You can never hurt me anymore... for I'm letting you go...”

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As the sun's rays entered the window, Calvin was forced to open his eyes. As he moved, he felt that pain in his head, as if someone have hit his head hard. “Arrgghh...” he groaned as he sat up on the bed. He looked around, and saw that he's not in his room. “Where am I?” he thought as he massaged the back of his head. He looked at himself, and saw that he was still wearing the same clothes he wore yesterday. He tried to recall what happened the night before. He remembered being the club with Danson, drinking as if there was no tomorrow. He remembered the girls in skimpy outfit flirting and dancing with him. He remembered the warm body trying to help him up. He remembered the silent conversation, which he could not understand. Then, he remembered holding someone in his arms, kissing someone passionately. He remembered saying those three words. He remembered the soft sobs as he fell asleep. Then, it hit him. “Kit?” he thought. Finally, he realized that he was in one of the Jin's guest room. How could he forget, his mom called yesterday telling him that he have to stay with the Jins for a while. He closed his eyes upon recalling the last thing that happened before he fell asleep. “nuts... something happened between me and Kit...” he thought.

He got up from his bed and went out of the room. As he descended down the stairs, he saw Kit cooking breakfast. She was humming a happy song as she prepared their food. As he took another step down the stairs, Kit felt his presence. “Finally, you're awake!” she said cheerfully to him. “Good morning...” he said in a confused tone. He sat on one of the chairs, and Kit put a plate of food in front of him. “You drank a lot last night, huh? Danson and I have to drag you upstairs.” she said to him. He slowly looked up at her and watched her as she went back to the kitchen. “Where... where's Auntie and Uncle?” he asked. “They went to Annie's recital today. I told them I'll stay here to keep you company.” she said as she got out of the kitchen. She placed the plate on the table. He smiled as he looked at the food. Those were his favorite breakfast. Kit sat beside him, and then took some food from the plate. “Kit... about last night...” Kit paused as he looked at him. “W-what about last night?” she asked. “Did... did I do anything stupid?” he asked. Kit slowly nodded her head. She could see the fear on his eyes as she nodded her head. “You vomited on the floor last night, and I had to clean it up before I went to sleep.” she said. Calvin sighed and shook his head. “It's not that, Kit...” he said in a low voice. Then, he looked up at her and stared into her eyes. “Did something happen between us? Did... did I kissed you?” he asked.

Kit fell silent at his question. She took a deep breath, and then looked away from him. “No.” she lied. “Nothing happened...” she said, looking at him this time. Then, she smiled at him. “I think you were dreaming last night. You were calling Joy's name. Did something happen between the two of you that's why you got drunk?” she asked, Calvin slowly nodded his head. Although Kit have answered his question, he still feels unsure with what happened last night. He watched as Kit ate her breakfast. He knows exactly what happened last night. The spirit of alcohol may have taken control of his body and his mind, but he quite aware of what happened the night before. He knew for sure that Kit is lying to him. He kissed her, and he said those words to her. “But why is she lying about it?” he thought. “Kit...” Calvin called her again. Kit looked at him. “I know exactly what happened...” he said in a low voice. Kit smiled and shook her head. “Aiyo, maybe you dreamt of kissing someone. Nothing happened between us, Cal...” she said. He sighed as he look away from her. That moment he became unsure of himself either.

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

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Chapter 47 – the 99th Paper Crane



And the heartache begins...

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The 95th paper crane: I would give up everything for one moment with you... for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you...

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Calvin stared at the paper crane by his locker. “Not again...” he thought. He sighed as he took the paper and put it inside his bag. It's been a long time since he last received the paper crane, and he's starting to receive it again. “What's wrong with this girl?” he thought. If that mystery girl is appearing again to get his attention, then she is wrong. For him, it's a big nuisance. He didn't have the energy and the time to think who this mystery girl is, and if he would search for her again, he knows someone would tend to lie to him.

“Cal...” he heard someone call. He looked back, and saw Kit walking towards him. She could clearly see the annoyance in his face. “Look at this...” Calvin said as he held the paper crane up for her. “From the paper crane girl?” she asked. Calvin nodded his head. “She won't stop, really. It irritates me.” he said. Kit fell silent upon hearing what he said. “Why are you annoyed by her? She just wants to give you those paper cranes...” she said. “It irritates me because it seems to me that she's forcing her love to me.”
“Maybe she just want you to know how much she loves you...”
“I think she should keep her feelings to herself than annoy me.”
“Maybe it's the only way she could let you know how much she loves you...”
“I don't find this thing funny.”
“Maybe....she's not forcing her love for you, and would rather keep her distance and love you secretly...”

Calvin sighed again, and turn his back on her. “I'm getting tired of her mind games, that's all...” he said to her. Kit sighed as she watched her best friend. “Maybe for you it's mind games... but maybe for her, it's not...” she said to him.

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Danson slowly opened the door of the music room, and as expected, he saw Kit sitting by the piano. “Kit...” he called. Kit looked at him and gave him a faint smile. She turned her eyes to the piano keys, and he walked towards her, occupying the empty space beside her. “A few months ago... Hannah was sitting on that very same spot that you are sitting. We usually go here, when we wanted silence, when we wanted to talk about Calvin...” she said. She lifted her hand as she pressed the piano key. “Then, let me be her substitute for a while, Kit. I may not be a girl or share the same feelings that you feel for Calvin, but I am your friend... and I am willing to listen to you.” he said. “What is there to talk about? Calvin again? My love for him? How he have unintentionally hurt his best friend several times?” she asked. Danson turned his attention to the piano keys, and began to play some notes. He could feel something have happened to them, but Kit has been keeping things to herself. “How could your best friend unintentionally hurt you, Kit?” he asked.

Kit paused. She closed her eyes as she remembered that night when Calvin was drunk. “He kissed me...” she said in a low voice. “He said he love me, and then he kissed me... I thought it was for real... until... until he called Joy's name...” Danson looked at Kit, and saw her wipe the tears on her eyes. “I know I shouldn't feel hurt, because I know for a fact that he is in love with Joy... but that moment... that moment he kissed me, it gave me that little hope that maybe he also feels the same. But I was wrong. No one can replace her in his heart, not even me. It hurts because I thought it was all for real, but it was just a dream... and I was forced to wake up from that dream...” she continued. He sighed as Kit looked at him. He could understand the pain she is feeling right now He held her hand, and then squeezed it. “I wish there is something I could do for you... I wish there is something I could do to take all of your pain away...” he said in a low voice. “Danson... do you know that every night, I pray to God to take all of my love for him away. I pray to him that when I wake up the next day, I am only loving Calvin as a friend. But He doesn't hear my prayers... each day that I wake up, I love him even more. The more that this love grows, the more that it's tearing me apart. I want to give all of my love to Jiro... but I can't... because of him... it has always been him...” Danson put his arm around her, and let Kit rest her head on her shoulder as she cries. “I want to pretend that it doesn't hurt, Danson... but each time that I look into his eyes, I could feel my heart breaking...” she continued. Danson looked at Kit. “It only hurts when you start pretending that it doesn't, Kit... You are a strong girl, I know that. And I know you are strong enough to go through this. One day, I know, you will learn to let him go. Just keep on trying, because if you don't you'll end up hurting the people you care about most. You have hurt yourself now, and it should stop at that. It pains me now that I'm seeing you like this...” he said. Kit let out a sad smile and nodded her head. “I just wish... I just wish all of these would end. I don't want to hurt anymore because of him...” she said in a low voice. Danson pulled her closer to him, and listened to her soft sobs. “It will end soon, Kit... it will... “ he said. “You just need to be brave enough to let go of your love for Calvin...”

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The 96th paper crane: I love you more than beyond a reason why

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“Tin...” Kit looked back, and saw Jiro walking towards her. Kit gave him a faint smile. “Jay...” she said in a low voice. She was glad to see him again. Of all the things that's happening to her right now, it's only Jiro that's keeping her sane. He gave her a loving smile as he comes near him. Kit noticed that he was hiding something at the back of his hand. “What's behind you?” she asked. “Nothing...” he said. He looked up, trying his best not to smile. “Aiyo... tell me now, will you, Jay?” she said. Jiro looked at her, and then laughed at her. “You're a very impatient girl...” he said. Then, from his back, he took out a bouquet of peach roses. Kit was surprised at what she saw. She was so surprised that all she could do was gape. “It's our second month anniversary...” he said. Kit looked up at him, and she saw him smiling at her. “Two months ago, on this very day... we met each other at the beach, after years of waiting. You came right before I decided to let you go. You came to save me from the loneliness I'm feeling, just like the time that you saved me from drowning. Before I saw you again, I thought I could forget all my love for you, but I am wrong. When you walked to me, and when I realized that you are Tin, all of that love that I'm trying to forget suddenly covered up the hole in my heart. From that day on, I promised that I will love you with all my heart, and that I will never ever let you go.” he said. He paused from his speech, and moved closer to her. He reached for her face and softly caressed it. “I love you so much, Kit... the mere thought of losing you makes me unable to breath. You are my everything – my life, my world. I want to be with you for the rest of my life...”

Kit could feel her tears falling from her eyes as Jiro speaks. She was crying because she found Jiro, the man who love her with all his heart. He is willing to give everything for her happiness. She's happy that she is with him now, after all the thing that have happened. In his arms, she felt what its like to be really loved. She knows in her heart that she love him, but then she felt guilty because she was loving Calvin as well. Calvin will always be the shadow that stands in between them, and she could not give her heart totally to Jiro because of him. But she have decided, after the heartache she experienced from Calvin, she have decided to give all her love to Jiro, for he deserves it after all. She watched Jiro as he took something from one of the roses in the bouquet. She was surprised to see him holding a diamond ring. “I know this is soon, and I know we are still young...” he said nervously. “But, this can't wait for another two years or so... Katherine Jin, will you marry me?”

Kit was speechless at his question. She looked at the diamond ring, and then looked at Jiro again. “Jay...” she said in a low voice. “We... we don't have to get married right away. Maybe right after graduation, we could.” he said. “But... but are you sure? Are you sure you want to be married to me in the future?” she asked. Jiro and smiled and nodded his head. “I have never been this sure all my life, Tin. I love you, and I want to grow old with you.” he said. Kit's lips turn into a smile. “Yes, I will marry you...” she said. Jiro took her hand, and put the ring on her finger. He looked up at her, and she saw him smiling lovingly at him. She could see the happiness in his eyes, and somehow she felt guilty. While Jiro is happy with her, her heart is breaking because of Calvin. She reached up to him, and hugged him tight, letting her tears fall from her eyes. “Why are you crying, my princess? Are you crying because you are happy with me?” he asked. “More than happy, Jay... more than happy...” she said as she looked up at him. She smiled at him, and caressed his face. “I'm so sorry, Jay... I'm sorry that I love Calvin... I promise I will love you... I promise to forget my feelings for him so that you will be happy... I'm so sorry...” she thought. Jiro smiled at her. There were tears in his eyes as well. He reached for her face, and wiped the tear from her eyes. “I cannot guarantee that there won't be a rough road ahead of us, but I promise to you that I will hold on... I want you beside me as we face each problem, because I couldn't make it through without you...Its not gonna be easy. Its not gonna be hard. And were going to have
to work at this everyday, but i want to do that because i want you... I want all of you, forever, everyday.” he said.

Kit smiled at him, and reached for him again. She kissed him on the lips, and then she hugged him again. “Jay... thank you for everything... thank you for your love. I... I couldn't ask for anything from you. You have given me everything I have ever wanted, and needed.” she said to him. She looked at him again, and stared into his eyes. In his eyes, she could see how much he loves her, and this made her feel more guilty. “I... Can you give me time to compose myself?” she asked as she smiled at him. “I... I still could not believe what happened. An engaged girl have the right to cry, right?” she joked. Jiro laughed as he nodded his head. “Go and compose yourself first. I'll wait for you, future Mrs. Wang.” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head. She turned her back on him, and walked as fast as she could until she reached the music room.

As she closed the door behind her, she cried. She does not deserve Jiro's love. How could she deserve him, if all this time, there is someone else in her heart. “I'm so sorry, Jay...” she whispered. “I'm sorry if I fell in love with my best friend. God knows I love you too... I love you since we were young... but he... he was always there for me. He was there to wipe my tears away, to make me smile... and slowly I have fallen for him. I don't want you to think that I'm just using you so that I could forget Calvin...” she said silently. “I'm going to love you, Jiro... I will love you in the same way I loved Calvin... I promise you that...”

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The 97th paper crane: Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and you can never have them?

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Kit and Danson were at the cafeteria the next day, having their lunch. They were happily chatting as they were having their lunch. As Kit leaned over Danson's side to get the bottle of ketchup, Danson noticed something or her hand. He led her hand, and took a closer look at it. “Nice ring you got there, Kit.” Danson said to her. He looked at her and smiled. “Did your mom gave it to you?” he asked. Kit just smiled at him and shook her head. Danson had a hunch of what that ring is, but he doesn't want to think about it. “Don't tell me it's...” he paused then shook his head. “No, that can't be. It's too soon. Is this a promise ring from Jay?” he asked again. Kit could only smile at him, not saying a word. Danson just nodded his head. “Yes, it can't be, because you're still in love with someone, right?” he said, giving out a nervous laugh. Kit cleared her throat, and then looked into Danson's eyes. She have to tell him the truth. “Danson... I'm engaged to Jiro.” she said.

She didn't know that Joy was standing behind them, and was able to hear the last thing that she said. She was shocked at what she learned, too shocked that the tray of food she was holding in her hands fell. “You... you're engaged?” Kit looked back and saw Joy standing behind her. She was just as surprised as she is. “Oh, you're there...' she said in a low voice. Then, she nodded her head. “Yes, Joy. I'm engaged to Jiro.” she said. She looked at Danson, who seemed to be confused with what's going on. Just then, Calvin came inside the cafeteria, and saw the shocked look on Joy and Danson. “What's wrong?” Calvin asked Joy as he walked towards her. Kit looked up at Calvin, be he didn't seem to notice her presence. She turned her gaze away from him, and then looked at Danson and smiled. “I'll go ahead. I still need to do some stuff.” she said. Danson was still in shock as he nodded his head. He stood up from his seat as he watched her leave the cafeteria. “You... you can't possibly marry Jiro, Kit! You can't! Is this a joke? You are hurting yourself, and you're hurting a lot of people, Kit...” he thought.

Calvin looked at Kit as she leaves. He then turned his attention to his girlfriend, who seems to be still in a state of shock. “What happened, Joy?” he asked in a worried tone. Joy wanted to cry at what she heard. Jiro have finally decided to marry Kit, and that thought is just breaking her heart. She looked at Calvin and smiled, trying her best not to break down in front if him. “I... I just tripped.” she said in a low voice. Calvin sighed with relief as he led her arms. “You should be careful next time, OK?” he said. Joy just nodded her head. Chun came inside the cafeteria and saw the very shocked Danson staring outside the cafeteria. “”What's wrong? Did I miss something? Why do you have that shocked look on your face, as if you've seen a ghost?” he asked. Danson remained unmoved, and did not answer his question. “Dannie boy, what's wrong with you?” he asked again. Then, Chun looked at Calvin, giving him a questioning look. Calvin could only shrug his shoulder as he didn't know what happened before he came in. “Engaged...” they heard Danson said. Chun gave Danson a confused look. “What did you say? Sorry, I didn't catch that... are you speaking some sort of alien language?” he asked. But Danson remained unmoved. He was a little frustrated with the way his friend is acting. He couldn't even get Danson to speak up. He grabbed Danson by his shoulder, and began to share him. All Danson did was look at Chun again. “Engaged...” he said in a low voice.

“Chun, I think you should let Danson sit for a while before asking him again.” Calvin said to him. Chun lead Danson to his seat, and Calvin did the same to Joy. “I don't know why... these two have this shocked look on their face when I got here.” Calvin said as he sat beside Joy. He put his arm around her protectively, wondering why Joy suddenly became quiet. Chun looked at Danson, still wondering what happened to him. “What happened to you? Did Hannah rejected you?” he asked. Just the mere thought of it made Chun laugh. Danson looked at Chun and glared at him. “No! Kit...” he said. Then, he shook his head. Chun eyes Calvin, and saw that he was confused as well. As he looked at Danson, he let out an evil smile. “What? Kit rejected you again? You asked her again?” Chun asked. “Kit...” Danson said as he shook his head. Calvin is getting irritated with the way Danson is acting. “Wei, Danson Tang. Can you stop repeating Kit's name? It's irritating, so stop saying her name!” Calvin said in an angry tone. Then, Danson eyed at Calvin. He also got annoyed with the way Calvin reacted. “Kit is engaged! Engaged! Got it?” he shouted at him. Danson stood up from his seat, and walked out of the cafeteria.

It was Calvin's turn to be shocked. He slumped onto his chair, unable to believe what he have heard. “Oh...” he heard Chun said. He smirked as he scratched his chin. “Very funny!” Calvin said to him. “She can't be engaged! What a gossip... silly girl...” he said as he shook his head. Then, he looked at Chun. “Go and find Danson. Comfort him, tell him it's just a silly rumor.” he said. Chun smirked at him as he shook his head. “No, Calvin... I don't think it's just a rumor.” he said. “Who can she be engaged with then?” he asked as he shook his head. “Jiro...” he heard Joy said. Calvin looked at Joy, and saw the tear falling from her eyes. “Kit is engaged to Jiro...”

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“Kit!”

Kit paused as soon as she heard Calvin's voice calling her. She looked back just in time to see Calvin standing before him. “What is it that you want?' she asked monotonously. Calvin held her on her shoulders. “Tell me it's not true...” he pleaded her. “Tell me what I heard is not true.” he said. Kit shook her head in confusion. “What do you mean?” she asked. “You're engage to Jiro Wang, right? He asked you to marry him?” he shouted at her. Kit fell silent as she slowly nodded her head. That moment, he wished that Kit was lying instead of telling the truth in his face. He looked down, and saw the solitary diamond ring on her hand. He took it and looked closer at her hand. “He proposed to me a few days ago, on our second month anniversary.” he heard Kit say. Calvin looked at her, and saw her smiling. “I said yes, Calvin... I agreed to marry him.” He lowered his head and let go of her hand. “I have lost you to him, totally...” he said sadly.. “He took you away from me... he... he didn't even gave me the chance to ready myself...” He felt Kit's hand on his shoulder. As he looked up, he saw her smiling at me. “Calvin, I will still be here for you. I am still your best friend, and there's no way I'm going to abandon you. It's not like we'll get married tomorrow or something... we have to wait until we graduate.” she said.

Calvin looked up at her again, the he pulled her close to him, and hugged her tight. “Why are you letting him take you away from me, Kit?” he asked in a low voice. As he hugged her, she felt a tear from her eyes. “Calvin...” she called in a low voice. “Give me more time to be with you, please... I... I can't let you go that instant. It's hard for me to give you to Jiro just like you that. Please, Kit... please...” he said. Kit bring up her hands, and hugged Calvin. “Calvin, you're not losing me... it's just that I am in love with Jiro, and I decided to spend forever with him....”
“No, Kit... it's not that. He took you away from me I know I shouldn't be like this, because I promised myself I will not pry into your life anymore, but I'm missing you... I'm losing you, and I'm not ready for any of these...”

Kit let go of Calvin and looked at him into his eyes. She cupped his cheeks and smiled at him. “Listen to me, Cal... This is for the best. We still have time to spend together before I get married... you don't have to worry about a thing. I am not getting married right away, we're just engaged.” she assured him. Calvin nodded his head. “Promise me, Kit... promise me you'll give me those two years before you get married. Promise me you'll spend as much time as you could with me. Promise me, you'll help me ready myself before I give you away to him... and promise me...” he said. He looked into her eyes, and then cupped her cheeks. “Promise me... when you get married to him, I will be the one who will walk you down the aisle and give your hand to him...” he asked. Kit just looked at him, as she was surprised at what he said. Then, he smiled at her. “I know you are happy with him, and I couldn't take that happiness from you.” he said as. Kit just smiled and nodded her head. As Calvin pulled her to hug her, she closed her eyes to stop the tears from falling.”I'm starting to miss you now, Kit... You are here with me, but I'm starting to miss you. I hate this feeling, you know? I hate the feeling of being helpless and of losing you... But I have to accept the fact that sooner or later you will be with him forever.” he said in a low voice. “Are you really giving me away, Cal? I was hoping you would stop me from marrying him... because I was hoping that somewhere in your heart, you love me as more than a friend.” she thought.

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The 98th paper crane: Loving you is my favorite mistake

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“Are you really sure of your decision? Are you really sure you wanted to be with Jiro for the rest of your life?” Danson asked the girl sitting beside him in front of the piano. “It's the right thing to do, Danson... after all, I am his girlfriend...” Kit said as she stared at the piano keys. “Kit, do you know what you're doing? Obviously, you are not yet over Calvin, and you are jumping into another mess! How can you marry Jiro if you can't even love him?” he asked. Kit gave him a glare. “I love him, Danson. I love Jiro!”
“You are in love with Calvin. You cannot deny that!”
“I have loved Jiro long before I have loved Calvin.”
“But you could not deny the fact that it's Calvin that's inside your heart. And Jiro... I don't want to say this to you, but I think you are just using him so that you could forget your feelings for Calvin...”

Kit looked away from him. She stared back down at the piano. “I am trying my best to forget him... I am trying for the sake of Jiro. I don't want him to feel the same pain that I felt when I loved Calvin. This is the only right thing to do after all...” she said in a low voice. “Don't you realize that you are hurting the people around you? You are hurting Jiro because of Calvin. You are hurting Joy because she is still in love with Jiro. You are hurting Calvin because he felt like he's taking you away from him. Most of all, you are hurting yourself with this decision that you made. You are choosing the man who loves you, and not the man you love... You cannot even love Jiro with all your heart...”
“How can I chose the man I love when he can only love me as a friend? Jiro is here... loving me with his everything. How can I not chose him?”

Danson looked at her, and held her hand. “I just don't want to see you broken hearted in the end. I don't want to see you hurting, because as your friend, it also breaks my heart to see you in pain. I've seen you cry before, and you don't know the heavy feeling it leaves in my heart every time you are heartbroken. I hope you understand why I'm being the devil's advocate here...” he said to her. Kit looked at him and smiled as she nodded her head. “I know Danson... I'm thankful that you are here with me to always guide me...” she said. Danson smiled and nodded his head. “Kit... are you really sure you want to marry Jiro?” he asked. Kit nodded her head. “Then, if you are decided... “ he said. “it's about time that you forget your love Calvin and start loving Jiro. Jiro deserves all of your love.”

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The bell rang, and Jiro rushed out of the room and walked through the busy hallway. “Hey, Jiro! Congratulations!” he heard one of his classmates said. Jiro just smiled at him and nodded his head. The news about him and Kit getting engaged have spread around the university. Some of the people he meet along the way congratulated him, while the others teased him for wanting to be tied down to one girl that soon. He doesn't care what the people say. All he cares about is that security he got when Kit agreed to marry him. Honestly, he was too scared to lose Kit, because he have this feeling that one day he will lose her again. Now that they are engaged, he is sure more than ever that Kit love him. “There's our groom-to-be!” he heard someone say. He looked beside him, and saw Chun smiling at him. He put his arm around him as they walked together. “So... are you nervous for the upcoming wedding, huh?” Chun asked. Jiro raised an eyebrow at him and shook his head. “Wei... we'll get married right after graduation, which is roughly two years from now... if and only if I would successfully pass all my major subjects.” he said. “But still! You should get nervous and excited about it. Are you looking forward for the honeymoon?” Chun said as he let out a vicious smile. Jiro paused, and glared at him. “Wei... I am not a pervert like you.” he said. Jiro looked away from him and continued to walk.

Just then, they saw Joy walking towards his direction. “Jiro...” she called. Jiro paused and smiled at her. “Hey, Joy...” he said. “Can we talk alone?” she asked, eying on Chun. Chun got what Joy was trying to say. “I'll go ahead, Jiro. See you in our class.” he said, excusing himself from the two. “You got me alone now, Joy. What is it that you want to talk about?” he asked. Joy shook her head. “Not here, Jiro. Let's go somewhere where we could talk.” she said. Joy turned to walk, and Jiro followed her from behind.

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Calvin walked towards his locker, and he saw another paper crane hanging by it. He sighed and shook his head before taking it. “Not again...” he thought. He opened his locker to get his books, he didn't notice that the yellow note fell on the floor. “Cal...” he heard someone call. He looked back, and saw Chun walking towards him. Chun looked down at the floor, and saw the yellow paper. He knelt down to pick it up, and read what's written on it. “Another one from Kit...” he thought. “Hey, Chun... what's up?” he asked as he took his books. Chun looked at him, and as Calvin turned to him, he showed her the yellow note. “This yours?” he asked. Calvin nodded his head. “From that mysterious paper crane girl. Anyway, I'm not interested in that one anymore.” he said. He closed his locker, and as he turned to Chun again, he was reading it's content. “Don't you care about here anymore? Look at what she have written you...” Chun said, handing him the note. Calvin sighed as he took the note from his hand. After reading its content, he sighed and shook his head. “She's getting weirder and weirder everyday. I'm starting to think she's a scary stalker or a psycho.” he said. Chun shook his head, and then read the note again. “I don't think so. Seems to me, it's like she's hurting and that she's trying to say goodbye to you.” Chun said. He was hinting about what was doing and feeling for her best friend. “Whatever it is, it's freaking me out.” Calvin said.

“Cal... maybe you're thinking too much. I don't think she is a psycho, because if she is, she could have shown herself to you and do something bad to you. Who knows... maybe in the coming days, you won't hear from her anymore...” Chun said. Calvin took a look at the paper crane on his hand. “This has got to stop...” he said in a low voice. Chun heard what he said, and he gave him a confused look. “W-what do you mean?” he asked. Calvin just looked at him. “I will find this girl, whoever she is. I have to tell her off.” Calvin said. Chun was surprised at what he said. “Tell her off? You can't do that! You're going to break her heart! And... and how will you know who she is? We can't even find who this girl is... she's so... so... mysterious...” Chun said. He was praying that Calvin would somehow changed his mind, but with the way he looked, he seemed to be determined. “I will find her, no matter what. I have to do this, Chun. It's better that I tell her to leave me alone, than hurt her in the end. This is for good.” he said. Chun could only sigh as he nodded in agreement. He just hope that this is Kit's last paper crane, so that Calvin would never find out that it was her all along.

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Jiro found himself in an empty classroom with Joy. He was standing behind her, waiting for her to speak. A few minutes have passed since they have gone inside, but Joy remained silent. “Look, Joy...” he said impatiently. “I have other things to do than stand here and wait for you to speak up. If you'll excuse me...” he turned his back to leave. Joy looked back at him, glaring at him. “Why her?” she asked in a hurt tone. “Why Kit? I have been with you longer than you are with her... but why her? Why did you ask her to marry you?” she asked again. Jiro paused, and then faced the girl behind him. “Why her? Joy... Kit is my girlfriend. Obviously, it's her that I would ask to marry me... not someone else!” he said. Joy lowered her head as a tear fell from her eyes. “You've been with Celestine for more than a year... we've been together for a year, and you and Kit just got together just a few months ago. During those times that we were together, I was wishing that you would ask me the same question... I was willing to wait until the day that you are ready... but that never happened because you decided to break up with me...” Joy said in a low voice. Then, she looked up at Jiro. “But you asked her to marry you shortly after you found her. And now... you asked her to be your wife, to be with you for the rest of your life.”

Jiro closed his eyes as he sighed. He doesn't know why his ex-girlfriend is being too unreasonable. “Joy... I don't know why you are confronting me just because of my engagement.” he said as he opened his eyes. “I asked you to wait for me, until I let her go. It was you who left me, when you answered Calvin. If you felt envy with what I did, then go and ask your boyfriend to propose to you.” Jiro said. Joy shook her head. “That's not the case, Jiro. I never left you. You did!”
“I asked you to wait for me. I asked you to wait until I have forgotten all about her...”
“I know you will never come back for me, because that's what you did with Celestine...”
“I never promised Celestine anything. I promised you that, and you never trusted me.”
“What difference will it make if I waited for you? If I waited for you and you found out that Kit is Tin, you will never come back for me, right? You will still chose Tin!”

Jiro paused, and stared into her eyes. “Or maybe not...” he said in a low voice. “We can never change what have happened in the past. You were the first one who decided to move on... you never knew how it broke my heart, Joy. I loved you so much, and I only left you because I don't want to hurt you anymore. You are happy now with Calvin, I can see that. I am very much happy with Tin. Just accept the truth, and let's all live happily ever after...” he said. “I want to hate Kit... but I cant because she is my friend. She had everything that I ever wanted...” Joy said in a low voice. “My mind's made up, Joy. I will marry Kit as soon as we graduated...” Jiro said before turning his back to leave. He reached for the door, and then he paused. “Joy...” he called. “That night... on our anniversary... just to let you know.... I was supposed to ask you the very same thing... but all the things that happened that night have already happened...” he said. He opened the door and walked out of the room, leaving Joy inside the room. As Joy watched Jiro leave, the tears began to cascade from her eyes.

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“So, how are you taking Kit's engagement to Jiro?” Chun asked as he followed Calvin to the library. Calvin paused, and glared at him. “Whoa! Don't look at me like that... I'm just asking...” Chun said. Calvin sighed, and then turned away from him. “You can't accept the fact that Jiro won over you?” Chun asked again. “Chun, I have no idea where you're getting at.” he said. Chun smirked, and then walked beside him. He put his arm around him, giving him that evil smirk. “One...” he said, sticking out his pointer finger. “I know this guy back in middle school, who would always ask me, or threaten me not to take Kit's chocolates every Valentine's day.” He stuck out another finger. “Two... I know a guy who have always been protective of his best friend, ever since. He was overprotective to the point of not wanting any guys around her.” Chun said. Then, he tuck out another finger. “Three... does it ever come to you that you are being too obvious... to the point of giving away your true feelings for Kit?”

Calvin paused, then he looked at Chun. “Kit is my best friend.” he sad. Chun smiled and shook his head. “I don't think that's the case, Calvin. If she is, then you would be happy about her and Jiro getting married, but obviously, you're not.” he said. “I never liked Jiro for her...”
“Then why do you like Danson for Kit?”
“Because he could take care of Kit.”
“Jiro has been doing a great job taking care of Kit. You may not now it, but even Danson... he's a victim of your jealousy.”
“Because he's already assuming my place!”
“No, he's not. He's only a substitute for you, for the time you have left her. Obviously, you are jealous of me as well.”

Annoyed, Calvin took his hand away from him. “I don't see where you're getting at, Chun.” he said. Chun let out another smirk. “I think you don't know where you're going at, Calvin...” he said. He put his hand on his waist as he looked at him again. “Tell me, Cal... what were you thinking when you kissed Kit on the lips, that night when we're heading home from the wedding?” he asked. Calvin was surprised at what Chun said. “You... you saw it?” he asked. Chun nodded his head. “I know what I saw, and you can never deny it, Cal...” he said. Then, he folded his arms. “Cal... obviously, you are in love with your best friend. Do I really have to spell it out for you?”

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The 99th paper crane: I chose to love you in silence, for in silence, no one owns you but me...

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She walked slowly through the empty hallway. As she reached his locker, she stopped. She turned to the locker, and took out the yellow paper from her pocket. She stared at it for a long before finally deciding to put it inside his locker. Then, she took the white paper crane from her pocket. She stared at it again for a long time. “This will be my second to the last...” she thought. “Tomorrow is the day I will let you go. Tomorrow, I don't love you anymore...” she said to herself. She then hang the paper crane by the locker, and before she could move, she felt someone walking behind her. “It's you?!” she heard a familiar voice say. She froze in shock upon hearing that voice. She could tell form his voice that he was angry and frustrated at her. She turned to face the man behind her, and saw Calvin glaring at him. “It was you all along?!” he shouted at her again. She have never seen Calvin this mad at her before. “Calvin, let me explain...” she pleaded. She reached for his hand, but before she could, Calvin took it away. “Kit, you are the paper crane girl? Are you playing games with me?” he shouted in anger. Kit could not help but cry helplessly. “No... it's not what you think...” she said in a low voice.

She looked up at him, and saw him close his eyes for what seemed like forever. “Calvin...” she said in a low voice. Then, he opened his eyes, and looked at her. “Why?” he asked. She stared into his eyes as tears began to fall from her eyes. She have to let him know now, now that he found out the truth. “Because I love you...” she said in a low voice. “I have loved you ever since, Calvin. I couldn't even tell you how I feel because of that promise we made. I thought this is the best way for me to let you know how I feel without breaking our promise... you are very important to me, and I couldn't bear to lose you...” she continued. “I've been searching for you, when all this time, it was you. Are you playing with me? With my feelings? Do you think you could fool me with that?” he asked. Kit shook her head. “No... I am not playing with you, Calvin... all the things I've said in those notes... it was true. I love you, and the only thing I could do is to love you from afar...” she answered.

Calvin turned his back on her. He felt a mixed emotion inside him. He doesn't know if he would be mad at her for what she have done, or if he would forgive him. At that moment, he felt confused about what he feels as well. He is torn among the promise they made, the friendship they had for the past year, and the secret feeling he had for her ever since. “Calvin... please believe me when I say I'm choosing our friendship over my love for you. I have planned to stop this... because... because” he heard her say. Calvin looked back at her. “Because of Jiro?” he asked. He saw her nod his head. He felt his heart flinch as she answered him. She had her chance with him, but he chose to be with her first love. “Why? I could love you the way Jiro loves you, Kit...” he thought. He felt the anger raging inside him as he turned to face her again. “You are just playing with our feelings, Kit.” he said in a firm tone. “You played with me when you started leaving those paper cranes. You acted as if you don't know who it was. You helped me find who she is, when you know for a fact that it was you! You know what disgusted me most? You used everyone around you. You used Hannah to cover up for you.” Kit just shook her head as he speaks. “It's not that, Calvin...” she said. Calvin shook his head as he let out a bitter smile. “You ruined everything, Kit. You ruined relationships, you broke our hearts. You are with Jiro when you know inside your heart that you are loving me, your best friend. It seems to me that you manipulated us all. You're a very good actress, Kit. A very good actress, and an award-winning director... I won't believe you anymore, Kit. Not this time.”

Calvin turned his back to leave. But as he took a step, he felt Kit's hand on her, stopping him from leaving. “Calvin... please don't do this to me. Please give me a chance to rebuild what I have ruined... our friendship... please Calvin...” she cried. “You have no idea how hard this is for me... to admit that I love you... because I know for a fact that you will end our friendship. Calvin, if I have to lie to you, then I will. I don't love you anymore, you hear that? Let's go back to being friends again... please...” she pleaded him. Calvin remained unmoved by what she said. “You know the consequence, Kit... you know the consequence when one of us fell in love with another.” he said. “We have to end our friendship.” With that, Calvin pulled his hand away from him and started to leave.

Kit felt her heart breaking as Calvin walks out on her. He's not just walking out on her, he's walking out on their friendship. She slowly knelt down on the floor as tears began to flood her eyes. The last thing she would want to happen is to lose Calvin, and it's happening right before her eyes. “Calvin... don't leave me...” she whispered. “I'm choosing our friendship... please... don't go...” she said. Meanwhile, as Calvin walks away from her, he wanted to stop, and go back to Kit. He wanted to hold her in his arms, and tell her that he also feels the same, that he love her. He wanted to tell her that he wanted to take this chance with her, and forget that stupid promise they made not long ago. He's too late, he knows, but he's willing to make up for all the times he didn't admit his feelings for her. But it's clear to him that Kit have chosen Jiro over him. She chose to let him go for Jiro, and that he could not accept. It hurts him more than it hurts Kit now, for he have always been losing to Jiro. “I'm sorry, Kit...” he thought as he walked away. “I... I couldn't break my heart anymore...”

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The 101st paper crane: Don't let yourself be so angry that you stop loving, because one day you'll wake up from that anger, and the person you love will be gone forever...

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 48 – Recollection of Memories




A/N: This is a series of Kit's flashback, during the time when Kit was still the paper crane girl, so you might be reading something that came from the previous chapters.


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The darkness hidden the figure lying on her bed. Her eyes, wide awake,and only soft sobs can be heard. The darkness have managed to hide the loneliness in her eyes. It have hidden her tears. It have hidden her heartache. What happened that day, it was something that was unexpected. Who would've thought that on that day, she will lose the most important person in her life? The man she have loved for so long have decided to walk out on her just like that... because she have broken a promise they made long ago.

She closed her eyes, and a single tear rolled from her eyes. She could still hear him shouting at her, accusing her of playing with his feelings, of breaking his heart. Of all people, she know how he have felt toward the paper crane girl. After all, he confided to her, and told her all of his feelings for that girl. Listening to him, telling her how he felt that this mystery girl is his soul mate, made her filled with hope. She badly wanted to tell him it was her, but her fear stopped her from doing so. She was too scared to break her promise and lose him forever, that's why she chose their friendship. But now, she regrets all the things she have done. If only she could turn back time... she would tell him how she feels for him...

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Hannah walked towards the familiar locker. She took the yellow note from her hand, and then inserted it inside the locker. “Hannah?” she heard someone call. She froze in her place. Someone found her, and she know who it was. She slowly looked back, and saw Kit standing beside her. “What are you doing here?” she asked, smiling at her. “I... I...” she stuttered. She saw her took a paper crane from her bag, and then hang it on his locker. “Kit?” she asked. She was confused at what she was doing. Kit just looked at her and smiled. “You left a love note for Calvin?” she asked. Hannah nodded her head. “You... you're leaving a paper crane for what?” she asked. “The paper crane symbolizes my love for him...” Kit said.

Hannah was even more surprised at what she said. She have known Kit way back their first day in the uni, but they weren't close enough for her to tell her this things. “You... you are in love with... with Calvin?” she asked. Kit nodded her head. “There's no way he would love me back, I know. For him, I am the sister he never have... that's why I'm doing this. This way, I could let Calvin know how I feel without him knowing that it's me.” she said. Hannah could clearly see the sadness in her eyes. She never thought that she was secretly in love with her best friend, and sadly, there is nothing she could do. “Kit... I'm sorry... I never thought...” Kit smiled at her and shook her head. “Don't worry about me. I have been through this. Promise me... whatever it is that you found out, you will keep it a secret...” she said. Hannah smiled and nodded her head. “Don't worry, I will definitely keep this secret. Trust me.” she said. Then, Kit held her hand. “Come on, we shouldn't linger here for so long, or he might see us.” Kit said. Hannah smiled at her and nodded her head.

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From one corner, Kit hid herself. As soon as the bell rang, she saw Calvin walked towards his locker. She saw the surprised look on his face as he found his little gift from her. Then, his lips turn into a smile. As he opened the locker, he saw the note that Hannah left for him. He smiled as he read that note. Shes happy to know that he have appreciated the things they gave him, and was not annoyed by it. She felt contented seeing that sunshiny smile of his, for this is what she have always wanted to see. She stood up, and took a deep breath. She opened the book that she was holding, and walked towards him. “Drats... Professor Ren is really something...” she said as she approached Calvin.

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As Kit was walking to her next class, she saw Calvin as he stared at Joy. She stepped back, and hid herself to watch him. She know Calvin have liked Joy for so long, and it breaks her heart watching him as he watched the girl he loves. She wished that Calvin could look at her the way that he looks at Joy, but he knows that it's impossible. It's like wishing for pigs to fly. He know Calvin could never notice someone like her, after all, she's just a friend. But her heart ached when he saw the pain in his eyes the moment he saw Jiro. She wished she could take that pain away, and make him smile... if only she could have the courage to do that...

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“Kit, you told me you'll help me find her, right?” she heard Calvin ask her. She smiled at him, although inside, she was feeling nervous. Then, she nodded her head. Calvin smiled at her. “Can you start looking for her?” he asked. Kit nodded her head again. “Sure. Danson will help me. Right, Danson?” she said, looking at Danson. She was praying that Danson would not agree to her, but she was wrong. “Sure, no problem.” Danson said. Calvin smiled at his two friends. “Thanks a lot, guys!” he said as he put his arms around them.

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“Hannah...” the smaller figure looked up at her. She walked towards her. Hannah let out a faint smile as she approaches. “Kit...”
“I need your help, Hannah...”

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“Why are you doing this?” Chun asked Kit as they were sitting by the rooftop. “Do you really like me a lot or you are lying about loving me? Kit... if you want me to stop annoying Calvin, then I will stop...” he said as he looked at the girl beside her. Kit felt her heart beating fast. With the way Chun looked at her, it seems that he could see through her. “I liked you ever since, Chun...” she said. Chun just shook his head. “There is someone else that you like, Kit. It's not me.” he said. Kit looked away from him. “You know...” she said in a low voice. “Yes, I know...” Chun said. “I know you are in love with Calvin... and you are keeping this a secret. I don't know why...”
“Because we made a promise of not falling in love with each other...”
“What would happen if one of you fell for another?”
“We have to end our friendship...”

Chun sighed and shook his head. “So... things would be complicated now that you are in love with Calvin... wouldn't he understand that if he found out?” he asked. “I don't know. All I know is that I'm scared of losing my best friend that's why I'm not telling him this...” she said as she looked at him. “Chun... promise me you won't tell anyone about this... about what you have found out...” Chun looked at her and smiled. “I'll keep this a secret... don't worry...”

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As Hannah opened the door, she saw Kit sitting by the piano, waiting for her. Kit looked at her and smiled. “Hey...” she said. Hannah smiled at her. “Hey, Kit.” she said. She walked towards her, and sat beside her. “I heard about your scholarship in Vienna...” Kit said. “Is that the reason why you were leaving the notes for Calvin?” she asked again. Hannah nodded her head. “I don't have much time, Kit. Like you, I can only love Calvin from afar... and I wanted to let him know how I feel before I leave...” she said. Kit stared at her for a long time, and then smiled at her. “You've done a lot for me... from keeping my secrets... to helping me do my deeds. I know one thing that could help you let him know how you feel...” she said. Hannah just looked at her, confused at what she was saying. “What do you mean?” she asked. “How about taking my place... as the paper crane girl?”

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Danson and Kit saw Calvin and Trixie by Calvin's locker. They immediately ran towards them, and was surprised at what Calvin asked Trixie. “Y-you? You are my paper crane girl?” he asked. Trixie was not able to answer for a while. Kit knew that Trixie would lie to him. She was about to walk towards them and explain everything to Calvin, but Danson stopped her. They both looked at each other, as if telling each other to wait for what Trixie would say. “I... I didn't know you would find out this way...” they heard Trixie said. Then, Trixie looked up at Calvin and said. “Yes Calvin, I am the paper crane girl...”

Kit could not believe what she heard. She know for a fact that Trixie is not the paper crane girl, but she is. “No...” she wanted to shout. She looked at Danson, hoping he would help her, and say something, but he just remained standing listening to Trixie's lies. “Maybe we were wrong...” she heard Danson say. She shook her head, and looked at Calvin again. “She's lying, Calvin...” she wanted to say. “I... I am the real paper crane girl, not Trixie!” She looked up at the other side, and saw Hannah standing from the other side. She could also see the shock on her face upon hearing what Trixie said. “No... Kit's the one...” she wanted to say to Calvin. Confused about what's going on, she didn't notice that she dropped her books as she turned and ran away from that scene.

“Hannah!” she heard Kit said. She looked back, and saw Kit and Danson running towards her. She shook her head, and headed to the music room. “Kit, wait... “ Danson said as he held her hand. Kit looked back at him. “Let Hannah be alone for a while...” he said. Kit just shook her head. “She needs me now, Danson. Let me talk to her.” she said. She let go of his hand and then followed Hannah to the music room. As she opened the door, she found the room empty.

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Hannah slowly opened the door of the music room, and saw Kit playing a lonely tune on the piano. Moon River. It was Calvin's favorite tune and she knows that it was Kit's favorite tune as well. She slowly walked inside the room, and as she stood beside her, Kit looked at her with tears on her eyes. “Hannah...” she said. Hannah sat beside her, and let her head rest on her shoulder. She could also feel her pain. They both knew it was Kit that Calvin was looking for, but someone have assumed her identity, She could also feel the pain that she was feeling. “Kit... it's going to be all right...” she said to her. There's nothing she could do but hear her soft sobs. If only she could help her take away the hurt she is feeling right now, she would do that. Kit doesn't deserve this, not her, who have became her only friend. Kit does not deserve to be hurt, even though it's wrong for her to love Calvin.

Shr reached for the piano, and continued playing her tune. “Kit... it's gonna be OK...” she whispered to her. She wanted to believe what she was saying. but she knows it's not going to be OK. Not anymore. They both know that starting today, everything will change. She leaned over her, and then she cried with her...

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Kit leaned over the wall. She crept from the corner she was hiding, and watched Calvin and Trixie together. She saw how happy Calvin is in Trixie's arm. She saw the love in his eyes as he looked at her She saw how happy Trixie is for having his heart. Her heart is breaking again at that sight. She was supposed to be in Trixie's place. She was supposed to be in Calvin's arm right now. She should be the one whom he would be lovingly look at, not Trixie.

She could not believe that Calvin would learn to love Trixie, to the point of even forgetting her birthday. She was scared that someday, he will totally forget about her. It's happening now, and it could happen again. If only she have the courage to tell him the truth, to let him know what she feels, but she couldn't bring herself to let him know what's inside her heart. She turned away, and leaned on the wall again. She's unable to bear the sight of that happy couple. She closed her eyes to stop her tears from falling. As she opened her eyes, she stared at the paper crane she's clutching. “In time, I know you will find out that Trixie's lying to you...” she said to herself. She knows there is no use for this paper crane now. As she stood up straight, she dropped the paper crane and headed outside of the building.

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Kit and Hannah sat in front of the piano. Hannah stared at the ivory keys in front of her. “Now, he found out the truth about her lies…” she heard Kit say. Hannah looked up at her. “What would he do now?” she asked. The tall figure looked away at her, staring at the mirror in front of them. “I’ve always prayed for this day… for him to find out…” Kit said in a low voice. Then she looked at the girl beside her and smiled. “Am I selfish?” Hannah shook her head. “She deserves it after all this time… the truth will come out eventually, and it just so happen that he have to find out about her lies this soon…” she said. Then, she turned her attention to the ivory keys of the piano again. “She does not deserve him…” she said, with a hint of anger in her voice. “We could not deny the fact that he loved her… Maybe, he’s still willing to give her a chance, if only she would tell him the truth this time…” Kit said. Then, Hannah smiled at her. “I doubt if she will tell him the truth. She’s a good liar, after all…”

Hannah pressed the key of the piano, making a loud music inside the room. “Should I tell him now? Do you think he will still find the real paper crane girl?” she asked. “Do you think this is the right time to let him know what you feel for him?” Kit asked. “Time is running out…”
“But, I don’t know how he would react if he found out…”
“Would you just let this moment pass?”
She paused. Then, she looked up at Kit. “How about you? Would you let this moment pass?” Hannah asked. “There’s a big difference between the two of us…” Kit answered. Hannah smiled and shook her head. “No, we’re in the same boat…”she said. “We are both secretly in love with the man we know we can never have…”

--

Kit walked inside the room, and she saw Hannah playing the piano again. She was playing his favorite tune again. She smiled as she walked towards her. The tall figure sat beside her, and the girl looked up at her. “He is looking for you again...” Kit said. Hannah smiled and shook her head. “You should say, 'he is looking for me again'.” she answered. Kit just smiled. “Nevertheless, he is searching for the paper crane girl once more...”
“Then tell him it's you...”
Kit shook her head. “You know very well that I can't...” she said in a low voice. “I can't tell him how I feel...” she said. Hannah could understand how she feels. She's scared that he would reject her when he found out that she is in love with him. Then, Kit looked at her again, smiling. “But you... you can let him know that you love him. You still have the chance...”
“I don't want to lie to him...”
“You're not going to lie... you will tell him the truth. Both of us did this, we're both...”
“Yes, I know...”

Hannah looked at her and smiled. “We're both the ones who leaves the paper crane in his locker. You were the one who leaves the paper crane, while I... I was the one who leaves those love notes...” she said. She looked away from Kit, as she remembered that day when they found out about each other's secret. “Remember that day when you found out I was leaving him those love notes? I was scared... so scared that you would tell him. But then, you told me it's OK... then you hang the paper crane on the handle of his locker...” she said, smiling. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “I found out that you have been secretly loving him, and I told you that I do love him as well. But... but I can't even let him find out...” then she looked at her again. “You have your chance. You have to let him know that you are the paper crane girl...” she said to Hannah. But Hannah just shook her head. “If I tell him that, I will still be lying...” she said, looking up at her. “Because between you and me, you are the real paper crane girl.”

--

“Time is running out for you...” Kit told to the girl standing in front of her. Hannah slowly looked up at her. “I still have time...”
“But until when? When will you tell him what you feel?”
“I just don't think this is the right time...”
Hannah looked up at Kit, and she saw her sighing. She know that she is just concerned about her. The girl in front of her understands exactly how she feels. “I'm sorry...” she said as she lowered her head. “It's just... I'm scared... scared that he will reject me if he finds out...”
“If he found out that I am in love with him, he will reject me. And worse... he will....”

Kit shook her head, shrugging off her thoughts. “But you... you have your chance. He's looking for you, and I know that no matter what, he will accept you, the way he accepted Trixie.” she said to the girl. “It's just not me that he is looking for... he's looking for you as well. Remember, we did this together, to let him that we love him.”
“I know...”
“Then why? Tell me why you want to give me your identity? Why would you like everyone think that I am the paper crane girl, when we both know that it's you?”
Kit smiled and shook her head. “You still don't understand, don't you?” she said in a low voice. “If he found out that I am in love with him, I'll be breaking my promise...”

She looked at her, and then held both of her hands. “I'm giving you this chance. You may never have a chance again once you leave. Take it. Tell him that you love him.” she said. Hannah could only look up at her. She felt sad for this girl in front of her. “Because if you do... it's like I've told him what I feel...”
The girl looked away, her mind is debating whether she will say yes or not. She looked at her again, and saw her eyes pleading at her. She took a deep breath, it can't be helped at all. She have to help her friend, in the same way that she did helped her before. “Please... Hannah?” Left with no choice, Hannah slowly nodded her head.

--

“I know that it was you.... that you are the real paper crane girl...” she heard Danson said. Kit looked away from him. She suddenly felt scared now that Danson knew about her secret. Like her, Danson has been also the one looking for this mystery girl. “You're going to tell Calvin?” she asked. Danson shook his head. “I have no plans of telling him. Because... because I know the complications. I know the promise you made about not falling in love with each other...” he said. Kit looked at him again and nodded her head. “If one of us fell in love with another, we have to end the friendship. Calvin will end our friendship if he found out that I am in love with him. Worst, he... he will avoid me... if he found out....and I can't bear to lose my best friend again because of a broken promise.” Kit said. Danson took her hand and squeezed it. “Calvin will never know. I will keep your secret, I promise you.” he said.

--

“She have been locking herself up in her room since yesterday... not even Jiro could talk to her. I don't know what's happening to her...” Mrs. Jin told Danson as they peeked inside Kit's room. Danson looked up at her mom, and saw how worried she is about her daughter. “Auntie, can I try and talk to her?” he asked. Mrs. Jin smiled and nodded her head. “You can try... anything to get her up from that bed.” she said. Danson smiled at her and nodded his head. He slowly opened the door of her room and walked inside. “Kit...” he called. He saw that she buried herself under a pile of blanket. Upon hearing Danson's voice, Kit slowly peeked outside the blanket. “Dan... son...” she called in a weak voice. He sat beside her, and took off the blanket. “I am here...” he said. Kit sat up, and looked at him. He could see how broken her friend is. He doesn't know what happened to her, or to Calvin, but he could feel something is wrong “Danson...” she said as she looked at him. “Kit... what's wrong? Talk to me...” he said. He saw the teat fall from her eyes again. She began to cry uncontrollably. She reached for him for hug, and Danson held her. “Ssshhhh... I am here now... don't cry now...” he whispered to her. He rubbed her back to make her feel at ease, but he could still hear her sobs. He's now sure more than ever that something have happened to her. “Danson... Calvin...” she said between sobs. “Calvin... he... found out... that I... I am the paper crane girl... he found out that I am in love with him...” He was surprised at what he heard. He felt Kit released herself from the hug, and then she looked up at him. “Danson... he... he left me... Calvin ended our friendship...”

He knew this is bound to happen. He knew Kit would be heartbroken if Calvin ended their friendship. He never thought how broken she is when Calvin left her. She have never seen Kit this sad, this down, this depressed. He wanted to blame Calvin for all the heartache she is feeling right now, but he knows it it was Kit's fault as well that's why she was hurting this way. He pulled the girl in front of her, and gave her a comforting embrace. He wanted to say that everything is going to be all right, but he know it's not the case. A lot of things have happened already between them, and he know by now Calvin already have a change of heart. All that he could do for now is let Kit cry to ease the pain she is feeling right now.

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 49 – Please Listen



“Calvin...”

Calvin looked back, and saw Danson walking towards him. He sighed as he turned his eyes away from him. By now, Kit might have told him everything that happened between them. “What?” he asked in an annoyed tone. Danson walk in front of him and looked him in the eyes. “Can we talk?” he asked. “If this is about Kit, I don't want to.” he said. He took a step away from him, but Danson stopped him. “Please, Calvin. I know what happened already... Please don't do this to Kit.” Danson said. Calvin looked at Danson and smirked at him. “Just as I thought. You will side with her again, just like before...”
“I am only helping her out.”
“Don't help her out. She used you too. She was only getting your sympathy, but you know what, she will just lie to you.”

Danson shook his head. “You don't understand, Cal...” he said in a low voice. “And I don't want to understand. He played with my feelings. Danson, you know for a fact that I fell in love with the paper crane girl. She also know that! And I fell for that trap she made. It was her all this time, Danson. I felt betrayed... I felt hurt...” he said. Danson looked at him sternly. “But you hurt her as well, Calvin...” he said. “Maybe Kit hurt you unintentionally, but did it ever occurred to you that you have also hurt her several times, without you knowing it? She did not betray you, Cal. All the things she said in those notes... those paper cranes... it only shows her true feelings for you.” Calvin just looked at the guy standing in front of him. “It doesn't matter now, Danson.” he said in a low voice. “Kit broke my heart as well, how can I forgive her for that?” he said silently.

--

“You can't always be like this, Kit...” Danson said to her. That afternoon, he came back to their house and saw her still in bed. He felt worried about his friend. Every time he sees her, she seem to get weaker and weaker. “Jiro has been asking me what's happening with you. You're not taking his calls, and you wouldn't let him see you. You don't want him to suspect a thing, or even think that you'll break it off with him, right?” he said again. Kit just slowly nodded her head. “You have to get out of this room, and go back to school. Finals is coming up, and if you keep on being absent, you'll fail all of your subjects. Do this for yourself, Kit...” he said again. Kit closed her eyes and shook her head. “I... I'm not ready. I don't want to see Calvin... after all that had happened...” she said in a weak voice. “But you have to face him, Kit. Don't be like this! You've only lost him... you still have Jiro. Did you chose him when you agreed to marry him?”
“Calvin is my best friend. We've been together all my life. Losing him is like losing the half part me...”
“But you still have that other part of you to keep you going. Kit... maybe it would be hard at first, but you will learn to live without him.”

Kit looked away from him. She realized Danson is right. She have to learn to live without Calvin beside him, after all, it was all her fault that he ended their friendship. If only she had not fallen in love with him, and if only she did not hide in the identity of the paper crane girl, then Calvin would not get mad at her. She have betrayed Calvin's trust, and he have every right to be mad at her. “Kit... you told me, after you have given your hundredth paper crane to Calvin, you will forget your feelings towards him. Maybe... maybe God allowed this to happen so that you could soon forget your feelings for him now. And Jiro... Kit... you still have Jiro. He needs you more than anything else. He loves you, and you know inside your heart that you love him. Give him all of your love, that love that you wanted to make Calvin feel. He deserves it, Kit. You've been hurt, you have hurt Calvin, don't hurt Jiro. Don't make the same mistake with him. Kit... you have to move on for him. You have to be strong for him. You... you can't lose him... not anymore...” Danson said. Kit looked up at him and slowly nodded her head. “You're right, Danson...” she said in a low voice. “It's about time that I love Jiro in the same way I have loved Calvin. One day... one day I could forget all about this, and forgive myself for falling in love with my best friend.”

--

She slowly folded the paper in her hand. After a while, a paper crane was formed. She stared at the paper crane she created, and then took her memory box. As she opened the memory box, she saw the things that reminded her of Calvin – his whistle, his friendship bracelet, his uniform button, their pictures during happier times, the dried roses he gave a long time ago, the letter he gave her a few years back, and the love letter she made for him. She took one of their picture from the memory box. It was taken way back when they were in high school. In that picture, Calvin was smiling while hugging her. She could see how happy he is with her that time.

There was a time back then when she thought that Calvin sees her as more than a friend. She remembered back then that he would do his best to get the chocolates he have prepared for her crush on Valentine's day. She remembered getting peach roses from him, and although Calvin would deny that he is her supposed to be secret admirer, she would know by his penmanship. Looking back, she realized it's just a figment of her imagination, as Calvin only sees her as his best friend, his sister. Since Calvin first saw Joy, she knew that moment that that girl have taken his heart completely. He would talk nonstop about her. He would feel giddy whenever he is around her. He looked at Joy differently as he looked at her with love. Calvin got a chance with Joy, and she was there helping him make a good impression at the girl he likes. She was there to help Calvin prepare the special night for him and Joy. She even suggested a sweet gesture for him on their first month together. It was breaking her heart. It made her want to wish that she was the girl Calvin loves, and not someone else. Because if Calvin would only love her, then maybe he would not take her for granted, or even neglect her.

She thought that if she would be someone else's girl, and if she would give other people a chance to love her, she would soon forget her feelings for him. When Jay came back into her life, she gave it a shot. Calvin's actions made her even more confused, as he seems to be always jealous of Jiro. He was competing with him for her attention, always wanting to spend more time with her. Although it looks like she was getting annoyed with his actions, inside she felt happy. She felt happy that he would beg for his time, for a moment to be with her. She was happy whenever he get annoyed when he sees her with Jiro. She's happy, because for once, she felt that Calvin needed her, his best friend. That's the sad truth, and she should accept the fact that Calvin would never have feelings for her as well.

She started giving him those paper cranes, but at that first day that she left them on his locker, she wanted to stop. But she still continued because of Hannah, because just like her, Hannah could not bring herself to tell him how she feels for him. Although Hannah was the one who left the love notes, she only left a few for Calvin and stopped leaving the love notes for him after they gave the fifth paper crane to him. The rest of the love notes came from her. She doesn't know why Hannah suddenly stopped, but she later learned from her that she was giving way to her, so that she could have her chance to tell Calvin how she feels. The only way she could thank Hannah is to let her borrow her identity as the paper crane girl, so that she could confess her love for Calvin before she leaves for Vienna.

She thought Calvin would get annoyed if her got those things from a secret admirer, but Calvin appreciated those little gifts. Slowly, he fell in love with the paper crane girl, and have thought that she is his soul mate. When he asked her to find the mystery girl, she was torn between telling him the truth and hiding it from him. She wanted so much to tell him that she is the one she is looking for, because he said that he would accept the paper crane girl whoever she is. She also got scared, because she know that if Calvin found out that she is in love with him, he will end their friendship because of the promise they made back then. She chose to hide the truth. She almost lost him because of Trixie, and she wouldn't want that to happen again. She wouldn't be able to take it if she loses him again just because she have fallen in love with him. She never thought that while she's keeping her silence, Calvin have slowly fallen out of love with the paper crane girl. He gave up on her, believing that this mystery girl does not exist, and worse, just playing around with his feelings. He could no longer accept her love, because along the way, he have fallen deeply in love with Joy. He gave up on her because he got tired of searching for her. She wanted to regret not speaking up, but she knows hiding the truth would be for the best. She would rather stay as his loyal best friend, than him deciding later on to end their friendship just because of her love.

Nothing pained her more than the day Calvin found out. She could not forget the anger in his eyes that day. He accused her of toying with his feelings. He blamed her for ruining everything between them, for using the people around her, for making him a fool, and for breaking his heart. He lost his trust in her, and then, he decided to end it all. Her heart was breaking as he walked away from her, telling her that he could no longer be friends with her. If only he could make him understand that at that moment, she was choosing their friendship over her love for him. She was giving up her love for him. But, he never listened to her. He was too angry to hear her out. She could understand that, and that he have the right to be mad at her. And because of that, she felt guilty for what she have done.

She carefully laid the paper crane she made inside the memory box. This was supposed to be her 100th paper crane, the last paper crane she will give him before she let go of her love for him. There will never be a chance for her to give it to him. Then, she stared at the pink envelope inside the box. It was her letter for him. A letter explaining all of her actions in the past. It was a letter letting him know how she feels inside. Just like the paper crane, she know she will never have the chance to give the letter to him, as it will be left unread. She hope one day, Calvin would find these things inside her memory box so that he could understand her feelings. She hope one day, he will learn to forgive her for all the mistakes she have done. She have done those foolish things because she loved him too much. She hope that day would come, before it's too late between them.

--

“Jay...” Kit said as soon as she saw Jiro outside the house that night. She could see the sadness and confusion in his eyes. “Tin...” Jiro said. Kit walked up to her, and looked down. “What's happening? Why are you avoiding my calls? Why aren't you going to school? Are you avoiding me? Did I do something that made you mad?” he asked. Kit looked up at him and shook her head. “No... it's just that a lot of things happened, and I have to deal with it alone...” she said. Jiro gave her a confused look. “A lot of thing happened? What happened? Tell me...” he said. Kit smiled at her and shook her head. “I can't tell you for now, Jay. I'm still dealing with it, hoping I could fix what I have ruined. Give me time, and I will tell you once everything's in place again.” she said. “Is it because of me? Was it because of our engagement?” he asked again. Kit shook her head again. “You haven't done anything wrong, Jay. Maybe it has something to do with our engagement, but I will tell you that in time...” she said. She saw Jiro smiled at him. “And I thought I did something...” he said as he sighed with relief. Then, he held her hands. “You made me worried, Tin. So worried... I was going crazy thinking why you've been like this. I don't know what's going on with you. I was asking Danson and Chun, but they won't tell me. I wanted to ask Calvin, but he's avoiding me.” he said. As she heard Calvin's name, Kit turned away from him. “He... he's avoiding you?” she asked. Jiro nodded his head. “Yeah... I don't know what happened to him... maybe because of the engagement of something. He's been acting like that when he found out about it.” he said.

Then, Kit looked up at Jiro, and stared at him for a long time. “Jay... do you love me?” she asked. Jiro smiled and nodded his head. “I love you. I could not even find the words to describe how much I love you...” he said. Kit nodded her head and smiled at him. “The truth is... I... I've been down lately. I felt like I lost something very important to me... and I'm scared... I'm scared that I'm losing those people that I love...” she said. Kit walked towards him, and then hugged him tight. “Jay... tell me that you love me. Tell me that you will never leave me. Tell me... tell me that this time, this is for keeps... that I'm right in choosing you...” she said to him. Jiro felt even more confused at what she said. He was hinting that something really bad had happened to her, and she's not telling him about it. He hugged Kit tight, assuring her that he's here to stay with her. “I love you, Tin...” he whispered to her ear. “I promise you that I will never leave you... I will stay here with you. I promise you I won't let go or even give up on us. I want to be with you forever and a day... and all that matters to me is you...” he said. Kit looked up at him, and he saw her crying. He reached for her face, and wiped those tears. “Thank you, Jiro. Thank you for making me feel secure. I love you... and I will love you for the rest of my life...” she said. Then, she smiled at him. “I'm sorry for acting like this. It's just that I had this dream. A really bad dream. In my dream, you left me again. You left me all alone... and I... I don't want that to happen. That dream felt so real, that I've been so depressed by it...” she said. Jiro smiled at her. Then, he shook his head. “It's just a dream, princess. I made my promise to you, and I'm keeping it. I assure, I will never ever leave your side again.” he said. Kit nodded her head, and then hugged him again. “I love you, Jiro...” she said in a low voice. “I will give all of my love to you....”

Meanwhile, Calvin was just watching them. He felt his heart breaking at that scene. “She really love Jiro...” he thought. He still could not accept the fact that Kit have chosen Jiro over him. He could not accept the fact that it will always be Jiro. “Why can't you choose me, Kit? Why?” he said in a low voice. As he watched her with Jiro, he was wishing that it was him who was holding Kit in his arms. He was wishing that it was him that she kisses. He was wishing it was him whom Kit would say those three words. He knows it's only a wish. It's clear to him that Kit have decided to be with Jiro, after all, he is the reason why she decided to let him go. If Kit have only known how he felt for her, if only he had the courage to tell her that day that he loves her too, but he knows it's too late. His anger because of her choice have blinded him, and in the end, he have said things that have hurt him and have made decisions that he have regret. “She loved me... how come I didn't see it?” he thought. All the time, Kit have been acting as if she only treats him as a best friend, but he failed to notice those subtle hints, those small clues that would give way to how she truly feels for him.

He turned his back, unable to bear to see Kit in the arms of his rival. It is obvious to him that Kit is now happy with Jiro. She's willing to do everything for him, to reciprocate Jiro's love, that she even decided to give up on him. He have lost completely. Now, it's about time that he move on and give all of his attention to the girl he have chosen to love. It's breaking his heart to accept that he lost without a fight, but he have to accept that he could not always get what he wants. He have wanted Kit's love, but sadly, it's not something she could give to him right now.

--

“Arrggghhh.... I hate that Professor Liu...” Chun said as he sat beside Danson. It was lunch time, and he met with Danson, and Jiro at the cafeteria right after his defense. “Imagine, he's throwing questions with are irrelevant to my paper! It's as if he really doesn't want to pass me on that subject.” he said. Danson and Jiro just laughed at him. “As if you don't know that old woman. Of course, she was just scaring you, but believe me, she'll eventually pass you.” Danson said. Chun leaned on his chair and sighed. “How I wish...” he said. Then, he looked at Jiro, and noticed that he is alone. “Where's Kit? Is she absent again? What happened to her? She's been out for almost a week...” Chun said. Danson looked away from him and sighed. He knew what happened to her, and why she's out for more than a week. He looked at Jiro, and saw him smiling at Chun. “She's here. She'll follow us here in the cafeteria afrer she's done with her school work.” Jiro said. Chun looked at Danson, and noticed the change of his expression. He noticed that he's silent whenever he asks for Kit. “Does this guy know something that I don't?” he thought.

Just then, Joy and Calvin joined them. “Hey, guys!” Joy greeted them cheerfully. She took the seat in front of Jiro, and then Calvin sat beside her. Chun observed Calvin, and from what he's seeing, it seems that he's mad whenever he sees Jiro. “Hey...” Calvin said to them monotonously. “What's wrong? Did these two guys fought again or what?” Chun thought as he shifted his eyes on his two friends. “Cal... I heard about your upcoming debate competition next week. Too bad, we're on different teams... but good luck on you.” Jiro said. Calvin just gave him a faint smile and nodded head. “Thanks.” he said. After a while, Kit came. “Jay...” she called. Jiro looked back at her and smiled. He stood up from his seat, then he put his arm around her and kissed her on the cheek. “Hey, princess...” he said. Kit just smiled at him. Meanwhile, Calvin was just watching the two lovers before him. He felt hurt upon seeing how sweet they are. He know that he have no right to be jealous, but he is, and he's mad at Jiro for taking her away from him.

Kit looked at her friends, and then she saw Calvin sitting beside Joy. As she looked at Calvin, he put his arm around at Joy, and then he pulled her closer to him. Kit looked away from him, “Hey, Kit! It's good to see you again. What happened to you? Even Calvin didn't know what happened to you...” Joy said. Kit looked at her and forced a smile. “I... I got sick... that's why I was absent.” she lied. Then, Joy looked at Calvin and glared at him. “Calvin! You didn't know that your best friend is sick?” she told him. “A-actually, I... I didn't let him know... I didn't even let Jiro know about it... sorry if I got you guys worried about me.” she said. She eyed on Danson, and he saw him sigh and shook his head. “You didn't let Calvin know because he's the reason why you got depressed for a week...” he thought. Kit looked at Calvin, but he was avoiding her eyes. She was hurting to see that her best friend had turned cold towards her. She could feel that he doesn't want to see her anymore. There was an awkward silence among them, which made Chun, Jiro and Joy confused. “What's wrong?” Chun asked. Jiro just shrugged his shoulder. Joy turned to Calvin, and saw him collecting his bag. “I have to go...” he said as he stood up from his seat. Then, he looked at Joy and smiled. “I'll see you later after school.” he said. Joy nodded her head, then he leaned to her and kissed her on the cheek.

Kit could only watch as Calvin leaves the room. She could not accept that Calvin was treating her as if she does not exit. She could not accept that he have already ended their friendship, and that she is nothing but a stranger for him now. She have to talk to him, to explain everything. If she have to forget her feelings for him to gain back their friendship, she would do that. She just can't bear losing her best friend. “Jay...” she said as she looked at the guy beside her. “I forgot... I have to talk to one of my professors regarding the quiz I've missed...” she lied. Jiro just smiled and nodded his head. “OK... I'll see you later after school.” he said. Kit let out a faint smile, and kissed him on the cheek before she followed Calvin.

--

Calvin was walking through the empty hallway when he heard a familiar voice calling him. “Calvin!” he looked back, and saw Kit walking towards him. He sighed and shook his head in dismay. The last person he would want to speak with that day is Kit. He turned his eyes away from him, and began to walk away from him. Then, he felt someone tug his arm. He looked beside him, and saw Kit. “Calvin... please...” she pleaded. He looked into her eyes, and he could see the pain that he have caused her. It was aching him to see her like this, but he have to keep his distance from her. “What do you want?” he asked in an annoyed tone. “Please don't be like this, Cal... let's talk, please...” she said. “What is there to talk about?” he asked, glaring at her. Kit was taken aback when he glared at her “A-about... about us...” she sad in a low voice. Calvin smirked at her, and then he shook his head. “We have nothing to talk about us, Kit. Nothing. I don't want to hear anything from you. I don't want to hear your lies anymore...” he said in a stern voice. Kit closed her eyes as she lowered her head. She was trying her best not to cry in front of him. “I'm not lying to you...” she said. “All the things I've said to you before as the paper crane girl... those are true...”
“I don't care anymore. I've heard what I need to hear the last time we talked. I don't want to hear anything from you ever again.”
“But there are a lot of things that I want to say, Calvin... a lot of things. Please give me that chance...”
“I don't want to give you anymore chances.”
“Calvin... please...”
“I've had enough...”

He turned his back on her, and then he began to walk away. As he made his first step, Kit held his hand to stop him. “Calvin... please don't do this to me. Please don't end our friendship like this. I am choosing our friendship over my love for you... please don't leave me like this. I need you...” she said. At the corner of his eye, he could see her almost breaking down. It was breaking his heart to see her like this, but it was breaking his heart most knowing that she have chosen their friendship over her love. He closed his eyes for a while as he listened to her soft sobs. “Why can't you chose your love over our friendship? I love you too... and I'm willing to forget that stupid promise if you'll only say that you will chose me instead of Jiro... but you chose to forget your feelings for me for Jiro...you're breaking my heart, Kit, and I can't afford your rejection...” he thought. As he took a deep breath, he opened his eyes and looked at her furiously. “We made that promise long ago. We promised each other we will not fall in love with each other, and if one of us did, we have to end our friendship. You didn't keep your part, but I am. I can't be friends with you anymore, not just because you have fallen in love with me, but because you played with me and my feelings. You knew that I fell in love with the paper crane girl, that I've gone crazy looking for her... and all the while it's you! You made me fall for that paper crane girl, and it's only the right thing to do to just forget all about her.” he said. Kit shook her head as she cried. “It's not that, Calvin... I did not play with your feelings. And... and if you found out it was me sooner, what will you do? Will you be able to accept that it's me, or will you end our friendship right then?” she asked. Calvin fell silent upon hearing her question. This time, the tears couldn't help but fall. “You can't blame me If I hid it from you. I only did that because I don't want to lose you. Our friendship means more to me than anything else in this world, Calvin. Why can't you understand that?” she said in between sobs. “I don't want to understand. I have no idea why you did those things... why I thought you, the 'paper crane girl', would be my soul mate. I've had enough of your games, and I can't play with your games anymore. It's enough that you fooled me... that you lied to me. I just can't believe that the person I trusted most would do this to me. I thought I knew you too well, but I was wrong.” he said.

He took one last look at her, and then he walked away from her. Kit watched Calvin as he leaves, tears were falling from her eyes. She began to follow him again. “If telling you this would make you understand, then I'll say it. Calvin, I love you. I love you too much... too much that I can't even love Jiro with all my heart. I love you too much that it's breaking my heart. I know it's wrong for me to love you because of the promise we made... and if only I'm smarter, if only I have heeded my heart before... I would have told my heart to stop falling for you. But I can't. Each day, I just keep on loving you more, and it's hurting me... because I know that you can only love me as your friend, your best friend. The only mistake I did is fall in love with you... and I hope you can forgive me for that.”

Calvin looked back at her. The pain he's feeling is reflected in his eyes. “I can't believe that you can lie to me and make me fall for this trap... your sweet notes, I thought you care, that you love me, that you understand what I really feel. But why, Kit? Why do you have to do this? Why do you have to live in this lie? You could have told me when I was desperately looking for you... you know how much I long to see and meet the paper crane girl before... you were there, you witness it all, I can't believe you made me fall for the wrong girl. You pushed me to love a girl you know is lying to me just to win my love. You could have save me the heartache that I feel when I found out that Trixie lied to me, that she cheated on me... you could have stopped the heartache I caused you... the time I stood you up on your birthday, the time I neglected you, the time when we almost ruin our friendship. I'm a fool finding for a love that's right in front of me all this time. I told you I would accept the paper crane girl whoever or whatever she is. From that moment on, you should have told me... things will be lighter, Kit. It wouldn't have to end this way. You made me fall for you... but you're also the reason why I'm so tired of the paper crane girl. Your mystery annoys me. You never want to be found... you don't expect me to love the girl who does not want to give me a chance to love and take care of her. You ruined everything, Kit. You have your chance, but chose to ignore it. You only think of yourself, your heartache... what could have been if you told me... did you ever think of what I would feel Kit? You're not the only person who experienced the worst heartache... I also did. Tell me I'm selfish, but you know what, you're more selfish than me. You think about yourself. You never thought what I would feel with all of these... you made me think I'm nothing to you, Kit. I thought you never loved me, I thought you love Jiro, Danson, Chun... but all these time it's me. You made me feel jealous and made a fool of myself thinking that they would replace me. I felt heart crushed every time I felt that you don't care that I lose you... you have broken my heart, Kit... and now you expect me to believe you and forgive you after everything? You're crazy, Kit. It hurt so much, I felt half of me is dying. I hate ending our friendship but I've had enough, Kit. I can't take all the heartaches, lies you have done... did it ever occur to you that we could be together? There could have not been Joy and Jiro in our lives, we should be happy and in love, but you ruined everything. You caused Joy and Jiro's breakup... you caused Joy her heartache... you're the one to blame for everything, Kit. It's all your fault... you're fault that all if us are hurting.” he said. Calvin paused, and then he closed his eyes. “I hate you, Katherine Jin, for breaking my heart. I hate you for the rest of my life. I hate this feeling... I regret that you have become a part of my life. I regret that I have met someone as crazy, as selfish as you. I hate and regret that you're my best friend. I hate you...” he said.

Kit took a deep breath as she wiped the tear from her eyes. Calvin's words have caused her too much pain, and she could not bear it anymore. “I cannot blame you for hating me. I cannot blame you if you feel that way, Calvin. Maybe... maybe we did have our chance, but I still chose our friendship despite it all. You're right, I've hurt a lot of people because of what I have done. That's why I decided to stop this... because as much as I'm hurting everyone else, I'm hurting myself for loving you. If there is one thing I regret in my life, it's not that I met you and became my best friend. I regret falling in love with my best friend.” she said. As Kit turn her back on Calvin, she was surprised to see Joy standing behind her. She could sense that Joy have heard their conversation, as she could see the anger in her eyes. “Joy...” she said in a low voice. Joy folded her arms as she walked towards Kit. “First, it was Jiro. Now... Calvin.” she said in a hurt tone. “What have I done to you that you're taking everything away from me? What?!” Joy shouted at her. Kit shook her head violently. She opened her mouth to explain, but words seems to get stuck in her throat. She looked up at her, and saw her glaring at her. “I'm sorry...” she finally said in a low voice. “I didn't mean to hurt you... Joy... I didn't mean to...” Joy stepped towards her, and then with all her might, she slapped Kit on her face. Calvin immediately ran to Joy, afraid that she would hurt Kit again. “That slap is not enough to make you feel all the hurt I'm feeling because of you. I have not forgiven you for taking Jiro from you, and I will definitely not forgive you for falling in love with Calvin. You know what, you are worse than Trixie and Celestine. You're selfish, Kit. Very selfish. All this time, I have been a friend to you, and this is what you repay me? You are my friend, Kit.... my closest friend! I can't believe you would do this to me.” Joy said. Calvin held Joy by his shoulder to calm her down. “Don't waste your time anymore, Joy. I have already ended our friendship. You don't have to worry about her...” he said as he glared at Kit. “I know, Calvin. I just want this pregnant dog out of our lives.” she said to him. Kit was still crying. She could not believe that two of her closes friends are turning away from her. “Joy... I'm sorry...” she said in between sobs. Joy just shook her head. “I can never accept your apology, Kit. Never...”

As the two turned their backs on her to leave, Kit continued to breakdown. “I'm sorry... I'm sorry...” she said as she cried. She was hoping Joy and Calvin would hear her apology, but she knows it's too late. They can never forgive her for what she have done, for breaking their hearts. It was her fault, she know, and she's regretting all the things that she have done.

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 50 – Bound For Heartache



“Tin, what happened?” Jiro asked Kit when he met her after school that afternoon. He noticed her eyes were red and swollen as walnuts, as if she cried the whole afternoon. Kit gave him a faint smile, and shrugged her shoulder. “Nothing... you shouldn't worry about me...” she said. “But your eyes...” Jiro said. “It... it's nothing... I... I just had a little allergy or something...” she lied. “You're always making me worried, do you know that?” Jiro said in a worried tone. She looked up at the man before her, and then, she hugged him, burying her face on his chest. Jiro was confused at her. “Is there something wrong, Kit?” he asked. Kit looked up at him and shook her head. “I... I just missed you, that's all...” she said. Jiro smiled at her and then lovingly kissed her on her forehead. “I love you...” he said to her. Kit released herself from his embrace, and turned away from him. Whenever she looks in his eyes and see his love for her, she feels guilty. Sooner or later, Jiro will find out what have happened, and if that day comes, she knows his heart would break as well. She was wishing she could keep everything to herself to save him from the heartache. She only have Jiro now, and if she loses him because of her mistake, she could not bear it anymore.

“Tin...” she heard him call again. She looked up at him and saw the confused look on his face. “I could feel something is wrong, but you're not telling me. Is is Calvin? Did you guys fought again?” he asked. Kit shook her head to lie. “Nothing's wrong, Jiro. Maybe, we did have a little fall off, but I'm doing my best to make up with him.” she said. Jiro held her hand, and then looked into her eyes. “I don't like seeing you like this. You used to be happy and cheery... but now... all I can see in your eyes is loneliness. It made me feel like you're not happy with me anymore...” he said. Kit shook her head. “No... no... Jay... you know how much I'm happy when I'm with you. Maybe I'm just feeling a little jittery with all the things that's happening to us.” she said. Then, she paused and look up at him. “Jay, do you really love me?” she asked. Jiro smiled and nodded his head. “I do. I really do...” he said. “Then, can you do me this little favor?” Jiro nodded his head again, and waited for her to speak. “Let's get married. Right after this semester, let's get married. I... I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you. Can you do that favor for me?” she said. She looked at him with full hope, wishing he would agree to her. Jiro did not disappointed her, as he smiled and nodded his head. “Let's get married soon, if that's what you want.”

--

Celestine sat on one of the chairs near the glass window of the cafe. She was patiently waiting for someone – someone that she never expected to call her that morning. She glanced as her watch again. Obviously, she is running late, and she's just wasting her time. She took her bag, and was about to leave, when she finally came. Celestine looked up at her and smirked. “And I thought you won't come anymore...” she said. She smirked at her as well. “I never thought you would come.” she said. Celestine leaned back on her chair, and watcher as she took her seat. “You hated me to the bones. You made me wonder why you called me... and I know this is all about Jiro, right?” she asked. The girl just nodded her head. Celestine sighed, and then looked outside the window. “I heard he found her... Tin... I do hope they're happy now...” Celestine said. “Honestly, they are getting married. I don't know... maybe soon...” she heard the girl said. Celestine looked at her and smiled. “Seems like he didn't want to let her go this time, huh? I can't believe Jiro would do that... this soon...” she said, shaking her head. Then, she looked at the girl in front of her. “How are you taking it?” she asked. “I have to accept it. I can see how much Jiro loves her. Too bad... I don't think she feels the same way for him.”
“You mean to say, maybe Tin does not love Jiro?”
“How can she love Jiro if she have fallen in love with her best friend.”

Celestine laughed at what she heard. “So, this is the karma for Jiro... for not being able to love us because of Tin... poor thing...” she said. “That's why I called you. I know how much you love Jiro. I want you to break them apart.” she said. Celestine paused, and gave her a wondering look. “Why should I do that?”
“Because you still love Jiro. He does not deserve that girl after all.”
“Why don't you do it? You love Jiro to the bits...”
“I am with someone now. Someone who loves me more than him.”
Celestine just nodded her head. “Lucky you to find him...” she said. “And he is the reason why I'm doing this, Celestine. I really didn't want to see you for this, but I was forced to do this. I know you can break Tin and Jiro apart... after all, you have done that to us, right?” she said. Celestine leaned to her chair, folding her arms as she smirked at her. “Why do I have this feeling that you hate this Tin so much...” she asked. The girl just let out a smirk. “Because Tin stole Jiro from me...” she said. “And, she is in love with my boyfriend... who turned out to her best friend.”

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Calvin took a sigh as he stood backstage. He looked at the paper in his hand, reviewing the possible argument for their debate competition that afternoon. He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself. He could not hid that he is getting nervous with the competition. “Hey, Calvin the great!” he heard someone call. He looked back, and saw Chun walking towards him. Calvin smiled at his friend. “Hey, Chun...” he said. “Getting nervous already? Don't be. You can beat the hell out of Jiro's team... I tell you.” he said. Calvin just smiled and nodded his head. He looked at the paper he is holding again. Chun noticed that he have been sighing, and his hands are trembling. “Maybe, you need your lady love to take the nervousness away...” he said. Calvin shook her head. “I didn't ask Joy to come backstage. I'll only be more nervous if I see her. I just need something... I don't know...” he said. Chun gave him a confused look. “You didn't want to see Joy, but you asked me to come here? You're so weird.” he said, shaking his head. Then, Calvin extended his right hand to him. Chun looked at it for a while, then he took his hand and shook it. “Aiyo! I didn't ask you to shake my hand!” Calvin said in annoyance as he took his hand away. “Sorry... what do you want me to do?” Chun asked. Calvin just shook his head. “Nothing... just thought you could massage my hand to help me calm down, but obviously, you're not helping me.” he said. Chun let out a smirk. “It's something that the girlfriend should do, not me. Or, if the girlfriend is not around, the best friend should do this. Kit might be on the other side, cheering on Jiro, but I'll go get her.” Chun said.

Calvin looked at him, and before he could go, he stopped him. “No!” he shouted. Chun paused, then looked at him, confused at his reaction. “You don't want to see Kit as well?” he asked. Calvin nodded his head. “Not now. She's the last person I want to see.” Chun sighed, and then he put his hand on his waist. “Man, what's going on with you two? You guys fought again? You should resolve it soon, you know. I hate seeing you guys like this.” he said. Calvin looked away from him and turned to the paper in his hand. “I'll explain it to you later... It's a very complicated thing.” he said. “But nevertheless, you need Kit right now. I bet she's the only one who could take away all the anxiety you're feeling right now. I bet her mere touch on your hand can sooth away all the fears you are feeling right now. Admit it, you need Kit. You badly needed her...” Chun said. Calvin looked up at him and glared at him. “I don't Kit. Not anymore.” he said in a firm tone. Chun just smirked and shrugged his shoulder. “Fine. If you say so... good luck to you.” he said before turning to leave.

Calvin watched Chun as he leaves. He hates to admit it, but Chun's right. At this very moment, he needed Kit. He needed her attention. He needed her to massage on his right hand to clam him down. He wanted to hear those words of encouragement from her, and her little jokes. He's missing his best friend, but there's nothing he could do now. He have pushed her away, and because of what he have done, have put a large distance between them. It was hurting him more. Yes, Kit's actions have hurt him, but it was more of his actions that was breaking his heart. Because of what he have done and said to Kit, he only pushed her to Jiro. Now, the two are set to get married right after the semester. He looked at the other side of the stage, and from that side, she could see Kit coming up to Jiro. He saw as he looked at her lovingly, and kiss her on her lips. He could almost hear those words of encouragement and good luck that she was telling him. That moment as he watched them, he badly wanted to be in Jiro's place. If he could give up everything for one thing, he would ask for Kit's attention, even for just a short while. He wanted his best friend back, right at this very moment.

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Calvin tapped his pencil nervously, then looked up at Jiro. In a few minutes, it will be his turn to say his argument. He took a deep breath, and then he threw one last look at the paper in his hand. “Thank you.” he heard Jiro say. He watched Jiro as he took his seat. He's getting nervous now, as it will be his turn. Then, his team mate, Jason, nudged him. “Your turn, Chen...” he said. Calvin looked at him and nodded his head. He adjusted the microphone in front of him, and then began to speak. “I firmly believe that today's technology is not getting in the way of the of our tradition. Technology is in fact enriching it.” he began with his speech. It was going well, until the corner of his eye caught Kit sitting at the far corner of the auditorium. He paused for a while, staring at her lone figure at that corner. She was not looking at him as he speaks, and her head was hanging low. He doesn't know if Kit was paying attention at his speech or not. He cleared his throat several time, but it didn't help him much, for he stutters as he speak. Whenever he looks at her, he seems to forget what he was about to say, making him look and read the notes in his hand. “T-that would be all. Thank you.” he said, ending his speech.

He leaned on his chair, and took a deep breath. He looked at Jason, and saw him shook his head in dismay. During the debate and the argument, Calvin was trying his best to prove his argument, but Jiro would always have a good rebuttal for him. In the end, his team mates where the one who would argue with the the other team, while he just seated silently, admitting his defeat to his biggest rival. From time to time, he would butt in, but his argument is irrelevant to their topic, and Jason would glare at him every time he could not answer the other team's questions. In the end, Jiro's team won the debate. They were also delegated to be the university's representative for the Intercollegiate debate that will happen the next school year.

“Why did you let them pulverize us, Calvin? We had our hopes high on you, Chen!” Jason told him right after the debate. Calvin just lowered his head. It was his fault that they lost, because he wasn't focusing on the debate. “I'm sorry...” he said in a low voice. “Your sorry is useless now. We already lost to the other team.” Jason said before he left Calvin alone. He looked down the stage, and at the corner, he saw Kit come up to Jiro. She put her arms around him, and then gave him a kiss on the lips. He could see how happy she is that Jiro's team won. “Why do I always lose to you, Jiro Wang?” he thought. “First, I lost to you with Joy. Then, you won as Class Rep last year, while I lost this year when I ran... I lost to you in this debate, and most of all, I lost to you again because of Kit? I can be a better man than you, but you always get everything...”

As he looked away from them, he saw Chun coming up to him. “Why don't you go and congratulate Jiro.” he said as he walked towards him. “I don't think it's needed.” Calvin said. Chun smirked and shook his head. “Of course, it is. Be sports, OK?” Chun said. As Calvin looked back, he saw Kit and Jiro walking up to him. “Hey, Cal...” Jiro said, smiling at him. “It was a great debate. Congratulations to you as well.” Jiro said. Calvin let out a faint smile and nodded his head. “Congratulations on your team.” Calvin said. He looked at Kit, but she turned away from Calvin. She was avoiding her looks. “Are you hating me now, Kit? Are you hating me because of the things I have said the last time?” he thought. Although he have regret saying those things, there's nothing he could do now for he have broken her heart. He watched her as she looked up at Jiro and smiled. “Jay... you promised me and Danson that if your team won, you would treat us out, right?” Kit said. Jiro looked at the girl beside him, and smiled. “Of course. I'll treat you guys out later, OK?” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head. Then, Jiro turned to Chun and Calvin. “Hey, you guys should go with us, OK?” he said. “Well, it's free, expect me to be there. How about you, Calvin?” Chun said as he looked at Calvin. He just shook his head. “Joy and I have plans after school.” he said. “I understand. Be sure to catch up with us later, OK?” Jiro said. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. He looked at Kit again, but she was avoiding his eyes. “I... I have to go...” Calvin said. He didn't wait for anyone of them to speak, as he immediately left them. Chun was baffled with the way Calvin is acting. “What's wrong with him?” he asked. He looked at Kit, and saw him turning away from him. “Something is definitely wrong with those best friends...” Chun thought. “And I need to find out.”

--

“What's wrong? Why do I feel there is a fall off with the two?” Chun asked Danson as soon as they were alone that afternoon. He heard the guy beside him sigh, and he took his gaze away from him. “She have been out for almost a week, and now that she's back, I feel there is something wrong going on. You have to tell me, Danson.” he asked again. “He found out...” Danson said in a low voice. “He found out all about her secret...”

Silence.

Chun leaned on his chair as he took a deep breath. He brushed his hair away from face. “I... I can't believe this happened so soon... How... how did he found out? How did he take it?” he asked again. Danson looked at him, and began to tell him what have happened. He told Chun how Calvin found out that Kit was the paper crane girl. He told Chun how Calvin reacted, his fury the moment he found out Kit's secret. He told him how Calvin ended their friendship, despite Kit's pleas. Danson told him that Kit chose their friendship instead of her love for him, but he won't listen. He told him how Kit have been depressed for a week because of what happened. He told him the last confrontation they had, and how Joy found out all bout it. He told him, how Joy could not forgive Kit for stealing Jiro from him and for falling in love with her best friend.

As he listened, Chun clenched his fist in anger. “That bastard....” he said in anger. Chun looked at him, and Danson could clearly the anger registering in his face. “Kit does not deserve him. He have no right to hurt her like this. The only mistake she did is fall in love with him...” he said. Danson slowly nodded his head, agreeing to what he said. “We can't do anything now, but to be there for them. Kit needs us now. It's just that I'm scared of what will happen next... especially if Jiro found out. Kit would not take another heartache if Jiro knows about this and leaves her as well...” he said. Then, he looked at Chun. “Chun... I was there during those times. I've seen how broken she is. She is trying her best to live her life without Calvin in her life, and as far as I can see, she's doing OK. She's loving Jiro as she's supposed to, and as long as he is with her, I could not see any problem that will happen. As her friends, we should be there for them – for Kit, for Calvin, for Jiro and for Joy. Like you said before, we can only guide them, and that's all we can do. We can never blame them if they made actions that will result to more heartaches, after all, we could not control them...” Danson said. Chun lowered his head as he brushed his hair again with his fingers. “Why is he always hurting her? Obviously, he's also in pain. Why did he chose to make things more complicated? It wouldn't end up like this if he only admits his true feelings...” Chun said in a low voice. “What can we expect from him? Hes now with his dream girl... and because of that, he have neglected her. In the end, she chose the man who have loved her for so long... his jealousy, his hatred for him, his fear that he will take her away from him... all of it only proves that he have always been in love with Kit. But he could not even admit it to himself. I know he's hurting as well. I know he missed her, and being without her is like hell for him... but why can't he bring himself to acknowledge that?” Danson said.

Silence.

“He knew he have always been in love with Kit...” Chun finally answered. “But like Kit, he chose to keep his promise.”

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“Can we talk?” Joy said as soon as he saw Jiro coming out of his class. “What is there to talk about? If it's about you being envy again about our engagement, then I don't want to talk to you.” Jiro said to her. He turned his on her and began to walk away. Joy watched him, smirking at him. “Are you really sure you want to marry your princess?” she asked again. Jiro paused, and then looked back at her. “What's this all about, Joy?” he asked in an annoyed tone. Joy smiled at him and shrugged her shoulder. “Nothing. I just want to make sure that your mind is made up.”
“I am sure about marrying her. We'll get married right after this semester, so expect to get an invitation from us.”
“Oh, so you really love her that much that you really can't wait to be with her...”
Jiro is getting annoyed with the way their conversation is going. “Joy... I thought you have now accepted it. I am with Tin now, and I am choosing her. You already chose Calvin, so please... leave us in peace.” he said. Joy let out another smile. “I care for you a lot, Jiro. That's why I want to make sure that you are sure with your decision...”
“I am, Joy. Nothing can change my mind.”
“Are you sure? Even if you found out Kit's little secret?”

Jiro got confused with what she is saying. “What secret?” he asked Joy chuckled upon hearing his question. “So, your sweet girlfriend has not told you anything yet?” she asked as she folded her arms. “What is it?”
“Answer me first. Will you still love her, despite her lies to you?”
“Kit is not lying to me, so stop this.”
“Not lying? I don't think so...”
“I know everything about her...”
“Ho much do you know her? Do you know how she feels before you came into her life? Are you really sure that she have loved you since then?”
“I don't know where this is getting at...”

Jiro sighed in frustration. He turned his back again, and as he took his first step away from her, Joy began to speak again. “Will you still love her, if you found out she's Calvin's paper crane girl?” he heard Joy ask. He paused for a while, then looked back at her. Confusion is written all over his face. “She... she is the paper crane girl?” he asked. Joy smiled and nodded his head. “Yes, she is.” she said. “And she have been madly in love with Calvin since... so tell me. Are you still willing to marry her now that you found out that she is not in love with you, but with her best friend?”

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“One more glass of wine, please...” Jiro said as soon as put down the goblet on the counter top. The bar tender immediately poured him another glass, and he took it and drank it. He could not accept what Joy said to her that afternoon. He could not believe that Kit would be Calvin's paper crane girl, and that she have been in love with Calvin. He thought Kit only loved him, and he never thought that there is someone else in her heart aside from him. He have loved Kit too much, she was the reason why she couldn't love Celestine and Joy before, and not, this is what she have done. “So this is what it feels like...” he thought as he gulped down the wine. “This is how Celestine and Joy must have felt before... I felt like a useless man. I lost to Calvin again... I thought Kit really loves me... but I was wrong. Maybe she was just using me to forget her feelings for him. Maybe she's using me to cover up her lies to him...” he said to himself.

He was too drunk that he didn't notice a tall lady slip to a seat next to him. “Hey...” he heard her say seductively. Jiro looked to his side, and then smiled at the familiar girl beside her. “Celestine...” he said. “What are you doing, drinking yourself to death?” she asked. Jiro just shook his head. He took the bottle beside him and poured himself another glass of wine. “I need to forget...” he said. Celestine gave him a confused look. “Forget about what?” she asked. “I need to forget everything. I need to forget the hurt I am feeling right now. I need to forget her...” he said. Celestine smiled at him. “Tin?” she asked. Jiro looked at her and nodded his head.

Celestine leaned towards him, and gave him a seductive smile. As she touched his face, he could feel shivers running down his spine. “I always came in the right time...” she said. She leaned closer, and then gave him a kiss on the cheek. “I can make you forget all about her... I can, Jiro. You need me, and I need you...” she purred into her ears. Jiro looked at her closely, and he could help but shiver whenever she feels her hot breath. “Celestine...” he said. Before he knew it, his lips were already on hers, and they were already sharing a passionate kiss.

--

Kit dialed Jiro's number again, but it just keeps on ringing. It has been two days since she last saw him, and she's getting worried about him. Jiro has not been answering his calls, and he have been absent. When she calls their house, his mom would always tell her that he's not around. “Jay... please pick up...” she said as she heard his phone ring. After several rings, the call ended. She sighed as she ended the call. She doesn't know what's happening to him, but she have this hunch, this gut feel, the something wrong is going on. “Have you reached him yet?” she heard Danson said as soon as he reached her. Kit lowered her head and shook her head. Danson could see how worried and scared his friend is. He doesn't know what happened to Jiro, but he knows he sure have a lot of explaining to do, making her worried like this. “I sent him messages, but he isn't replying... Auntie Wang said he hasn't gone home for days now...” Kit said in a low voice. “Did the two of you fought?” Danson asked. Kit shook her head. “No... not that I know of...” she said. Danson put his hand on her shoulder. As she looked up at him, he gave her an assuring smile. “Don't worry too much. Maybe he's just doing something important. I know he'll call you soon...” he said. “But it has been two days, Danson. It's unlikely of him to be like this, not returning my calls or my messages. I'm really getting worried...” she said.

“You don't have to worry about a thing, Tin. Jiro is in very good hands...” they heard someone say. Kit and Danson looked back, and saw joy smirking at them. “Y-you know where Jiro is?” Kit asked. Joy just nodded her head. “He is where he is supposed to be. In the arms of the girl who truly loves her. Sadly, it's not you. You were cheating on him, aren't you?” she snapped at him. Danson was angered by what she said. He know Joy is mad at Kit, but she have no right to joke like this. “Take it back. I know you're only lying to hurt her.” Danson said in a firm tone. Kit fell silent upon hearing what Joy said. A part of her does not want to believe her, but a bigger part of her is saying Joy just confirmed her greatest fear. Joy smirked again as she folded her arms. “It's true. Celestine is back, and Jiro's with her right now. If I'm not mistaken, Jiro has been staying in Celestine's hotel room for days now. You do know what naughty they are doing right now, right?” she said haughtily. Kit shook her head, not wanting to hear anything from her. “You're just lying. Jiro could never do that...” she said. Joy took something from her bag, and threw it at Danson. It was Celestine's key card at the hotel they are staying. “If you don't believe me, then why don't you take a look by yourself. Jiro has been there with Celestine. Why don't you check it out yourself?” she said. Kit looked up at Danson. “Can... can you go with me? I... I want to prove that Joy's wrong...” she said. “Or maybe I'm right. Go ahead and see for yourself.” Joy said. Danson glared at Joy, then she looked at Kit. He nodded his head. The two of them turned to leave, with Danson praying that this is all but lies.

Joy laughed to herself as she watched the two leave. She had her revenge on Kit now. She know she would be broken hearted if she'll see Jiro and Celestine together. She got back at Kit for breaking her heart. She got back at her for trying to steal Calvin from her. “What a sweet revenge...” Joy said to herself. “Do you really have to hurt Kit this way for breaking your heart?” she heard a familiar voice said She looked back and saw Calvin standing behind her. Joy glared at him for getting in her way. “This is not enough...” she said. “It's more than enough, Joy. More than enough. You don't have to hurt her this way...her heart is already breaking. She have been through a lot of pain. She have suffered for breaking our hearts. This is too much, Joy...” Calvin said in a low voice. He shook his head, unable to believe that Joy could do such things. “Why do you care? You should be happy with what I'm doing, Calvin. You shouldn't worry about her anymore because she's your ex-best friend!” she shouted at him. Calvin just stared at her, and she could see the anger in his eyes. “At this very moment, Joy... I don't think I know you anymore...” he said before turning his back on her.

--

Kit and Danson stared at the door before them. “I... I'm scared...” Kit said in a low voice. “What if it's true? What if he's really inside?” Danson looked at her. “The only thing to find out if it's true is to take a look inside...” he said. He inserted the key card on the door, and slowly opened it. They carefully walked inside the hotel room. They found the hotel room's empty, but at the other side, they heard something. They walked towards the door of the room, and they could clearly hear two people talking. “I'll catch you!” they heard a familiar voice say. They heard a girl laughing and screaming. “Stop it! Stop it!” they heard a girl's voice said. Then, the two voices laughed for a while, and then fell silent. Kit swallowed hard. She knew Jiro is inside that room, with Celestine. She have heard their voices. It took her a lot of courage to reach for the door and opened it.

As the door opened, she gasped. The sight before her broke her heart into a million pieces. She felt as if someone stabbed her a thousand time. Before her, she saw Jiro and Celestine naked. They were too busy making out, that they didn't noticed their presence. She felt weak upon seeing them kissing. Its as if someone have stabbed her in the heart. “Jay... how....” she said. Jiro stopped, and then looked back. She saw Kit almost in tears, but he remained unmoved. Kit looked at him, and she could see the anger in his eyes. “What? You barge in on us like that, and then you'll fell silent?” he said, smirking at him. “How... how could you do this to me?” she shouted at him. Tears were already cascading from her eyes. “Why? Why are you doing this? Am I not enough? I... I thought you love me?” she said in between sobs. Jiro shook his head as he walked towards her. “It's the other way around, Kit. All this time, I thought you love me. But you lied...” he said in a furious tone. “You never loved me. You just used me to cover up what you truly feels for your best friend. You're in love with Calvin, right? You are his paper crane girl, and while you are with me, you are still loving him. You know what I felt? I felt like you cheated on me. Now tell me, that's enough reason for me to justify my actions, right?” he said to her. Kit clenched her fist as she listened to him. With all her remaining strength, she slapped Jiro on the cheek with all her might. “I loved you, d**n it! I loved you, Jiro! Yes, I was in love with Calvin, but it was you. I loved you first, and it has always been you. I chose you over him, because I can't break your heart anymore! I chose to be with you, to marry you because I love you so much!” Kit shouted at him. Then, she paused to wipe the tear from her face. Jiro fell silent, feeling guilty for what he have done, hurting her this way. Its now clear to him that Kit really loves him, for she chose him over Calvin. He wanted to apologize for breaking his hurt, but as he looked into her eyes, he could see her anger. He is wrong, he knows that, but the damage has been done.

“God knows I've waited for you for so long. I loved you since that day we met... I never gave up waiting till you come back to me. You've hurt me before, and now you're hurting me again. I can't take this anymore, Jiro. I forgive you for breaking my heart, but please forgive me for hating you this much.” she said. She took the ring from her hand, and then threw it at him. “And this...” she said as she clutched the shell pendant from her neck. “With this, you said that you would never leave me... but you already did. You're just like him. You left me without hearing me out. I don't want to believe you anymore. It's over...” She pulled the necklace and threw it at him. She turned her back on her to leave. As Jiro looked up, he realized that the girl he loves is leaving her. “Kit!” he shouted. As he stepped forward to follow her, Danson blocked his way. “She's still mad. Don't follow her. Just be thankful that Kit is with me all this time, because if not, I would've killed you right at this instant. She had enough heartbreak, Jiro... she doesn't deserve this.” he said to him. He turned his back on Jiro and followed Kit outside the hotel room.

Jiro looked down and saw the necklace he have given her. He knelt down to pick up and stared at it for a long time. He felt the tear falling from his eyes. It's over between them, and it was his fault that he chased away the girl he have loved for so long.

--

Kit walked through the hotel lobby, and as she looked up, she saw Calvin standing before her. She didn't notice the worry look on her face. She was too furious to even notice it. “Kit...” he called her in a low voice. Kit wiped the tear on her face, and put up a brave front for him. “What are you doing here?” she asked in a firm tone. “I came... I came to check on you...”
“Check on me? You came just to check on me?”
“Kit, I still care for you...”
Kit let out a bitter smile and shook her head. “You stopped caring for me. You ended our friendship, remember?” she snapped at him. Calvin looked away from her, not wanting to see the anger in her face. “Are you here to see my heart breaking? Are you here to say 'See, I told you so?' Are you here to say 'Kit, serves you right for being such a liar! You deserve to be dumped by Jiro.' Well, I'm telling you, Calvin Chen... you won. And I am not going to let you celebrate just because you have hurt me.”

Calvin looked up at her. He was hurt with those things she told him. “It's not that, Kit. I am worried for you...” he said. Kit walked up to him, her tears falling again. “It's all your fault!” she shouted at him as she hit him on his chest. “It's all your fault, Calvin! You should be happy now that I am all alone with no one to love! You left me, and now Jiro left me! Are you happy now, huh? Why did you have to be here to see me in this pain? Why did you have to come? Can't you let me suffer in this pain alone? Why? I hate you, Calvin Chen! I hated you! What did I do to deserve this kind of cruelty from your hands? The only wrong thing I did is love you, and you can't even forgive me for that! It wasn't my fault that I was Tin! It wasn't my fault that Jiro couldn't love Joy! I wasn't my fault that I broke her heart! Didn't I helped you get the girl of your dreams? Didn't I help you make a special night for the two of you? Didn't I? Why are you so cruel? Why? You planned this with Joy.. you planned to break my heart even more! I hate you for this... I hate you more than you hate me!” she shouted at him. Calvin stopped her by holder her on both shoulders. He was also crying, not because of the pain of her hit, but because he could not bear to see her like this. He was crying because of her hatred towards him.

“Kit...” he managed to say. “I did not plan this with Joy. Trust me, I didn't know all about this. If only I had known...” Kit looked up at him, and gave him a glare. “Then what, you will stop her?” she asked, then she shook her head. “I don't think so, Calvin. You hated me, right? You hated me, and even regret that I became your best friend....” she said in a low voice. It was Calvin's turn to shake his head. “No... I regret saying those things to you, Kit...” he said. Kit just looked at him. He could see how tired she is, her face is not bearing anymore emotion. “I've had enough...” she said to him. “Leave me alone, please... I don't want to see you ever again... Just... just get out of my life. You only give me pain and heartache, and I don't want any of these anymore. Please... just pretend that you never met me. Pretend that we were strangers. I... I don't want anything to do with you anymore...” she said in a weak voice.

She took his hand away from her shoulders, and walked away from him. Calvin was left in daze. He was hurt with her voice, with those things she said. She had the right to be mad at her because of what he have done in the past. He was willing to make amends for his mistake, and he was more than willing to bring back their friendship because he know she will be needing him, but he was wrong. Kit decided to stay out of his life for good, and it hurts him most. He could not believe that his best friend, the girl he have loved is finally out of his life.

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 51 – Broken Angel




From his window, he watched her. He watched over her, as if he is her guardian angel. Its been three days since Kit saw Jiro in the arms of another girl, and since then, he have been hearing her soft sobs. Though the glass windows and a space between their houses separates them, he could still here her cries at night. He watched her until she cry herself to sleep, and he continued to watch her as she sleeps. He leaned towards the glass window. He closed his eyes, feeling helpless. He wanted to be there for her, to comfort her, to hold her tight and tell her what a jerk Jiro have been and that she doesn't deserve him. He wanted to be there by her side to watch her sleep, for her turn to when she wanted to cry. He wanted to be there to tell her a joke, to make her smile, to keep her mind off their break up. He badly wanted to be there for her, but he couldn't. It was him who decided to end their friendship. It was her who decided to keep her distance from him. It was him who hurt her first. It was her who asked him to leave her alone. But he couldn't.

He couldn't bear seeing her like this. She was like a zombie. She's always in a daze. He felt as if nothings matters to her anymore, even her own life. He hated seeing her this way, and it's partly his fault that she's suffering. If only he didn't left her, she wouldn't have to suffer alone. He should be happy now that Jiro and Kit have broken up, but he's not for he knows how much Kit loved him. He knows Kit have loved Jiro since they were nine, and she have waited for him for long. She though she could spend the rest of his life with him, that their love is for keeps, but neither of them expected that Jiro would cheat on her just because of the truth. He's mad at Jiro. He's mad at him for breaking his heart. He wanted to confront him, to hurt him, but he couldn't because he's just as guilty as he is. He also hurt Kit the moment he found out the truth.

He opened his eyes and looked outside his window. He stared at the small figure that's curled up in her bed. A tear fell from her eyes as he watched her. She's so near, and yet so far. He wanted so much to be near her and let her feel how much he loves her, but he couldn't. “I love you, Kit...” he whispered. “I wish someday, I could let you know how I truly feel...”

--

Calvin stood by the glass window, as he watched the rain fall down. “Cal...” he heard a familiar voice said. He looked back and saw Chun walking up to him. “Thanks for coming...” he said as he smiled at him. “You should be. After all the things you've done to Kit, I really didn't want to talk to you. Especially because of what your girlfriend did to her...” Chun said. He folded his arms, and then, he leaned towards the window, facing Calvin. “What do you want to talk about?” he asked. “Kit...” Calvin said. Chun smirked at him, then he looked outside the window. “What do you want to know?”
“How... how is she?”
“She's doing great! Enjoying her life to the fullest as a single girl. She's having a blast and the time of her life!”

Calvin looked away from him. He could sense from the tone of his voice that he is mad at him for what he have done. “Seriously, Cal... I don't think it's any of your business anymore if Kit is like a walking zombie or not. You chose to end your friendship, so it means that you don't have to know everything that's happening in her life.” Chun said in a serious tone. “I want to know, Chun. I want to know...”
“Why? Are you feeling guilty now?”
“It was all my fault that's why she's like this. I... I shouldn't have left her. I know she's in pain... and I badly wanted to be there for her, but I can't. Because she asked me to stay away from her... she want me out of her life now...”

Chun softened upon hearing the hurt in his voice. “I... I never thought...” he said, shaking his head. “When a person is hurt, he tends to be angry. Too angry, that he says and do things that he will soon regret. You got mad because you thought she was playing around with you, when we know for a fact that she isn't. She got mad at you because you hurt her, and you were there when her heart was broken by Jiro. I know one day, things will be in place. Jut give it more time, and it will...” Chun said. “I am not expecting her to forgive me for everything. I can't bear seeing her broken. Chun, I want to be there for her... I really do. What can I do if she have shut me out of her life? I want to hold her, tell her everything's going to be all right, that I will just be here for her... always... loving her...”
“Then do it, Cal. You still have a chance, take it...”
Calvin shook his head. “I can't... not anymore...” he said in a low voice. “I love Kit. I really do. But now, I am still with Joy. Kit may have caused this chaos, she may have broken our hearts, and as much as I want to tell her how I feel, I can't. I'm still with Joy. She still believes that I still love her... and I can't break her heart anymore.” Chun just stared at him angrily. “Cal... for once, can you be true to yourself?” he asked. “It wish it could be done that easily, Chun. Things are more complicated now. Before, our promise only complicated the whole thing. Now, a lot of people have been involved. Just like Kit, all I can do is love her from afar, watch her until she comes back to her normal self. Maybe one day, I can tell her how much I love her, but that day will only come if she have learned to forgive me.”

Calvin walked towards his friend, and put his hand on his shoulder. “Chun... please do this favor for me...” he said. Chun nodded his head, and began to listen to him. “Kit needs someone to be there for her at this moment. Will you... will you and Danson take care of her for me? Can you also let me do small things for her secretly, to make her feel all right?” he asked. Chun smiled and nodded his head.

--

“Hey...” Danson said to Kit as he sat beside her. Kit did not look up at him, and continued reading her book. “Hey!” Danson shouted at her. Still, she remained unmoved. He noticed the earphones on her ear. He smiled to himself as he thought of a prank for her. He took the earphone from her ear, and shouted to her. “Hey!” he shouted. Kit flinched as he shouted. “Wei! Why should you shout in my ear!” she shouted at him as she hit his arm. Danson laughed at her reaction. “You weren't paying attention to me, that's why.” he said. Kit glared at him for a while before turning her attention to the book she's reading. Just then, Chun came with a tray of food, and put in on the table. “Chow time!” he said as he distributed their food. Danson noticed that he put a burger and an ice cream in front of Kit. “Chun, you forgot. Ms. Jin here is in a diet...” Danson said. He was about to grab her burger, but before he could touch it, Chun hit his hand. “That's for Kit, not yours!” he shouted at him. Kit looked at the two, and laughed. “It's OK, Chun. Danson, you can have my burger, I'm not hungry anyway.” she said. Danson looked at Chun, and then he took the burger, and unwrapped it. “See... I told you. Kit will give this to me anyway.” he said. Chun sighed and shook his head. “Kit, this is not right. You have to eat... you have another test coming up later...” he said in a worried tone. Just then, Kit heard her stomach grumble. “You're right...” she said in a low voice. She looked at Danson and saw him about to take a bite from her burger. Before he could take a bite, Kit immediately grabbed the burger from him. Danson was surprised at what she did, and as he looked at her, she saw her eating the burger. Danson smiled to himself, happy seeing Kit trying to get back to her old self.

Then, Danson eyed Chun, and he saw him smiling at him. Then, the two of them just watcher as she devoured the burger. “You seem really hungry, Kit. Want some more burger?” Danson asked. Kit looked at him and smiled as she nodded her head. Chun smiled at her. “I'll go order some more.” he said. Chun stood up from his seat and went to the counter to buy another burger. “I'm glad you're slowly going back to your old self, Kit.” Danson said to her. Kit just smiled at him. “I know it will take some time before I get used to this new found freedom, but hey, I still have you and Chun as my friends, right?” she asked. Danson nodded his head. “Of course. We're always here for you. Me, Chun and Hannah. You can always count on us. If you feel sad or depressed, you can always call on us so that you could let it out. I know the past few days have been hard for you, but I promise, we'll be here to help you move and let go.” he said. Kit looked down at his hand, and then she held it. “I can't thank you enough for all the things you've done for me. You have always been there for me, from the time Calvin and I fought because of Trixie, when you found out my secret and told me you'll keep it a secret... you were there when my heart was breaking because Calvin and Joy got together. You gave me and Jiro your blessings, you always advises me, and listens to me when I get confused with my feelings... and now, you're still here by my side even though the men I love left me. Thank you for being such a good friend, Danson.” she said in a low voice. “You are my friend, Kit. I know if I got in the same situation as you are in right now, you would also be there for me.” he said.

Just then, Chun came back and saw the two holding hands. The two looked up at him, and saw him wrinkling his brows. “What's this? Are you courting Kit again, Danson?” he asked. Danson laughed and shook his head. “Of course not! Why should I court her, I remain faithful to m lady love in Vienna.” he said. Kit laughed at what he said. “And I don't want to take Danson away from Hannah. Aside from you two, she's my remaining friend. I don't want to hurt her as well...” she said. Chun saw the smile on her face slowly fading. “Aiyo! Kit... don't be too serious. I was just kidding. Trying to lighten up the mood, you know...” he said. Kit just smiled at him. “Hey...” Chun said as he toks his seat. “Let's go out this weekend to unwind. I know the next few weeks would be really busy because of our finals. What do you say, Kit?” he asked. Kit nodded her head. “Count me in. How about you, Dan?” she asked Danson. Danson smiled and nodded his head. “Count me in as well.” he said.. Chun smiled at his two friends. As the two began to plans for their weekend, Chun threw a glance at Calvin, who was watching them from the other side of the cafeteria. He saw Calvin smile at him, before he turned to leave.

--

Kit was not feeling to well, and decided to go home early. As she entered her room, sadness fill her again. She looked at the window, which is just in front of Calvin's room, and at that moment, she started to miss her best friend. She remembered how he would always climb to her room using a long plank. He would always do that if he needed to talk to her immediately, or is he's too lazy to get out of their house. She remembered, the last time Calvin did that was when he got sick and he talked to her while she was sleeping. Then, she looked at her bed. She remembered when they were still kids, they would jump on her bed, and they would waltz around, pretending they were in a ball. She remembered the times they would play video games in her room, and the times they would lie down on the floor and talk about their dreams and future plans.

She wiped the tear from her cheek as she entered her room. She sat on her bed, and on her side table, she saw their high school graduation picture. She took to frame from the table and stared at it for a long time. From the picture, Calvin was happily smiling while he had his arm around her. It's been a long time since she last saw Calvin this happy, and she missed seeing him smile like that to her. “It's time for me to let you go, Calvin... this is for the best. I've hurt a lot of people because of you... and it's also breaking my heart. From now on, I will try to live a life without you...” she said. She traced her finger on his face, and let another tear fall from her eyes. “I don't hate you, Calvin... I don't... In fact... I still love you. I'm sorry for hurting you, for those hurtful words I've told you. I'm sorry if I ruined everything for us... I'm so sorry... I hope you can forgive me now that I'm doing this...” She reached for the drawer, and the put the picture frame inside it. She looked around the room, and then she decided to keep away all the things and memories that came from Calvin and Jiro.

She took two big boxes and began to keep away all the things inside her room that came from them. She took away the stuffed toys that they gave her, the little notes, her pictures with Jiro, her photo album which contains her and Calvin's picture. She took away the poster of her favorite anime character from her wall, which was given to her by Calvin. On her study table, she took all the sticky notes that came from him and some more pictures of her with Calvin and Jiro. She took a smaller box, and then put in the books and DVDs that she borrowed from Calvin, and was not able to return to him. After she kept those boxes in her closet, she looked around her room again. She found it clean, yet almost empty. Her room is like what she is feeling right now. Calvin have gone out of her life, leaving a big whole inside her heart.

“Kit...” she heard her mom call her. Kit looked back at her, and smiled. “Mom... can you do me a favor?” she asked. Her mom just nodded her head. She took the small box from her table and gave it to her. “Please tell Auntie Chen to give this to Calvin. Please tell her to tell Calvin that I'm sorry for not returning them sooner.” she said. Mrs. Jin took the box from her, and looked into her daughter's eyes. “Katherine... are you really sure you want to shut Calvin out of your life? Maybe this is just a petty fight, you kids should make up...” she said. Kit smiled faintly and shook her head. “No, mom... this is not a petty fight anymore. We're no longer kids... We don't fight over a candy or a toy, or cry over skinned knees anymore... we're grown ups now. We have hurt each other, and we have broken each other's hearts. We said cruel words, which we regret in the end. Maybe we have outgrown each other, and its time for us to be separated after several years of being together...” she said in a low voice. “Katherine... are you sure you want to do this? If you love him, then you should fight for what you feel.” Mrs. Jin said. Kit shook her head again. “I've been fighting for my love for so long, and I grew tired of it. It's about time that I rest my battered heart for a while, mom.” she said. Mrs. Jin sighed, and then nodded her head. “If you really want to do this, then I won't get in your way. It's just a pity that you two have to throw away years of friendship just like that. But, if this would make you two a better person, then let it be.” she said. Kit gave her mom a hug before she left her room.

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Calvin turned the lights on in his room, and on his bed, he saw a small box. He walked towards his bed and took the box. He opened it, and saw the books and DVDs that Kit borrowed before. “She said she's sorry that she was only able to return these things to you. Most of all, she says she's sorry for all the things she've done.” he heard his mom say. He looked back, and saw his mom enter his room. “Calvin, what's going on between you and Kit? I know the two of you had fights, but you guys would make up after a few days...” she asked. Calvin took a deep breath, and then sat on his bed. “I... I don't know what happened to us anymore...” he said in a low voice. He stared at the contents of the box for a long time. “Did... did Kit... she came here?” he asked. His mom shook her head. “Joanne came and gave me that box. She said Kit was cleaning up her room, and she gave this box to her and tell her to give it to you.” Mrs. Chen said. He continued to stare at the the box. “She have decided to forget about me... and I couldn't even let her go...” he thought.

He felt his mom sat beside him. He looked up at her, and saw her smiling at him. “Ever since you two were kids, you're the one who would make her smile. You would protect her, you would defend her from those bullies. You have always been by her side. At the same time, you are the one who would make her cry. Calvin, what did you do this time that made her cry?” she asked. “Mom... she broke our promise... and... and I got mad at her for that...” he said in a low voice. “Didn't you realize that you also broke your promises to her? You weren't there on her birthday. I remember, when you were kids, you promised her that you will give her your lucky coin, but in the end you gave it to another girl. But despite of it all, she forgave you. Can't you forgive her for breaking her promise to you?” she asked. Calvin fell silent, and was not able to answer his mom's question. “I... I think I should forgive her...” he said in a low voice. Then, he looked at her sadly. “But mom, I... I've hurt her too much. I know she could not forgive me anymore. I... I don't know what to do...” he said as he shook his head. “Mom, I've hurt her so much... I broke her heart. All the things I've done to her, it's unforgivable. If she is willing to give me another chance, then she wouldn't return these stuffs to me. Mom, I don't want to lose her... “ he said in a sad tone. “Son, you know what to do. Be man enough to admit that you are wrong. Maybe you have to give her more time before she could forgive you, but trust me, everything will be fine between the two of you after you talked.”

--

Saturday came.

“No peeking, OK?” Chun said as he covered Kit's eyes. “Aiyo, Chun! How can I peek, you're covering my eyes. And besides, aren't you worried I might miss a step or something?” Kit said in an irritated tone. Danson took her hand and lead the way. “Just hold on to me, and you'll be OK.” Danson said. Then, they stopped walking. “Ready for our surprise?” Chun asked. “Fine. I'm ready...” Kit said. Then, Chun took his hands off Kit's eyes, and as Kit opened her eyes, she was surprised to see herself standing in front of the amusement park. This is the same amusement park where Calvin was supposed to take her on her birthday, and where she and Jiro had their first date. “Oh...” she said in a low voice. Danson looked at Kit, and saw the excitement in her face disappear. Then, he glared at Chun. “Aiyo, Chun. I told you it's not a good idea to bring Kit here at the amusement park!” Danson shouted at him. Chun just scratched his head. “But why? It's fun here...” he said. Kit looked at Chun and smiled. “You're right. It's really fun here, Chun...” she said, smiling at him. Then, she looked at Danson and smiled. “Don't worry, Danson. It's OK. I'm glad you guys took me out here.” she said. Danson looked at her worriedly. He knows she was trying to be happy in front of them, but he knows that deep inside her heart, she's sad because of her memories here at the amusement park. “Kit...” he said in a low voice. Then, Kit held Chun and Danson's hand, and looked up at them, forcing a smile on her face. “Shall we go inside? I want to have fun today!” she said in a cheery tone. Chun looked at her and smiled, then he nodded his head. He lifted his free hand and then pointed to the park's entrance. “To the amusement park!” he shouted. Then, all of them ran inside.

The three first rode the roller coaster, then they rode the ferris wheel, and then the anchor's away. After a while, she excused herself the two guys, who then went and played paint ball. She walked through the crowd, and before she knew it, her feet have brought her in front of the carousel. She looked at it for a long time, and then she remembered the time that she and Jiro where here at the park. She remembered that time they made a bet in front of the carousel, that it would light up in ten seconds. If the carousel would light up, she have to kiss Jiro, but if not, he will give her a piggy back ride. She could still remember that day, Jiro was praying hard for the carousel to light up in ten seconds. She was trying not to laugh as she noticed the beads of sweat falling from his forehead. After ten seconds, the carousel lighted up. She gave Jiro his prize, and in the end, Jiro gave her a piggyback ride to the carousel.

She found herself sitting on one of the horses of the carousel. After a while, it began to move and span slowly. She leaned over the pole, and let a tear fall from her eyes. It seems like yesterday, she was riding in this carousel with Jiro. He was holding her hand, and was smiling happily at her. It seems like yesterday when they were both in love with each other. When she found him, she wore to herself that she will love him, and that she will forget her feelings for Calvin. But forgetting her love for Calvin is not as easy as it seems. In the end, Calvin found out that she was the paper crane girl. Calvin left her, and the man who loved her left her as well because he could not accept the fact that there is someone else in her heart aside from him.

Calvin found himself in front of the carousel. He walked towards the rail, and watched as it spins slowly. His eyes caught the lonely figure of Kit sitting in one of the horses. Upon seeing her, Calvin moved and followed her. She was in her deep thoughts that she was not able to see him. “Kit...” he said in a low voice. At that moment, he saw how broken she is, and it was all because of him. He could see how much he have hurt her, and he's blaming herself for what happened to her. The ride stopped, and everyone got out of the carousel. Calvin saw that Kit was the last one who got off of the carousel. As he made his step towards her, Chun and Danson came to her. “Kit, we've been looking for you!” he heard Danson said in a worried tone. “Sorry... I wanted to ride the carousel...” she said in a low voice. “You seemed tired. Do you want to go home?” Danson asked. Calvin saw her nod her head. Danson took Kit by the hand, and lead her away from the carousel.

Meanwhile, Chun saw him. “You had your chance, why didn't you talk to her?” he said as he walked towards her. Calvin just shook his head. “Have you seen her, Chun. She was broken, and it was because of me. I don't have the guts to walk over her, and face her. It's all my fault... my fault that she have been like this. If it wasn't for Joy, Jiro wouldn't cheat on her, and break up with her.” he said. Chun let out a sigh as he shook his head. “Kit was worse than this during the first few days, according to Danson. At least now, she's smiling although it's a forced one. She's trying to put a brave front for us her friends, because she doesn't want us to worry about her anymore. She admits she's wrong, that she have hurt all of us. I think she have forgiven you, but I don't think she have forgiven herself.” Chun said. Calvin just nodded his head. “I'll keep my distance from now on. But, I'll continue to watch her from afar. Take care of her, Chun. Take care of her for me.”

--

The loud music deafened her, and the crowd sways with the music. The laser light seems to blind her, but she doesn't care. She closed her eyes as she danced her way through the crowd of strangers. “Why did we ever agreed to what she wanted?” Danson said as he shook his head. He and Chun were sitting at the bar as they watched Kit dance on the floor. He looked at the guy beside him, and saw him dancing in his place as well. He took a deep breath, then smacked him in the head. “Wei! What's that for?” Chun asked. Danson pointed at Kit, who was dancing with two guys. “Help me get her out of here. She's drunk and obviously, those two guys are taking advantage of her.” Danson said. Chun looked at Danson and smiled at him. “Look, Dannie boy. It was my idea that we take Kit out. It was your idea that we bring her to the amusement park, and unfortunately, she wasn't able to enjoy our little trip. Kit asked us to take her here so that she could have a little fun, so let her have fun, OK?” Chun said. Danson gave him a death glare. “Get. Kit. Out. Of the dance floor. Now.” he said. Chun sighed again, and then followed his order.

Chun was able to manage to pull Kit in between the two guys she was dancing with, all though he could sense how mad they are at him. “OK, Kitty Cat... time to go home.” Chun whispered to her. Kit just laughed at what he said. “No... don't want to go home yet...” she slurred. Chun looked at her, and saw how red and drunk she is. “Kitty Cat, be a good girl, and let's go home, all right?” Chun said again. Kit shook her head violently. “No! Don't want to go home. This is more fun... I want to have fun!” she slurred again. As soon as they reached the bar, Danson helped her to her seat. “I told you we shouldn't have agreed to her idea to go here at the club.” he told Chun. “Don't blame me! You also agreed to her!” Chun said. When they looked at Kit, she holding another glass of wine. Danson got alert, and tried to take away the glass from her. “No, Kit... you had enough!” he said to her. “Give it back!” Kit said, reaching for the glass. “Look how drunk you are. We can't bring you home in this condition, Kit.” Danson said. Before he knew it, Kit ordered another glass of wine, and gulped it down before he could take away the glass from her. “OK, that's it. That will be your last drink. Come on, we'll bring you home...” Danson said. Chun helped Kit to stand up, and then he and Danson carried her out of the club.

As they headed to the parking lot, a car stopped in front of them. They saw Calvin got out of the car. “What are you doing here?” Danson said, glaring at him. Chun looked guiltily at Danson. “I... I called him, Danson...” Chun said. Danson could not believe what he said. “What? Why did you have to call him? He is the reason why Kit is like this! We don't need him to take care of Kit.” he shouted at him. Chun looked away from his friend, not knowing how to explain his actions. “Danson... don't be mad at Chun. I asked him to call me if something bad happens to Kit.” Calvin said. Danson looked at him, and smirked. “So, you're now playing the part of a good best friend now, huh?” he snapped at him. Calvin did not dare to answer him back. “I'll take Kit home...” he said, trying to get Kit from them. Before he could touch her, Danson slapped his hand away from her. “Don't touch her. We are responsible for Kit now, and we will bring her home.” Danson said in a firm tone. Calvin smirked at him, and then he folded his arms. “Fine. Take her home. Tell me, Danson... how would you explain to Aunt Joanne why her daughter got drunk. For sure, she'll think that you and Chun are a bad influence on her. While if I take her home, Aunt Joanne won't question me about what happened to her. So, choose. Take her home, and face Aunt Joanne's punishment of not showing your shadows again at the Jin household, or leave her to me and you'll still be angels in Aunt Joanne's eyes.” Calvin said.

Danson and Chun looked at each other for a while, then looked back at him. “We chose option number 2.” Chun said. Danson was surprised at his answer. “Chun! It wasn't my answer!” Danson shouted at him. Before he could further react, Chun gave Kit to Calvin. Kit put her hands around Calvin's neck, and looked up at him. “Who are you?” she slurred. Calvin looked at her, and then brushed the hair away from her face. “Fine, you won, Calvin Chen. We expect that you bring her home safe and sound. But I swear, this will be the last time I will let you get near her.” Danson said. He watched as the two leave him with Kit. Then, he looked at Kit again. “Who are you? You are not that stupid Calvin Chen, right?” she said again. Calvin smiled at her, and shook her head. “No, I am not Calvin Chen...” he lied. Then, Kit smiled at him. “Good. Because if you are, I will beat you till you're black and blue...” Calvin was getting amused at her drunk friend. It was also a good thing that she was too drunk, and was not able to recognize him. “Do you hate that Calvin Chen too much that you want to beat him?” he asked. Kit nodded her head. “That stupid guy. He's very very stupid. Not just stupid... he's bad. He left me and ended our friendship just because he found out I am in love with him. Stupid him... I am choosing our friendship over my love for him because... because I don't want to lose him... I chose our friendship because... because... I love him too much that... that losing him is like losing my life... I chose to love him secretly and continue to be friend with him... and though I try to forget my feelings for him, I just can't...” she said. Calvin fell silent upon hearing what she said. He could not believe that the reason why she chose their friendship is because she loves him too much. “And that Jay? That stupid Jiro Wang? Who does he think he is?! Why did he cheat on me? Calvin left me... then I decided to give all of my love to him...but that ugly Celestine... stupid him... Wasn't it enough prove that I love him when I asked him to marry me sooner? And he did that because he thought I cheated on him. I did not! As if Calvin and I are romantically involved... I did not cheat... and that Joy? I didn't know Jiro was Jay! It wasn't my fault he broke up with her... and that Calvin... stupid Calvin... he even stole my idea of a perfect date so that stupid Joy would tell him that she loves him... they are all stupid...” she said.

Calvin looked at her again. She closed her eyes, and rested her head on his shoulder. “Do... do you still love Calvin?” he asked. He felt Kit nodded her head. “I love him... I still love him...” she said in a low voice. Calvin smiled to himself upon hearing her answer. “So, she still loves me...” he thought. He looked at her again, and saw him staring at her. “You know what... mister... you looked like him... a lot like him...” she said. “Who, Jiro?” he asked. Kit smiled and shook her head. “You looked like Calvin...” she said. Then, she reached for his cheek and gently touched it. Using her hand, she pulled Calvin's head, and then gave him a long kiss. Calvin's eyes widened with shock at her kiss, but as her kiss got deeper, he closed his eyes, and kissed her back. Then, he felt Kit took her lips away from him. She looked at him lovingly, and smiled. “I love you, Calvin...” she whispered. He opened his mouth to speak, but before any words could come out, Kit puked on him.

--

He opened the door of her room, and as he reached her bed, he carefully laid her. After he tucked her in, Calvin sat beside her, watching her as she sleeps peacefully. He brushed the hair on his face, and gently caressed her cheeks. “Kit...” he began. “I know, tomorrow, you will soon forget all the things you've done tonight. You always does whenever you're drunk... but I want you to know that I will never forget this night. I will never forget how you admitted that you still love me. I will never forget your kiss. I will never forget those three words that you told me... because you know what, it's the same thing that I wanted to tell you for so long...” He paused, and leaned closer to her face. “I'm sorry for all the things I have done. I'm sorry that it was partly my fault that you and Jiro broke up. I'm sorry if I have hurt in the past, and if I broke your heart. God knows, you're the last person I want to be hurt. Im sorry if Joy did every way she could to get back at you. I regret those cruel words I said to you. I regret ending our friendship. I need you, Kit... I need you and I miss you... and most of all, I love you Kit. I love you... I wanted to be with you, but like you, I couldn't bear to hurt another's heart because of my love for you. Please forgive me for not being strong enough to admit my true feelings for you, because between you and I, I was the first one who broke that promise. I hope one day, you could forgive me for everything...”

Calvin closed his eyes, and then leaned to her. As he kissed her for the last time on her lips, a tear fell down from his eyes. He stared at her face for a long time, as if memorizing her face. “I love you... I hope one day, I could tell this to you. When you're not drunk, when you're not asleep. I love you, Kit. I really do...” he whispered to her. He stood up from her bed, and then went out of her room. As Calvin closed the door behind her, Kit slowly opened her eyes. A teat also fell from her eyes as she looked at the door. “I love you too, Calvin...” she whispered. “It's just too bad that we can't be together...”

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 52 – Letting Go




He turned to his side and closed his eyes to sleep. Uncomfortable with his position, he turned to his other side, but he still felt uncomfortable. He sat up on his bed, and then stared outside the window. “How are you, Kit?” he thought. “Maybe by now, you're already in your deep slumber. Your tired body is getting the rest it needed, and your mind might have been relaxed by now...” He stood up from his bed and looked to his window. Just like the other night, she have put down the blinds. “You don't want me to watch you sleep anymore, huh? Do you really hate me that much, that even this little pleasure I get from watching over you, you're taking it away from me?” he said. He sighed as he sat by the window. “But even if your blinds are down, I will still watch over you... I may not see you as you sleep, and it doesn't matter. All I want to do is do this little things that I used to do when we were still best friends...” he said. He smiled to himself as he leaned over the window. He stared at her window again, imagining how she looked like as she sleeps. Before he knew it, his eyelids finally became heavy, and he drifted off to dreamland.

The next morning, Kit was getting ready for school. As soon as she was finished dressing up, she put up the blinds of her window. She was surprised to see Calvin leaning on his window, sleeping peacefully and smiling to himself. “Calvin...” she said in a low voice. “I wonder what it is that you're dreaming of... that you're smiling like this. Are you dreaming of Joy? Are you dreaming that you are with her now? Or, are you dreaming of me, in the same way that I have dreamed of you each night?” she thought. Through the glass, she traced his face using her finger. “I miss you... I miss you so much and it's hurting me. Why can't I learn to let you go? Why is my heart too stubborn, that I'm still loving you? We can never be together, not anymore... but inside my heart, there is still small hope for us. I could not longer hold on to that small hope...” she said. She turned her back, and left the room. As she closed the door behind her, Calvin opened his eyes to wake up. He looked at her room, and found it already empty.

--

The bell rang, and Kit walked up to her locker. As she stopped before it, she noticed a peach rose hanging by it. She took the rose, and buried her nose on it for a while. She looked around, hoping to find the person who left it. She sighed, and then she opened her locker. Inside her locker, she saw a rolled pink paper with pink ribbons tied around it. She took it, and began to read its contents.

“Always remember that if a person loved you once, even after a hundred years, there will still be
some of that love left... no matter how much that person denies it...”

From one corner, Calvin watched Kit as she read his love note. He smiled to himself, happy to see that Kit got his little gift. “I think I saw this scene a few months ago...” he heard someone say. He looked back, and saw Chun standing behind him. “Now, you're the peach rose guy. Why are you doing this, Calvin?” he asked. Calvin looked at him and smiled. “She left those paper cranes for me to let me know in her own little ways that he loves me. I feel the same way for her, and this is the way I've thought up to let her know that I love her too...” Calvin said. “Aren't you worried?”
“Worried about what?”
“That Kit would find out?”
Calvin shook his head. “If she found out, if she got mad after knowing it's me, I'll accept it.” he said. “But what is Joy found out? You said you don't want to hurt her? With you doing these things, you are hurting her without you knowing it. You're just like Kit... you're with Joy, and yet you are secretly loving your ex-best friend.” Chun said. Calvin fell silent, and he lowered his head upon hearing what Chun said. “Cal...” Chun said as he put his hand on his shoulder. “You have to make your choice sooner or later. Is it going to be Kit, or is it going to be Joy? Who's going to stay, and who have to leave? Because if you don't, you'll only break their hearts. Most of all, they might all end up leaving you alone. You know how painful that is...” Calvin just looked at his friend. He feels confused with his own feelings. He looked at Kit, and at her sight, his heart is telling him to choose her. His mind was telling him to stay with Joy to avoid further complications. “Cal... making a decision is easy. Ever since then, you have loved Kit. If you choose her, the two of you will be happy. If you choose Joy, you save her from another heart ache, but you'll be breaking your own heart. I know you are not selfish, and I know you are considerate of other people's feelings, but you have to consider your own happiness. If Kit makes you happy, choose her. If Joy does, stay with her. It's all up to you...” Chun said. “I want to choose her, Chun...” Calvin said. “But I don't think she could also decided for us. Not now... she's still hurting, and I can't force her to be with me.” He turned her eyes to the girl standing in front of her locker. She was heartbreakingly beautiful with that smile on her face. He wanted so much to go near her, and hold her, but he have to stop himself from doing so. All he can do for now is watch her from afar.

--

“Kit...” she heard someone call her. She looked to her side, and saw Jiro standing beside him. Kit looked away from him, avoiding his eyes. Jiro sighed, and then he sat beside her at the waiting shed. “Can we talk?” Jiro asked. Kit just shook her head. Jiro fell silent as he remained sitting beside her. He looked at her, and seeing how broken she is just breaks his heart. He promised to her before that he will never make her cry, that he will never leave her and that he will never hurt her. Because of what Joy told him about Kit's true feelings for Calvin, he forgot that promise and hurt her. “I'm sorry...” he said in a low voice. “I know you could never forgive me because of what I did. But you hurt me as well. You hurt me, because you fell in love with Calvin. I could not accept it... that he's my rival when it comes to your love. I was so scared that I would lose you to him... I never thought that all this time, you have chosen me. I forgot it was me that you first loved, and not him. You chose to be by my side... but I was too angry that time... that I -”

“That you cheated on me. That you decided to have an affair with Celestine just to get back at me?” Kit said in a hurt tone. Jiro lowered his head, and guiltily nodded his head. “I was hurt, Jiro. I was. But I know I've been hurting you because I could not love you in the same way that I loved Calvin. But I tried... God knows I tried. I did my best to make you happy. I did my best not to break my heart. Before Calvin left me, I decided to give you my all. I gave you all my love, Jiro. I chose to forget him because of you. I even fought for you... during those times that he doesn't approved of you and he wanted me to keep my distance from you, I fought for you... because I love you. You were the only thing left that's keeping me whole, but you chose to break my heart. Now, all that I'm left are these small pieces of me, and I know I could not make myself whole again.” Kit said. Jiro looked up at her, and aside from the tears in her eyes, she could see her anger and her hurt. “I know, my sorry is not enough. I could not even forgive myself for hurting you... I know you will never give me another chance... but I want you to know that I love you... I really do. And in that short time that we were together, I knew that you loved me to. You made me feel that I'm special, that I'm the luckiest man alive because you chose me. I hope... I hope that you do feel the same way too...” he said. Jiro took her hand, and then held it. “I hope one day, you could forgive me for breaking your heart. I didn't want this to end this way... but it already did. I'm so sorry, Tin... I'm sorry for the past mistakes I've made...” he said in a low voice. “I also hope you could forgive me if my love is not enough. One day, I can forgive you for this... maybe that would happen if I learned to forgive myself for ruining everything. I hope you understand...” she said. Jiro nodded his head. He reached for her face and cupped her cheeks. For one last time, he kissed Kit on the forehead. He looked at her sadly, and then wiped the tear on her face. “I guess this is goodbye...” he said. Kit nodded her head. “Take care of yourself always, Tin. No matter what happens, I'll always be here for you, waiting for your return. I love you... and I will continue to love you for the rest of my life.” He released her, and then he stood up. Kit watched him as he walked away from him, and as she watches him, the tears couldn't help but fall from her eyes. “I never thought that I'd come to see the day, the day that I learned to let go of the person I loved. The same person who made me smile. The same person who made me believe that everything was real. The same person who set plans for us. The same person whom I thought would love me forever. That person is gone now and along with that person was the love I gave. Finally, its over...” she thought as she wiped the tears from her eyes.

--

Kit was walking through the busy pavement, thinking about her last conversation with Jiro. They finally said goodbye, and she had her closure with him. Somehow, it felt good, but the fact still remains that although she and Jiro have ended their issues, she have other things to fix by herself – Joy and Calvin. She doesn't know if Joy could ever forgive her for breaking her heart. She doesn't know if Calvin will forgive her for her lies. Most of all, she doesn't know if she could forgive herself that easily. She stopped and looked at the other side of the street. She waited for the traffic light to turn red so that she could cross the street. As she's waiting, she saw two kids at the other side – a boy and a girl. She could see the little girl smiling at the little boy as the little boy took her hand. The light turn red, and the cars stopped. She remained unmoved as she continued to watch those children. “Calvin were once like that...” she thought. “But now... I don't think we could go back to the way we were...” She looked up and realized that the light is still red, and she had to cross the street. As she made a few steps, the lights changes, and being deep in her thought, she didn't realize that there was a speeding car before her. She heard a loud honk. She looked back, and saw the speeding car. Scared, she was unable to move from her place. Before the car could hit her, she felt someone pull her to safety.

“You scared me...” she heard someone say. She felt being awaken from a dream, and she realized that an arm was wrapped around her body protectively. She looked up, and saw Calvin worriedly looking at her. “Calvin...” she whispered. Calvin just stared at her. “I thought I'm going to lose you, Kit... I can't lose you... not anymore...” he said. Kit closed her eyes, and buried her face on his chest. “Calvin...” she said in a low voice. As she looked up, she realized that it was not Calvin that was holding her, but Danson. “What got into you? You almost got yourself killed!” Danson said worriedly at her. Kit looked at him, confused at what's happening. She thought she saw Calvin save her, but it was Danson who's right in front of her. Kit shook her head, and as she looked up at Danson, she smiled. “I'm sorry...” she said in a low voice. “I'm so sorry... I... I thought you were Calvin... I thought he was the one who saved me... but I was wrong. I don't think he would save me... I don't think he would come for me anymore...” she said. Danson could see the sadness in her face, and her sadness is wrenching his heart. “Kit...” he said in a low voice. Kit then gave him a sad smile. “I'm OK, Danson... I'm going to be OK. Maybe it will take a lot of getting used too, but I'm getting there. I know I am...” she said. She buried her face again on his chest, and let the tears fall from her eyes. As for Danson, he could only give her a warm, comforting embrace.

--

Danson took Kit home, and as they got home, they saw an unfamiliar car parked outside her home. “Who's car is that?” Danson asked, pointing at the car. Kit looked at him, and shrugged her shoulder. As they entered the gate, her little Annie came rushing to her. “Kit jie!” Annie shouted. Kit smiled at her, and then she carried Annie. “Jie, someone's waiting for you. A very handsome friend of yours...” Annie said. Kit gave her sister a confused look. “Who?” she asked. “Me...” she heard someone say. Kit and Danson looked up, and saw Mike walking up to him. “Mike He?” Danson asked in a surprised tone. Mike smiled at Danson and nodded his head. Kit was as surprised as Danson when she saw him. “M-mike? I... I thought you're still in Europe with Trixie?” Kit asked. Mike shook his head. “I decided to come home earlier than expected. I need to fix some things so that I could go back to school this Fall.” he explained.

Mike looked at Kit, and saw that something have changed in her. The once brave and cheerful girl he knew is now gone. All he could see now is a sad and weak girl. Something have taken the life away from her. “What happened to Kit? Was it because of what I did in the past?” Mike thought. “Hey...” he heard Danson say. “Why don't we all go inside so that we could catch up? I know Mike here has a lot of things to tell us about his trip.” Mike smiled at him and nodded his head.

While inside the den, Mike was observing Kit as they were talking about his vacation. He ntoiced the she became more quiet, and she only let out a faint smile. Kit have really changed, and he didn't know if it's of the trauma he caused her, or because of other things. “I'll go get us some more drinks...” Kit said, excusing herself. Mike watched Kit as she walked towards the kitchen. “What happened to her?” he asked, not taking his eyes off her. “A lot of things happened while you're gone, Mike. I know what you're thinking. It's not about that mistake you did. Something happened that made her like that...” Danson explained. Mike looked at him, confused with what's happening. “Let's just say someone very dear to her broke her heart. Someone, whom we never thought would hurt her....” Danson said. “Calvin...” Mike muttered. Danson was surprised at what he said. “Whoa... you're fast! How... how did you know?” he asked. “How can I not know, Danson. Calvin is her best friend. He protects her in the same way a bear protects its cubs. He always worries about her... remember, you guy beat the hell out of me when I put Kit in danger? I know how important Calvin is to Kit... so if she loses Calvin, it would really break her heart...” he said. Danson sighed, as he leaned on the couch. “I don't know how to start to tell you everything. All I can say is that because of what happened... just look at her. She's broken... I don't think anyone could mend her heart now...” he said. Mike looked at him and shook his head. “You're wrong, Danson. There is only one person, aside from herself, that can help her pick up her broken pieces. Sadly, it's the same person who broke her heart...” he said.

--

The next day, Kit saw another peach rose on her locker. She took it, and as she opened her locker, she saw another note. “I have loved you for so long, but I'm too scared to admit it. I love looking at you from afar even if you didn't recognize me, I love your cute smile, I love that sound of your caring voice, I love you even when you're mad, I even love you when you're wasted... I love everything about you... Loving you silently is the only thing I can do for now. Sooner or later, when I found the courage, I'll show myself and confess my love for you. Right now, I want to care and love you from afar, because I know your heart has been broken, and not ready to give love a chance...” After reading the note, Kit looked around her. She felt as if someone is watching her, and she have a feeling that it's the same person who left her the note.

“Kit...” she heard someone say. She looked back, and saw Danson and Mike together. “Hey, guy!” she said, forcing a smile. “Hey, Kit. We're going to grab some snacks at the cafe, I insist that you go with us.” Mike said. Kit just laughed at him. “You're still bossy, Mike He. OK, I'll go with you guys...” she said. Mike smiled at Kit and then put his arm around her. As they were about to leave, they saw Calvin standing before them. He eyed at Mike, and Mike could see the fury in his eyes. “Calvin Chen...” he said as he smirked at him. “What are you doing here, Mike He?” Calvin asked in an angry tone. “Why, don't I have the right to go back here in Taiwan and hang out with my friends?
“Kit is and never was your friend.”
“She is now.”
“Take your filthy arms around her.”
“And why should I?”
“Because I said so.”

Mike looked away from him. He scratched his chin, as if thinking. “Hmmm... how about a no?” he snapped at him. Calvin clenched his fist, and was about to attack him, when Kit blocked his way. “Look Calvin...” Kit said to him. “Whether you like it or not, Mike is also my friend. And besides, why should you care? You already ended our friendship, right?” Kit said to him. Calvin was taken aback by what Kit said. “Kit...” he said in a low voice. “Maybe Mike did something bad to me back then, but he apologize to me for hurting me. While you, you didn't even gave me the chance to explain. You know what, Mike is a better friend than you, Calvin.” she said. She looked at Mike, and then held on to his arm. “Let's go. I don't want to deal with this guy anymore.” she said, glaring at Calvin. Calvin could only watch Kit as they leave. Calvin then looked at Danson, who was walking behind the two. “You know, Calvin...” Danson said. “It's not your job anymore to worry about her. After all, you have decided to leave her...”

--

“Ms. Trixie Yan”

Trixie took her shades off, and took her passport from the lady. She clutched her luggage, and walked towards the airport's exit. “It's good to be back...” she thought. She spent the last few months touring the world with her friends, and with her ex-boyfriend, Mike. It was fun, though. She was able to relax and enjoy herself. She took the trip with her friends to get her mind off her breakup with Calvin. Mike has been with her, trying to cheer her up and helping her to move on. Even with her friends around her during the trip, she still could not take her mind off Calvin. As each day passes, she loves Calvin more, and she longs to see him.

Now, she's back in Taiwan. Mike have came home earlier than expected because of their breakup. He could not accept that despite all of his efforts, Trixie still loved Calvin. Now that she's back home, she will do her best to have Calvin once again. She'll do everything to get him back, even if it means hurting other people...

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 53 – Signs and Intuitions




The broken picture frame.

--

“OK, talk to you later... Bye!” Hannah ended the call, and then sat on her bed. It was another phone call from Danson, telling her what has been happening about kit. She sighed, then looked at the side table. On her table was a picture of her and Kit during last semester. She took it, and stared at it for a while. “I wish I was there for you... so that you're not suffering alone. Don't worry, just wait a few more weeks and I'll be coming home. You can tell me everything.” she said. From the picture, she could see how happy Kit was. She could imagine how she is right now. She might be worse than the time when she and Calvin fought because of Trixie. “I wish everything will be back to how it should be. I hope Calvin would understand why you did those things... because I do understand. Be strong, Kit... you are stronger than I am, I know you'll get through this.” she said.

Just then, she heard a soft knock on the door. She put the fram back to the table, and then walked to the door to open it. It was her room mate, Daphne. “Hey, Hannah. I heard there will a parade later at the plaza. Let's go there now, OK?” Daphne said. Hannah smiled and nodded her head. “Of course. Is everybody coming?” she asked. “You bet! Better get ready, we have to be there earlier to get the best spot.” Daphne said. Hannah nodded her head, and went back inside her room. She took her jacket and bag before she left, and as she opened the door, she heard a something that fell. She looked back, and saw that the picture frame was no longer on her table. She walked up to the side table, her heart began to beat faster as she saw the frame lying on the floor, with broken glasses on top of it.

--

The black butterfly

--

“What did you say the reason why you came home again?” Kit asked Mike as they were strolling around the park. Mike looked at her and just smiled. “You want me to tell you the truth, or you want me to lie...” he said as he put his hands on his pocket. “Truth...” she said. “I've had enough lies. Tell me what happened.” she said. Mike took a deep breath before speaking. “Trixie and I broke up...” he said. Kit was surprised at what he said. “Oh... I... I never thought that... you and Trixie...” she said. Mike smiled and her and nodded his head. “Yeah. Trixie and I got together while we're on vacation. Reason for the break up, none other than your ex-best friend. She said she still loves Calvin, and she's just using me to forget him. She said she'll go back here in Taiwan soon, and make sure that she'll have Calvin again...” he said. Kit just shook her head. “Trixie seems to be really obsessed with Calvin, huh...” she commented. “I didn't know what's with that guy that all of you girls seems to be crazy about him. I mean, I'm way more handsome than him.” he said. Kit just laughed at what he said. “I agree. You're more handsome than him.” she said. Then, she paused, and then looked down. “Actually... I... I didn't know why... maybe because he's sweet, he's such a gentleman... once you get to know Calvin, you'll find out that there's more to him than his handsome face.” she said. “And is that the reason why you fell in love with him?” Mike asked. Kit paused, and looked at him. She was caught off-guard with his question. “You... you know?” Mike nodded his head. “I've always thought Danson is a quiet guy...” he said. Kit laughed at him. “Remind me later to cut Danson's tongue, OK?” she said. Mike smiled and nodded his head.

Mike walked in front of him, and then held her hands. “Kit, I understand what you're going through, maybe the pain I'm feeling is different from what you are feeling right now. If there is some lesson that you need to learn from this, it's that God only takes away something from you when He knows that you deserve something much better. Somewhere between heartaches and waiting comes the chance to be found by someone who can show you that you don't have to be an option, but the choice. You deserve something better, I know. Always remember that, Kit.” he said. Kit smiled at him and nodded his head. “Thank you, Mike...”she said. “You know, Kit... you should smile often. You're pretty when you smile. You may have your reasons to sulk... but always remember to smile. Who knows, someone out there is falling in love with your smile...” Mike said. Kit put her hand on her waist, and raised an eyebrow at him. “Let me guess, a guy named Mike He?” she asked. Mike let out a laugh. “Of course, it's not the guy named Mike He. Maybe it's some other random guy I know...” he said. Kit laughed at him, then she paused, looking at Mike into his eyes. “Mike, thanks for everything...” she said. Mike smiled tenderly at her, and held her hand. “I should be the one thanking you. After all, I tried to rape you before... I'm glad that you didn't file a case against me or something...” he said. “I know Trixie asked you to do that to me. She hated me so much, that's why. Anyway, I have forgiven you for what you have done.” Kit said.

Kit looked at her wrist watch, then looked at Mike. “Hey, I have to go home now. I'll see you tomorrow, OK?” she said. Mike just nodded his head. He watched Kit as he leaves the park. As he was watching her, something caught his attention. He saw a black butterfly landed on Kit's back.

--

The fallen rose.

--

Calvin stopped in front of Kit's locker. He entered the combination of her locker, and opened it. He immediately put his letter inside the locker, and then closed it. He took the peach rose, and then hanged it in her locker. As he turned back, he saw Joy standing behind him. He just looked at Joy, and then turned away from her to leave. “Calvin!” Joy shouted. Calvin paused and looked at her again. “Why? Why are you doing this?” she asked. She walked towards him, and then pulled him to face her. “Why do you still care for her?” she asked him again. “Joy... do you know what happened to Kit? Do you know what happened to her and Jiro? How can I not care for her...”
“I don't know what happened to her, and I don't care! Whatever it is that happened to her, it's none of my business.”
“But it still is mine...”
“Why?”
“Because I'm still her friend.”
“Still... have you forgotten how she lied to you? How she toyed with your feelings, Calvin!”

Calvin looked away from Joy again. “Joy... you don't understand...” he said in a low voice. “What is it that I don't understand?” she asked. This time, Calvin looked into her eyes. “I know that it was you... you planned to break her heart. You used Celestine for your selfish plans... you told Jiro what you found out so that he'll get mad at her... You knew all those times that Jiro is with Celestine, and you set her up to go to the hotel so that you could hurt her. I felt guilty for what you did, Joy. You've hurt her enough... more than enough. She have suffered so much, and she doesn't deserve this.” he said. “If I did that, I have enough reasons. I hate her, Calvin. I hate her. She stole Jiro from me. She is the reason why Jiro couldn't love me before. She have occupied his whole heart, and left nothing for me. And now, she's trying to take you away from me... Tell me, how could I not hate her, Calvin?” she asked. Calvin shook his head. “I can't believe you could actually do this, Joy... I know her, Joy... I know Kit. It wasn't her intention to hurt you, to break your heart. She's not trying to take me away from you... she chose to keep her distance from me. I want to think that you're hurting her because you want to get back at her for Jiro...” he said in a low voice. “Yes, I am...” she said in a firm tone. “I could never forgive her. I love Jiro so much, but in the end, he chose to leave me for her. He chose to find her, instead of giving me a chance to love him. I hate Kit, Calvin... do you hear me? I hate her because Jiro have always loved her!” she shouted at him.

Calvin fell silent upon hearing her answer. It finally have dawned him, that Joy will always love Jiro, and she still loves him although they are together now. “Oh...” he said in a low voice. “I'm sorry... I didn't know that all this time, you're still in love with Jiro...” Then, Calvin turned his back on her. He was hurt because of that realization. Joy finally realized what she have said to Calvin, and she know that with what she have said, she have hurt his feelings and his ego. “Calvin... Calvin, I'm sorry... I didn't mean to...” she said. She walked towards him, and reached for his hand, but before she could, Calvin turn to face her. “It's OK, Joy... I now understand where your hatred is coming from...” he said sadly to her. “I thought... I just thought that all this time, you love me in the same way that I love you. You were my dream girl, and all I ever wanted was for you to look at me in the same way you looked at him... but even though you're now my girlfriend, I realized that I can never take Jiro's place in your life... that's why you were like that... that's why you reacted differently when you found out about them, and their engagement... I should've known that time that you were still in love with him... but I was too blindly in love with you that I wasn't able to see that. I now understand why, Joy... I perfectly understand.”

Calvin turned to leave, but Joy still followed her. “Calvin... Calvin, I'm sorry...” Joy said in a weak voice. She could already feel the tears falling from her eyes. “I didn't mean to say that... please don't think of it that way, Calvin...” she said. Calvin paused, and then looked at her again. “Do you know how painful it is to know that you still love him? It hurts a lot here...” he said, pointing to his heart. Joy closed her eyes to stop the tears from falling, but she could not stop them. “Calvin...” she called again. “Maybe we need the space and time to think things through. Everything just seems to be too chaotic right now...” he said. “Are you going to leave me as well? Are you going to leave me in the same way that Jiro left me?” Joy asked. Calvin shook his head. “How can I leave you, Joy...” he said. “If all this time, you were never mine?”

As he turned his back to leave, a tear fell from his eyes. As he walked away from Joy, the rose that he put on Kit's locker suddenly fell on the cold ground.

--

The nightmare.

--

It was a cloudy day, and she found herself walking though the sandy shore. She paused, and as she looked down, she saw a blue shell. She stared at it for a long time, then turned her eyes at the sea. From the far side, she could see a tall man walking towards her direction. As the guy gets closer, she could clearly see who it was. “Calvin?” she said to herself. Calvin smiled at her as he got closer. Kit smiled back at him, happy to see him again. “Calvin!” Kit shouted. She ran towards him, but as she got to him, he slowly disappeared. She got baffled with his sudden disappearance. She looked around the beach, but she could not find him. “Calvin!” she shouted. “Calvin! Where are you!” she shouted. As she gazed at the sea, she saw Calvin crying out her name. “Kit!” he shouted. “Kit! Help me! Save me!” she heard him cry.

Kit panicked upon seeing him drowning. She immediately ran towards the sea to save him. She swam until she reached him, but as she was about to catch him, he disappeared again. “Calvin!” she shouted as she tried to stay afloat. She looked around to find Calvin, but she could not see any signs of him. Just then, she felt someone pulling her leg down. She tried to fight, and to swim up, but the pull was too strong. “Help!” she shouted. “Calvin! Help me!” Before she knew it, she was already underwater. She was already out of breath, and she felt her body slowly falling into the deep abyss.

Kit immediately opened her eyes, sat up on her bed. She have been having that nightmare for several nights now. She took a deep breath to calm herself down. “Why am I always having that nightmare?” she thought. She doesn't want to think that it's a warning of something bad that would happen. She looked outside the window, and stared at Calvin's room. “If something bad would happen, please don't let it happen to Calvin....” she prayed. She laid on her bed again, and closed her eyes to try and sleep. But just like the other nights, she knows she'll soon be awaken again by that nightmare. Guess it will be another sleepless night.

--

It was already night, and Danson saw Kit standing in front of the school's building. “Kit!” he called as he rushed up towards her. Kit looked up at him and smiled. “Hey, Danson...” she said. “What are you doing here? It's already late. Come on, I'll drive you home...” he said. He took her hand, but as she pulled her, she let go of her hand. Danson gave her a confused look. “Dan... I asked Calvin to meet me here tonight. We need to talk things through before it's too late...” she said. Danson wrinkled his brow. He's getting more confused with what she was saying. “Too late? Why would it be too late? You two are neighbors... surely you guys can still talk. Come on, it's getting late.” he said. Kit shook her head. “I will wait for Calvin, Danson. I have a lot of things to say to him before I leave...”
“Leave? For where?”
“I can't tell you for now... but I have to see Calvin.”
“But it's already late. His classes have already ended, and most likely, he's already home.”
“He promised me he'll come, Danson. I know he'll come...”

Danson sighed in resignation, then shook her head. “OK... if you say so. I'll stay with you till he comes, OK?” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head. Just then, someone came. “Kit!” she called. The two looked at the girl in front of them. Danson's eyes widened when he saw her take out a gun and pointed it at Kit. He tried to run towards her to stop her from hurting Kit, but he could not move. Before he knew it, he heard a loud gun shot, and the girl beside him fell on the ground, lying in the pool of her own blood.

“Kit!” Danson shouted as he sat up on his bed. He took a deep breath upon realizing that it was just a nightmare. He looked at his side table to check on the clock – it was only 2 AM. “God... that nightmare seems so real...” he thought as he wiped the sweat from his forehead. After he calmed himself down, he went to bed, praying to God that his bad dream won't come true.

--

The card of death.

--

“Calvin...”

Calvin paused, and looked back. He was surprised to see Trixie walking up to him. “Trixie?” he asked. Trixie smiled and nodded his head. “I'm back!” she said. Calvin smiled at her, and then walked towards her to give her a hug. “You're looking good, Trixie!” he said. Trixie just smiled sweetly. “Thanks, Calvin. How are you doing?” she asked. “OK, I guess...” he answered. Trixie gave him a confused loook. “Why? Aren't you OK?” she asked. Calvin slowly shook his head. “A lot of things happened while you're gone.” he said. “Really? Why don't you tell me. I want to catch up on everything.” she said. Calvin smiled at her and nodded his head.

They headed to their favorite cafe, and as soon as they settled, Calvin told Trixie everything that had happened after she have gone to Europe. He told her how he found out that Hannah was the other paper crane girl. He told her about how Jiro and Joy broke up, because Jiro could not forget about his first love, Tin. He told her about how he got together with Joy shortly after her breakup with Jiro. He told her how Kit found out that Jiro was the boy she saved years ago at the beach, and how she turned out to be 'Tin'. He told her about their getting together, and their engagement. He told Trixie how he found out that Kit was the paper crane girl, that he got mad at her for lying, that he chose to end their friendship. He told her that eventually, Joy found out about Kit's secret, and that like him, Joy got mad at Kit because she was the reason why Jiro broke up with her, and she thought that Kit was trying to take him away from her. He told her that Kit and Jiro eventually broke up, the latter cheated on Kit because he found out that Kit is in love with him. Trixie shook her head after she listened to his story. “I can't believe it... a lot of things have happened while I'm gone...” she said. Calvin nodded his head. “Yeah... everything just happened fast...” he said in a low voice. “So... how are you and Joy now? You two are still together, I suppose...” she said. Calvin sighed, and then leaned back to his chair. He became silent, unable to answer her question. “I... I don't know...” he said. Upon hearing his answer, she smiled secretly. “I guess I could do my plan now with Calvin, now that nothing's in the way...” she thought. “I still care for Kit, and she doesn't understand the guilt I'm feeling for hurting her. Kit hated me now... she hate me so much that she looks disgusted whenever she sees me. I know I've said hurtful words before... and she could never forgive me for that. On top of that, Joy set her up to hurt her.”
“Kit is really important to you, huh? Even though you ended your friendship, you still care for her...”

Calvin smiled and nodded his head. “Kit is important to me... very important...” he said. Trixie nodded her head. “I know. You two were the best of friends. Even I couldn't break you two apart. I know one day, she'll forgive you for everything.” she said. “I do hope so, Trixie. It's hurting me that she's acting as if she doesn't know me...” he said. Trixie smiled at him. She leaned towards the table and then held his hand. “Everything will be all right, Calvin. Trust me...”

--

It was midnight when they reached the Yan mansion. Calvin and Trixie came from the bar, and both were dead drunk. “Where's you're room?” Calvin asked as she carried Trixie up. Trixie looked at him and giggled. “As if you didn't know!” she said. Calvin just laugh at what she said. Finally, they reached her room. As soon as they got it, the two plopped down the bed. “God, I'm not going to drink that much ever again...” Calvin said. “Ha! As if! You'll get drunk again one of these days...” she said. Trixie looked at him, and saw him already asleep. She sat up, and then stared at him as she brushed his hair. “Calvin... I love you. All this time, I still love you. Why can't I forget you? I tried to find you in all the guys I dated, but they could never compare to you... I hope you will give me another chance to prove my love for you...” she whispered to him. Then, she leaned towards him, and kissed him passionately on the lips. Calvin responded to her kiss, and she felt his hand roam at her back. At that moment, she was ready to give her all – her body and sould – to the man lying beside her.

She broke their kiss, and began to unbutton his shirt. Her lips started to kiss him on the lips, but she stopped when she heard him mumble a name. “Kit... Kit...” he mumbled. Trixie stopped, and looked at him. “I love you, Kit...” he said again. She felt her heart breaking again when she heard Kit's name. She had the gut feel before that Calvin is in love with his best friend, and now she proved that she's right. Calvin slowly opened his eyes, and then looked at Trixie. He suddenly got awaken with the thought that she is with Trixie, and not with Kit. If something happened between them, he knows he would regret it. “Trixie...” he said in a low voice. “I'm sorry... I can't do this. Each time that I close my eyes, it's only Kit that I see...” Trixie sat up, and turned away from him. “Are... are you in love with her? With Kit?” she asked. She could feel her own voice cracking. “Yes, I am.” Calvin answered.

Trixie covered her mouth, trying her best not to let him hear her cry. “I'm sorry, Trixie. I only love Kit... and I want to be with her...” he said. He stood up from her bed, and then left her room, leaving Trixie inside alone, crying.

Trixie laid on the bed, crying her heart out. Calvin's rejection hurt her, but what hurt her most is the fact that he could never love her again because of Kit. As he cried herself to sleep, a card of death fell from her side table.

--

The gun that will kill him...

--

She slowly crept inside her father's room. She didn't bother to turn the lights on. Anyway, she knows the exact place of that thing he was looking for. She reached for the drawer, and opened it. Despite of the room being dark, she was able to see it – a .45 caliber gun. She took it, and then put it behind her. She sneaked back to her room and then looked at herself in the mirror. “Why?” she asked herself. “Why can't you love me? Why did you have to choose your stupid best friend? I love you, Calvin... I love you too much. Why can't you choose me again like before? Why can't you forgive me for the mistake I did back then?” She felt the tears falling from her eyes. She clenched her fist, and hit her night table with her fists. She could not bear another rejection from Calvin. God knows she tried to change herself, and become a better person for Calvin so that he would love her, but just like before, he rejected her.

Then, she slowly pulled the gun from her back, she looked at it closely, and an evil smile formed on her lips. “I love you too much, Calvin, and you pushed me to do this...” she said as she stared at the gun. “If you can't be mine...” she said as she put it inside her bag. “then it would be better if you die...”

--

Chun
Danson
Joy
Jiro
Calvin
Kit...

One of them will eventually say goodbye....


Forever?

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

anong gagawin nyo sa kin pag sinabi kong eto na yung ending?

Chapter 54 – Saying Goodbye



When you wake up and find me gone tomorrow,
Don't think I meant to hurt
I just did what we knew I have to...

--

That morning, Kit decided to to wake up with a smile. The nightmare she had nights before was suddenly gone. She did her usual stuff before she go to school. That day, she wore her prettiest dress. She hummed her favorite tune as she prepares for school. She ate breakfast with her family, and joke around her little sister. Although her parent found her a little weird that day, they were happy to see their daughter back to her old self. She drove to school, and she got to school an hour before her finals would start. She had enough time to review, and to talk to her classmates before the test would start. Just like her parents, her classmates found her acting weird that day. They have seen how quiet Kit was for the past few weeks, but today, she was talkative, and she smiles and talks to them. As she took her finals, she found it very easy as she was able to answer all the questions correctly and was able to finish earlier.

After her first class, she went to meet Danson at the study hall. “Hey, Dannie Boy!” she said cheerfully as she sat beside him. Danson looked at her skeptically, wondering what happened to her. “You seemed awfully happy today, Ms. Jin. Let me guess, you have this gut feel that you'll ace your subjects?” he asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. Danson smiled back at her. He was happy to see her smiling once again. It's been a long time since she have seen her this cheerful. “I know I will. I especially prepared for this one. I know I'll have high grades this semester.” she said proudly. “Good for you, Kit.” he said. He turned his attention to the book he's reading, but as he was reading it, he could tell that Kit was staring at him, as if wanting to say something. Danson looked up at him, and wrinkled his brow at him. “Is there something you want to say?” he asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. Then, she took his hand and held it tight. “Danson... thank you for everything...” she began. “Thank you for always being there for me. especially during the times that I needed a friend...”
“You know why I'm doing this, Kit. I would do anything to make you happy.”
“I wish... I wish I could repay you for all the things you've done for me...”

She leaned him, and gave him a hug. “I'm sorry... I'm sorry that I can't love you. I'm sorry that I can't give you my heart before...” she said. She released him from her hug, and then cupped his cheek. Danson could clearly see the tear in her eyes. The past few moths have been hard for Kit, he knows. She have been struggling to keep her feelings from Calvin, and when Calvin found out that his best friend is in love with him, he decided to cut off the friendship. “You know that I love you as a friend, Kit... and your happiness is my happiness as well.” he said. Kit smiled at him. “My only wish is that someday, you could find your happiness with the girl you truly love. I'm happy for you and Hannah, and I hope, you won't make the same mistake I did. I don't want to see your heart break if that happens...” she said. He wiped the tear on her eyes and smiled at her. He knew in his heart that no matter what happens, he would always be here for Kit, supporting her and loving her as his friend. He have long accepted that could never have her heart, and he have been contented being her friend.

Then, she looked up to him. Her face moving closer to his. He closed his eyes, and he felt his lips against hers. Her lips were cold, and yet, it tasted sweet. He suddenly felt shiver running down down his spine as she kissed her, it's as if that will be her last kiss for her. He opened his eyes, and he saw her smiling face, but as he looked into her eyes, he found loneliness. “Kit...” he said in a low voice. “Thank you for being a part of my life, Danson. Thank you...” she said. It's like she knew something would happen to her, and she was saying her last goodbye to him. “What... what are you saying. I'm getting scared with the way you're acting.” he told her. Kit shook her head, giving out a faint smile. “I'll be OK, Danson. I... I just want to let you know how much I've appreciate what you've done for me these past few months. I might not have enough time to tell you what's in my heart...”
“Don't say that.”
“Life is short, Danson. We don't know what will happen next. If I'll be gone today, then there won't be regrets for me for holding back.”

Then, she stood up to leave. Danson could only watch her as she walked away from him. He felt something is wrong with Kit, and that something bad would happen to her.

--

“What's wrong?” Chun asked Danson as they were eating their lunch. Since they met that afternoon, he have been silent. Then, Danson shook his head. “I don't know... but I feel something is wrong...” he said in a low voice. Then, Danson looked up at Chun. “Chun, I didn't want to tell you this, but I have no choice but to let you know...” he began. Chun looked at him, confused at what he is saying. “I don't know why... but I keep on having these dreams about Kit...” he said. “It's not an X-rated dream, right?” Chun asked as he chuckled. Danson sighed and glared at him. “This is serious, Chun! Now listen to me.” he said. Chun stopped laughing and began to listen to him. “I've been having nightmares, about Kit. In my dream, she was waiting for Calvin outside the school building. I was telling her that we have to go home, but she said she have to wait for Calvin because she needs to tell him something. Then, this girl came... she took out a gun and shot Kit in the head.” Danson said. Then, he looked at Chun. “And you know what's weird? When I saw Kit this morning, she was telling me how thankful she is to have me as her friend...” he said. “What's wrong with that? We all know that Kit is vocal with her feelings ever since, except for her feelings for Calvin.” Chun said. Danson turned away from him and shook his head. “You don't understand... it's as if she was saying goodbye to me. I don't know. I've never seen her like this... most of all, I've never felt this scared before.” he said. Chun smiled at him, and patted his back. “Dannie Boy... maybe you're just over reacting. Nothing bad would happen to Kit, trust me. And besides, have you heard of the saying that when you have nightmares, the opposite will happen? I don't think Someone will just show up and shoot Kit. You're just thinking too much.” Chun said. “But... but what if?” Danson asked again. Chun shook his head. “Nothing will happen, OK? You're just scaring yourself, and me. I guess your dreams simply mean that Kit will have a long life, or she'll be lucky. Don't think much of it.” Chun said. Danson sighed and let out a faint smile. “You're right...” he said. “Maybe I'm just thinking too much. I trust that nothing bad will happen to Kit.”

--

And all the time we knew
The time was never right for us
Time to leave this love behind
I could never leave you
If I see you cry

--

“Jiro, can we talk?” Kit asked as soon as she saw Jiro came out of the classroom. Jiro was surprised to see Kit waiting for him. He smiled, and then nodded his head. “O-of course.. we can talk.” he said. Kit smiled at him and then hugged him. Jiro was surprised at what she did, that he became speechless. “Jiro, thank you...” she said as soon as she let him go. “Thank you for being a part of my life. Thank you for loving me, for making me feel what it was to be loved. Thank you for coming back to me, after all those years that we've been apart...” she said. Jiro just looked at her, trying to find the words to say to her. “Tin...” he said in a low voice. “I know, in some way, I have hurt you because of my love for Calvin. You've hurt me as well, when you cheated on me with Celestine. I just wish you let me eplain everything to you before you decided to hurt me that way... but I don't want to stay mad at you. I can't have this grudge inside my heart, because it felt so heavy and it felt so bad...” she said. Jiro gave her a confused look. “So... you mean... you forgive me for hurting you?” he asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “We've been friends before we became lovers, Jiro. I don't want to waste our friendship just like that... at least it's something that I could save for the two of us.” she said.

Jiro looked at her lovingly, and then he smiled at her. “Tin... thank you...” he said in a low voice. “Thank you for forgiving me. I know it would be too soon to ask you to give me chance, but this is a good start. I know that you still love Calvin, but I'm willing to wait for you. I'm willing to stay with you until the day comes that you have forgotten your love for him.” he said. Kit looked down and shook her head. “I don't think that day would ever come, Jay...” she said in a low voice. “I'm sorry... I tried my best to forget him... but...”
“But it's him that you still love?”
Kit looked up at him. She stared into his eyes for a long time before she could nod her head. As she looked into her eyes, she could see how hurt he is with her answer. “I'm sorry, Jiro... I loved you first. God knows I was clinging onto my love for you for a long time... but Calvin has always been there for me. He was there to wipe away my tears, to make me smile, to listen to me when I needed to speak my mind. Those little things he have done in the past, those things have made me fall in love with my best friend. I have fallen so deep, that I don't think I could tell my heart to stop loving him... I've tried before, but my heart is too stubborn to listen to me...” she said in a low voice.

Jiro forced a smile, and nodded his head as if telling her that he understood. “I'm really sorry, Jay... I didn't mean to hurt you...” she said. “Kit, it's OK. Let's just say this is my karma for not loving Joy and Celestine in the past. I understand, Kit. If you can only offer me your friendship, then I would gladly accept it.” he said. Kit smiled, and then hugged him again. “Thank you for understanding, Jay...” she said. Then, she released him, and smiled at him. “I know, someone out there is loving you more than I have loved you. I wish one day, you can open your eyes to see her... she deserves a chance, Jay. She deserves to be given a chance to show her love for you...” she said. Then she turned to leave. As she walked away from him, Jiro watched her and smiled at her. “I'll bear that in mind, Tin... I will” he whispered.

--

Chun found Kit by the soccer field, watching the little kids playing soccer. He smiled as he walked towards her. She was too engrossed in watching the kids play, that she did not notice that he was already sitting beside her. “Enjoying the game?” he asked. Kit looked at him. She smiled and nodded her head. Then, she turned her attention to the kids. “Look at them, they seem so carefree, so happy. All that matters to them is their happy feeling when they're playing with their friends, and it doesn't matter to them if they fall down or hurt themselves.” she said. “You wanted to be a kid again, am I right?” Chun asked. Kit smiled at him and nodded her head. “I wish I was. At least all that I would think of is playing with my friends. If I got hurt, it would be because of my own fault...” she said. “You're tired of being broken hearted?” he asked again. Kit could only let out a faint smile. “You can say that. I'm tired, Chun.... really really tired. I'm tired of crying. Tired of loving. Tired of feeling my heart break...” she said.

Then, she looked at him again. “Sometimes I wonder why my life is always filled with complications. I always wonder why I can't always get what I want. I always wonder why I end up hurting myself and a lot of people... but in the end, I realize something.” she said. Chun gave him a curious look. “What did you realize?” he asked. “That life, no matter how perfect it is, will always be filled with complications. You only get what God feels that you deserves, because not everything you want is everything you would need and would be good for you. You will hurt a lot of people in the end, especially yourself, but you have to learn to forgive yourself, after all, you're only a human with weaknesses. If you have a hurt people, you should ask forgiveness as well.” she said. Chun let out a faint smile upon hearing her answer. “You seemed too philosophical.” he commented. “Of course. I learned it all from a very philosophical person named Wu Ji Chun.” she said.

Kit paused, and then looked at Chun. “Thank you.” she said. Chun gave her another confused look. “For what?” she asked. “For being there for me. For advising me. For listening to me when I needed someone to listen to my rants. For making me smile. For your goofiness. For being a friend. For just being yourself. I've learned a lot for you, Chun... and I will be forever thankful that you became a part of my life” she said. Chun let out a nervous laugh, but at the back of his mind, he's suddenly getting scared of what she is saying. He wondered why Kit is thanking him, as if it will be the last time that they will see each other. “H-hey... why are you being so mushy. I-it's as if you're going to leave us or something.” he joke. Kit just laughed at what he said. “Life is too short, Chun. You don't know what's going to happen next. Maybe next week, we'll move to Africa, or maybe later when I cross the street -” before Kit could finish her sentence, Chun glared at her. “Stop.” he said in a firm tone. “It's not a very good joke, Kit. Nothing bad will happen to you...” he said worriedly. Kit just smiled at him as she put her arm around him. “It's just a joke, Chun. Don't take it seriously. Don't worry, nothing will happen to me. I just want to thank you for all the things you've done for me. I will still be here... don't worry.” she said. Chun sighed and then smiled at her. But somehow, his heart is beating faster, he was never this anxious before. He prays to God that nothing bad would really happen to his friend.

--

Please realize how hard it is to do this
I'm trying to make it through this
Say goodbye just as gently as I can...

--

“Joy...” she called at the girl walking in front of her. Joy turned round, and saw Kit walking towards her. “What do you want?” she asked in a hard tone. “Can we talk?” Kit asked. “I'm giving you five minutes to speak.” Joy snapped. Kit sighed before beginning to speak again. “Joy, I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry that I have to hurt you, I'm sorry that I tried to take Calvin away from you. And most of all, I'm sorry that because of me, Jiro could not love you whole-heartedly...” she said. Joy shook her head, and then smirked at her. “Do you think I would believe you?” she asked. Kit nodded her head. “Yes, I do. Despite everything, I know we are still friends...” she said in a low voice. “No, we're not!” Joy shouted at her. “Did you know how hurt I was when I found out that Jiro loved you ever since? Did you know how it pained me when I found out you were Calvin's paper crane girl? You can never understand how I feel!”

Kit lowered her head, as she felt the tears falling from her eyes once again. “I trusted you, Kit. I trusted you. But what did you do? You betrayed me! You took the guy I loved away from me, and worse you tried to ruin my relationship with my boyfriend. I could never forgive you, Kit.” she heard Joy said. Kit looked up at her, and then wiped her tears. “You're right. I guess, I really don't deserve your forgiveness... and I understand that. I just hope one day, you'll find it in your heart to forgive me for all the things I've done.” she said. Kit watched Joy as she turned to leave. “I'm really sorry, Joy. I mean it.” Joy heard her say. She paused for a while, when she turned to face her, she was already gone.

--

This time just wasn’t the time for us
We knew I couldn’t stay
But that don’t make it easier to leave you
So while I can find the strength

--
Calvin looked at his watch. It was almost 9 PM. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to meet Kit at the outside the school building at this time, as it was already late. But he have to see her. He have to talk to her. He knows that if doesn't take this chance, everything between then would be ruined, and that he would never have the chance to talk to her again. She have been avoiding her since that incident at the hotel, and when he asked her to meet him, she agreed. All he wanted is to tell her what's inside his heart, to explain his actions, and to save whatever it is that's remaining in their friendship. “Calvin...” he turned and saw Kit walking towards him. Calvin smiled at her as she walked towards him. “I'm glad you came...” he said. Kit looked up at him, and just stared at him. “What is it that you want to talk about?” she asked. “A lot of things. I want to say a lot of things to you, Kit... I just don't know where to start...” he said in a low voice. “Then start at the very beginning, Calvin. I will listen.” she said.

Calvin looked into her eyes before he begins to speak. “I'm sorry...” he said. “I'm sorry if I always end up hurting you. I'm sorry if I have been a jerk... if I hadn't listened to you. I know I've said hurtful words to you in the past, but I didn't mean it. I really don't. I don't hate you, Kit. I don't want you out of my life... I want you to stay with me. I'm sorry that I've let my ego get in the way... it's just that I could accept that I've lost again to Jiro. You know that I've been competing with him ever since I met him... whether it's in school, in sports, with love, with you... The past few weeks without you is like hell. I couldn't focus on a lot of things. I'm missing you so badly, Kit...” he said. Then, he stepped forward her, and then cupped her cheeks. “I hope you can forgive me for everything. Let's start all over again. I don't want to lose you, Kit...” he said in a low voice. Kit smiled at him, and he saw a tear fall from her eyes. “I forgive you, Calvin. I'm sorry too... for all the things I've done... for hiding the truth from you. I'm sorry if I have fallen in love with you. I don't want to lose you too...” she said. Then, she hugged him tight. Calvin leaned on her head. As he smiled, a tear of joy fell from his eyes. Finally, everything is back in it's place. He have saved their friendship, but he will soon have to end it again, but for the better. “There are some more things I want you to know, Kit. A lot more things...” he whispered. Kit smiled to herself. “Then keep on talking, Calvin. You know that I love hearing your voice...” she said. Calvin released her, and then stared into her eyes. “Katherine Jin... please don't be sorry that you fell in love with me. The times that you were my paper crane girl, it was the best time of my life. You made me feel loved, that I am special. You made me feel that I am capable of being loved as well. You have always encouraged me, and you gave me a reason to be happy although there is no reason to smile at. There's something you should know, Katherine. I have this little secret that I've been keeping to myself ever since... and I was scared that if you found out this little secret, you'll do the things I've done to you.” he said. “What's your secret, Calvin?” she asked. Calvin stared at her for a long time, and then smiled at her. He reached for her face, and he cupped her cheek. “Katherine... I -”

Then, he was interrupted when he heard someone call his name. “Calvin Chen.” Kit and Calvin looked back, and saw Trixie walking up to them. Kit was surprised to see her again. “Trixie? You're back?” she asked. Trixie did not answer, and she just continued to walk towards them. As she got closer, they could see the fury in her eyes. “I hate you, Kit. I hate you ever since...” Trixie said. Then, he looked at Calvin. “I hate you too, Calvin. You always reject me. You always hurt me. I don't know why you can't give me another chance? We could be together, and happy... just like before...” she said to him. “I'm sorry, Trixie. It's just that I can't love you like before. There is someone else that I love...” he said to her. Kit looked up at him. She know that Calvin is talking about Joy, and although she felt hurt, she have to accept that. Then, she took out something from her bag. Both of them were shocked when Trixie pointed at gun at Calvin. “Trixie... what's this? Let's talk about this, OK?” Kit said to her, trying to calm Trixie down.. As Trixie moves closer, she went near Calvin, trying to protect him from her.. “I tried to forget you, Cal... I really did... but I just can't...”

--

Danson's mobile phone rang, he took it from his pocket, and saw Mike's name flashing on the screen. “Mike?” he said. “Danson! Where's Calvin and Kit?” Chun asked in a panicked tone. “I don't know... what's wrong?”
“Trixie! She's going to do something to Calvin. I'm trying to find her, but I can't!”
“What do you mean?”
“Her brother told me she took her dad's gun. I don't know what's on her mind, but I know she will go and find Calvin. We have to stop her!”
Danson felt his heart beating faster at what Mike said. He immediately ended the call, and dialed Chun's number. After a few rings, Chun answered his call. “Chun? Do you know where Calvin or Kit is?” he asked in a panic tone. “I don't kinow. Wait... I think they'[ll be meeting in front of the school building tonight. Why?” Chun asked.

He stood frozen. He felt as if someone poured cold water on his spine. It hit him – his dream about the gun, and Kit being shot in the head. “Oh my God...” he said in a low voice. “Chun... I need you to go find them. Trixie... she... she might do something to them...” Danson said. He ended the call, and then he dialed Mike's number. “Mike...” he said. “I know where they are. Let's meet in front of the school building. And hurry up!”

--

I'll say goodbye for the two of us
Tonight, while you sleep,
I'll kiss you softly one last time and say goodbye
Like I know we must
There’s just no other way
And I couldn’t bear to see your heart break
So I´ll wait till your asleep to say good-bye

--
“Trixie, this is not a good joke. Stop this, OK...” Calvin said, trying to calm Trixie. Trixie shook her head. “This is not a joke, Calvin. If you can't be mine, then it would be better if I kill you.” she said. “Trixie, don't do this, please. Let's talk about this...” Kit said to her. Trixie didn't listen to her. Instead, she took a step forward them. As she took another step, she began to pull the trigger. “No!” Both of them shouted.

A loud shot was heard all over the place. Kit was able to manage to block Calvin from the bullet with her body, but in the end, she was shot in at the back, in her lower head. Upon seeing the blood rushing out of Kit's head, Trixie realized just what she did. “Kit!” she heard someone say. As she turned, she saw Mike and Danson running towards them Mike got near her, and lowered her hands so as the gun would be pointed away from them. Calvin held Kit up, but she was falling on the ground. He knelt on the ground to support Kit's weak body, and as he looked at his hand covered with her blood, he realized just what happened – Kit took the bullet that was meant for her. “Kit!” he shouted. He cradled her body, and he could feel the tears falling from his eyes. He realized that at that moment, he could lose Kit forever, and with that thought, he felt scared. “Call an ambulance, now!” he shouted at Danson. Danson stood up and took his phone to call for help.

Calvin still cradled Kit into his arms. “Kit... hang in there, OK? We'll get you to the hospital...” he said to her. He held her tight. The tears were falling uncontrollably in his eyes. “Kit... stay with me... you'll be OK... you'll be OK...” he whispered.“Cal...Vin...” she said in a weak voice. “I... I'm so... rry... for every... thing... I... really am...” she said, trying to catch her breath. Calvin just cried as she watched her getting weaker and weaker. “Save all your strength, Kit. Don't try to speak. We'll get you to the hospital soon. You're going to be all right, just hang on...” he said. Kit smiled at him, and then cupped his cheek. “I... glad... you're... safe... I... feel... cold... and... tired... I... want... to... sleep...” she said. A tear fell from her eyes as she looked at him. “I... love... you... Cal... Vin... I... love... you... for... e... ver...” she whispered. She smiled weakly at him, and with her remaining strength, she reached up to him, and kissed his lips. “Kit, open your eyes. Stay awake... the ambulance will be here anytime soon.” Calvin said in between sobs. She took her last breath, and closed her eyes. “Kit, stay with me. Don't leave me...” he said to her. He shook her to wake her up, but she remained unmoved. “No... no... Kit... stay with me... hang on, OK? Don't leave me... there are still a lot of things I want to say to you... stay awake, Katherine...” he said to her as he held her tight. He didn't want her to leave. He didn't want her to be gone like that. He just can't lose her now, not now...

[Feelingerang Fuuko [Keisi]]

Chapter 55 – Finding Lost Time




The little girl happily played around the park. She held her arms up as she ran, pretending she is a bird. As she is running around, she bumped into someone, making her fall on the ground. She looked up and saw three big boys smirking at her. The one at the center was laughing at her. “Stupid kid...” he said. As she stood up, the boy walked towards her, and then pushed her on the ground again. Then, the bou began to pull her pigtails. “No!” she shouted She was trying to fight him back, but he was too strong for her. The boy pushed her, making her fall on the ground. “Look at her, she's so ugly.” one of his friends commented. The other two just snickered at her. As she fell on the ground, she didn't notice that most of the candies inside her pocket have fallen out. “Oh, look... the ugly girl have some treats for us.” he said. She looked at the ground, and saw that her favorite lollipop was lying on the ground. She began to move to take it, but they bullies were faster than her. They were able to get her lollipop before she could make a move. She looked up at them, almost crying, but the bullies just laughed at them. “Ha ha! Thanks for the candy, loser!” they said as they ran away from her.

She stood up from the ground, and slowly made her way to the swing, where her teddy bear, QQ, was sitting. She took the teddy bear, and clutched it in her arms. At least the bullies were not able to get her favorite toy. She sat on the swing, then she began to cry silently. As she was crying, she saw someone hand her a handkerchief. She looked up, and he saw a boy smiling at her. She have not seen this boy in their neighborhood before, and she thought this might be the son of the couple who moved back into the house next to theirs. “Why are you crying?” the boy asked. She just looked down, and continued to cry. “They... they took my... my lollipop...” she said in between sobs. The boy gave her a confused look. “Who?” he asked. “Those.. those bullies...” she said. Then, she looked up at him. “They... they even... pulled... my pigtails...” she said. The boy was angered by what she said. He could not bear seeing anyone being bullied, and so, he swore to himself that no matter what happens, he will protect this little girl from them. He sat beside her, and then, he put his arm around her, and smiled. “Dont worry, I'll protect you from them.” he said.

Just then, the three bullies came back. The boy stood up from her seat, and blocked the girl from them. “What do you want from her? Have you had enough? Isn't it enough that you made her cry?” he shouted at them. Their leader just smirked at him. “What is it to you? Are you her bodyguard or what?” the biggest among them asked. “I am her bodyguard. And as long as I'm with her, nobody can hurt her.” he shouted. The biggest boy looked at his sidekicks, and then smirked at the boy. “Let's see about that.” he said. The bully walked towards him, and as he was about to throw a punch at him, the boy was able to avoid his punch. In return, the boy punch the bully in his stomach. His punch was so hard that the bully fell down on the ground. “You had enough now?” the boy asked. The bullies looked at him with fear. The bully whom the boy punch immediately stood up, and ran away from him. The boy smiled to himself, and as he looked back at the little girl, he saw her smiling at him. “Thank you...” she said. “Can we be friends now?” he asked. He extended his hand to her, and smiled. “I'm Calvin Chen. And you are...” he asked. The girl took his hand, and looked up at him. “I'm Katherine Jin. But you can call me Kate.” she said. “Nice meeting you, Kit.” he said. She looked at him and gave him a pout. “It's Kate, not Kit.” she said. “OK, Kit.” he said. Instead of getting mad of him for mispronouncing her nickname, she laughed at him. “Fine, I'll let you call me Kit.” she said. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. “Nice meeting you, Kit. I hope we can be best of friends.” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head.

The two headed back home. Kit was surprised to see that Calvin was indeed their new neighbor. “Wow! This is great! Not only we are best of friends, we're also neighbors!” she said. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. “Hey, is your room the pink one?” he asked. Kit nodded her head. “Wow... my room is just in front of your room.” he said. Kit's eyes widened at what he said. “Really? Then, that's great! We can talk over the window, right?” she asked. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. Just then, Calvin's mom called him. Calvin looked at her, then held her hand. “Come on, I'll introduce you to my mom.” he said. Then, he pulled her to their house, and introduced Kit to his mom, dad, and elder brother. His mom was happy to know that her son was able to make friends soon.

“Calvin, thank you for today.” she said as soon as his family got inside their new house. Then, she handed him her teddy bear. “I'm giving you this, to thank you. Take care of QQ, as she's my favorite, OK?” she said. Calvin looked up at her, and smiled. “You're giving this to me?” he asked. She smiled and nodded her head. “Thank you, Kit. Don't worry, I'll take care of QQ.” he promised. “Thanks, Calvin. I'll see you tomorrow outside your house, OK? Let's go and play at the park again tomorrow afternoon.” she said. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. He watched his new friend as she walked towards their house. Then, Kit paused, and looked back at him. She waved goodbye to him before she got inside their house.

--

Memories of how they first met flashed back through Calvin's mind as he rushed Kit inside the Operating room. He held her hand tight, his eyes filled with tears as he looked at her. He could see her getting weaker and weaker by each second. “Hold on, Kit... hold on...” he said to her. As they reached the door of the operating room, he have to let go of Kit's hand. He attempted to get inside, but one of the doctors stopped him. “I'm sorry, but you are not allowed to get inside.” the doctor said. “But Doc... my friend...” he said. The doctor smiled at him, and patted his shoulder. “She's in good hands. Don't worry, we'll do our best to save her.” he said. Then, the doctor went inside the room.

He remained standing in front of the door, as if he is in a daze. Just then, Danson came, and put his arm around him to comfort him. “She'll be OK... you don't have to worry, Cal... Kit's a strong girl. She'll hold on... she'll be fine...” he said. Calvin just slowly nodded his head. Knowing that Calvin is still in a state of shock, Danson led him to seat on the chair, as they waited for the doctors to go out of the room and tell them of Kit's condition. Soon after, Kit's parents and his parents came. He looked up at her mom, and he saw her in tears. “What happened?” Mr. Jin asked. Calvin opened his mouth to speak, but words got stuck in his throat. Each time he attempted to speak, tears fall from his eyes. Danson looked at Calvin worriedly, then, he faced Kit's parents. He explained what happened to their daughter, how Trixie attempted to kill Calvin, and how Kit saved Calvin's life by blocking him from the bullet that was meant for him. “It's all my fault...” Calvin finally said. “I... I could have saved her... but... but...” he paused as the tears began to fall from his eyes again. Mrs. Jin sat beside him, and comforted him. Both of them were now crying. “It's not your fault, Calvin. It's all that Trixie's fault! She wanted to kill you, and my daughter was only trying to save you.” she said. Calvin buried his face on his palm and sobbed. “No... you don't understand, Auntie...” he said. Then, he looked up and faced Mrs. Jin. “I caused her this... all the pain... It's my fault that... that she's dying...” he said. He looked at his father, and for the first time, he saw him in tears. Mr. Jin clenched his fist, and as he turned his back, he punched the wall before him. “I swear... even if that Trixie came from a very rich family... I swear she will pay for what she have done for my daughter...” he said. Mr. Chen walked towards Mr. Jin, and then rubbed his back to calm him down.

After a while, Chun, Jiro and Joy came rushing up to them. “We came as soon as we heard.” Chun said as they got near them. “Mike surrendered Trixie to the police, and are now investigating her.” he continued. Mr. Jin looked up at Chun, then back at Calvin's parents. “I know I should be here for my daughter, but I think it would be for the best if I go to the police first to file a case against her.” he said. Mr. Chen nodded his head. “I'll go with you, Tony.” he said. Mrs. Chen gave a faint smile at the two elder man. “I'll stay here with Joanne and Calvin's friends. Don't worry, Tony, we'll let you know whatever it is that's happening with Kit. All that you have to do is file the case against that murderer.” she said.

After a while, the doctor came out of the operating room. Mrs. Jin, Mrs. Chen and Calvin immediately stood up from their seats, and walked up to the doctor “Doc, what happened? How is she?” he asked. The doctor pulled his mask, and then looked at him. “She lost a lot of blood, and she needs a blood transfusion now. We can't continue with the operation if she'll lose a lot of blood.” he said. Jiro heard what the doctor said, so he stood up from his seat and walked towards them. “I... I volunteer... I'm willing to give my blood... just save our friend, doctor.” he said. Calvin glared at him upon hearing what he said. “Why are you always getting in my way, Jiro? And how can you be sure that you have the same blood type as Kit?” he told him. Jiro looked at him. He sighed, and then shook his head. “I know me and Kit have the same blood type. At least if I give her my blood, I could repay Kit for saving me ten years ago. Don't tell me that you wouldn't want me to help Kit? You want her to be saved as well, right?” Jiro snapped back at him. Calvin sighed, and ignored his remark. He turned to the doctor. “I... I have the same blood type as Kit. I'm willing to give my blood as well.” he said. The doctor smiled, and then nodded his head. “It's good that the two of you volunteered to donate blood. She have lost a lot of blood, and we need the two of you...” the doctor said.

--

It has been two hours and they are still waiting for the doctor to come out of the OR. Everyone could see the worried look on Calvin's face as he was praying hard for Kit's recovery.”Calvin...” Joy said as she sat beside him. Calvin looked at her blankly, then turned away from him. “Kit's going to be all right...” he heard her say. “Why are you saying this now...” he said. Then, he glared at her. “You don't have to pretend that you care about Kit. I know how much you hate her.” he snapped at her. “I care for Kit. She's also my friend...” Joy said in a low voice. Calvin let out a faint laugh, and then glared at her again. “Friend? You consider yourself Kit's friend?” he asked. He stood up from his seat, and then looked down at her. “How can you consider yourself as her friend, if you are the reason for her heartbreak?! Are you happy now that she might be gone? Are you happy now that in some way, you had your revenge on her? Are you that she have suffered the most painful thing in the world?” Calvin shouted at them. Danson, Chun and Jiro could see the commotion between the two. The three stood up from their seats, and then went up to Calvin and Joy. “Stop it, Calvin...” Danson told him as he pulled him away from Joy. “Are you happy now that Kit is dying now, huh?! Now, no one can get in your way when it comes to Jiro!” he shouted at her. Joy was crying hard as Calvin shouts at her. Jiro was by her side, consoling her. “I didn't want her to die...” Joy said in between sobs. Then, she looked up at him with tears on her eyes. “I admit, I hated her... I hate her for breaking my heart. I hated her for taking away Jiro from me, and for falling in love with you... but this is not what I wanted, Calvin. I didn't want this to happen to her...” she said. She stood up from her seat, and tried to reach for Calvin. As she reached for him, Calvin slapped her hand away from him. “I don't need you, Joy. I don't need your pity right now.” he said. Jiro consoled Joy as she cried, then he glared at Calvin. “Why are you blaming Joy for everything? This wouldn't have happened to Kit if it wasn't your fault! You've done something in the past to Trixie, that's why she attempted to kill you, you bastard! You should be the one who should have been shot in the head, and not Kit! It's all your fault, Calvin. All your fault!” Jiro shouted at him.

Angered by what he said, Calvin moved towards him, and punched him in the face. Jiro lost his balance, and fell on the floor. Joy came to him, and helped him to stand up. “It was not me who cheated her with his ex-girlfriend, Jiro!” Calvin shouted at him. Jiro looked at him angrily, and the walked towards him. Before he could come closer to Calvin, Chun already got in his way to stop them from further hurting each other. “Stop it, guys! You're not helping out if you'll act this way!” he shouted at the two. “I was not the one who ended our friendship just because of a stupid paper crane, Calvin! Why can't you forgive her for all the things she have done?! She loves you and in the end, she chose you over it, d**n it!” Jiro shouted back at him. Calvin paused, and then stared at Jiro. His expression softened as the tears fall from his eyes. “You're right... it's all my fault...” he said in a low voice. “I had my chance to tell her how I feel. I had my chance... but God took it away from me in a second...”

Just then, the door of the operating room opened, and the doctor came out. All of them looked at the doctor as he approached them. He took off his mask, and Calvin could see the loneliness in his eyes. “We did our best...” he began. All of them became silent at what the doctor said. Mrs. Jin began to sob, as well as Calvin's mother. “Her body was getting weaker, and as we took the bullet off her head, her body gave up. I'm sorry... but she... she's gone...” the doctor continued.. Calvin shook his head violently. He doesn't want to believe what the doctor said. “You're lying...” he said in a low voice. “You said she's going to be all right after the blood transfusion. You said you will save her. She can't die...” he said. The doctor lowered his head. “I'm really sorry. We really tried to save your friend.” he said. He turned his back to retreat back to the operating room, but Calvin stopped him. He pulled the doctor to face him again. “Save her! You can still save her! It's not yet too late... maybe... maybe you were wrong... maybe she's still alive!” he said to the doctor as he cried. “Please, doctor... save her... save Kit. I can't lose her....” he pleaded again. The doctor shook his head. “I'm really sorry...” the doctor said. Calvin paused, and looked at him. “You're lying...” he said in a low voice. He held the doctor by his collar, and glared at him. Danson immediately came up to him to stop him. “Cal... stop this... we have to accept that Kit is gone!” he said. “You're lying! What kind of a doctor are you? Why can;t you save the girl I love?! Go back to that room and do your job! Retrieve her, it's your job, d**n it!” Calvin shouted at him. Chun helped Danson to pull Calvin away from the doctor. “Stop it, Cal! That won't bring Kit back to life!” Chun told him. He was also crying because of the doctor's news. Calvin let go of the doctor, and before he turn his back to leave, he let out a sad smile at him. “God knows, I did my best to save her... but God have better plans for her. I save lives, but I also have my limitations. I'm if I failed you...” he said before he left.

Calvin fell on his knees as he broke down. He could not accept that Kit is already gone. He felt that more than half of his body became paralyzed at her loss. “No...” he said as he cried. “Why did you leave me, Kit? Why? I have a lot of things to tell you.. to let you know...” he said. He wiped the tear from his eyes, then he stood up. He looked at his friends, and he could see that they were crying as well. “This is just a dream. We'll soon wake up from this dream. Tell me that this is just a dream.” he said. He looked at Joy, and saw her shake her head. “No... this is reality, Cal... Kit... she... she left us...” she said. Calvin shook his head. “No... it's not true... We'll soon wake up from this nightmare. Kit is still with us...” he said. Chun pulled Calvin to face him. He put his hands on his shoulder, and shook him. “Calvin! You have to accept the fact that she is gone. The doctor did their best to save her!” Chun shouted at him. Calvin clenched his fist as he glared at him. Then, he threw a strong punch at him. Danson immediately came up to Calvin, and punched him the face, making him fall on the floor. “God d**n it, Cal! Hurting us won't bring Kit back to life! You're not the only one who's grieving here! All of us does! We also lost a friend, Calvin... not just you. We also lost Kit... but we have to accept this. She's gone forever!” Danson shouted at him. Everyone fell silent, all eyes were on Calvin. He stood up from the floor, and then looked at the door of the operating room. “No. I could never accept that.” he said. Then, he began to run towards the operating room. Before anyone could stop him, he have already gone inside.

--

He entered the operating room, and he looked at the machine beside Kit. It has flat lines on it. “What are you doing here? You are not allowed inside this room!” One of the nurses said. Before the nurse could push Calvin out, the doctor stopped the nurse. “Let him be...” he said. Calvin was in a daze as he walked towards Kit's lifeless body. “We did our best...” the doctor said. Calvin looked at him sadly and nodded his head. As he reached her bedside, he knelt down, and held her hand. A tear fell from his eyes as she watched her face. “Why? Why did you have to leave me so soon? Why didn't you give me the chance to let you know how I feel inside. I have a lot of things to tell you, Kit... you can't die yet, Kit... not now. I haven't even told you that I love you... that I loved you since the very first day I met you. I haven't said I'm sorry for being the first one to break our promise. Why did you leave me, without letting you fell what I really feel for you? Please come back, Kit... come back for me...” he said. He buried his head on her hand, and then cried for a while. After a while, he heard a beeping sound from the machine. He looked up at Kit, and saw a tear fall from her eyes. He looked at her hand which he was holding, and then saw it moved. The doctor was surprised to see that the flat line on the machine suddenly went up. “She.. she's still alive.” he said. The doctor called on the nurses, and then they tried to resuscitate Kit.

As the nurses did their best to bring Kit back to life, Calvin stepped back and smiled. “Kit.. you heard me. Hold on... don't give up. I'll be waiting for you... don't give up on us...” he said in a low voice. The doctor looked back at Calvin, then he walked towards him. He smiled at him, as he patted hi shoulder. “I don't know what you did, but this is indeed a miracle. Maybe God have better plans for your friend, son. Don't worry, this time, we'll do our best to save her.” the doctor said. Calvin smiled at him and nodded his head. As he turn his back to leave the operating room, the doctor called on him again. “Son, I want to know... is she a special girl to you?” the doctor asked. Calvin looked back and smiled faintly. He shook his head, and said. “No... she's the other half of me.”

--

“We were able to retrieve the bullet from her head. We can say that the operation is successful. However, based on some tests, we're seeing some blood clots in some parts of her brain, and I'm afraid this would complicate her recovery.” The doctor explained to them as soon as Kit was placed on the ICU. Calvin was listening to the doctor as he was watching Kit from the window. “What complications?” Mr. Jin asked. “I'm afraid she will be in a coma indefinitely. The next 72 hours would be critical to her. As long as her body is responding to the medications after 72 hours, she would be safe.” the doctor explained. “Will... will our daughter wake up? After 72 hours?” Mrs. Jin asked. The doctor paused. When Calvin did not hear an answer from the doctor, he looked at him. He saw him shake his head. “As I've said, she'll be in a coma indefinitely. Maybe she will be able to wake up soon. As long as the clot has not been dissolved, she would not wake up. But after she wakes up, you have to ready yourself for a lot of possibilities.” he explained. “What possibilities?” Mrs. Jin asked again. “There's a possibility of amnesia. There's a possibility that she would not be normal again, and become paralyzed and a vegetable. There's also a possibility that she...” The doctor paused, and looked at Calvin. “There's a possibility that she will die eventually...”

Calvin turned his eyes away from the doctor, and continued to watch Kit. He heard Mrs. Jin crying, and Mr. Jin was consoling her. He looked closely at Kit, and he felt pity at her. Her head was bandaged, and there was a tube on her mouth. There were a lot of machines that were connected to her body, a lot of tubes on her body. It seems to him that Kit's life now depends on these machines. “Wake up, Kit... Wake up... I can't lose you. You're a strong girl, remember? Prove to me, to us, to these doctors that you don't need those machines to make you live. You don't need that respirator to help you breathe. Kit... please...” he said in a low voice. He closed his eyes as he leaned on the glad. “I can live if you had amnesia. I will help you bring back those memories we had. We can also make new good memories. I can live if you become paralyze or become a vegetable, I assure you that I will take care of you until we grow old. Just... just don't die, Kit... don't leave me. I can't lose you...”

He felt someone stand beside him. He looked at his side, and saw Chun. “She's a brave girl. A really brave girl.” Chun said. Calvin just nodded his head. Then, he continued to watch Kit. “I can't bear to see her like this. It's breaking my heart...” he said in a low voice. “Kit came back for you... I know.” Chun said. “I'm scared...” Chun looked at Calvin, his friend did not take his eyes off Kit. “The doctor... they said... she... she might eventually die. I'm too scared to lose her...”
“She was scared to lose you too, Calvin.”
Calvin paused, then he looked at Chun. “Reason why she hid the truth about being your paper crane girl. I know deep in her heart, she wanted to tell you... but she was also scared that if you found out, you have to end your friendship.” he said. “If I knew it was her back then, I would still accept her.” Calvin said. Chun smiled at Calvin, then looked at Kit. “I knew back then that you are in love with Kit. Remember when we were still in middle school up until we're in high school? Every Valentine's day, she would make chocolates for me. She have a huge crush on me, and you were so jealous. So, you would ask me and threaten me not to take her chocolates. So, every Valentine's day, I would ignore her so that you could have her chocolates.” Chun said. Calvin smiled faintly as he remembered those days. “I know... and on our last year in high school, she was so determined to give you her chocolates because she know once we graduate, she will never have the chance to give you those chocolates. But a day before, I asked you that favor again...” Calvin said. Chun smiled and nodded his head. “I got this chocolates from Ella Chen, but she was asking me to give it to Toma-chan. Kit saw us, and she thought that I was accepting Ella's feelings. She told me that she's happy for me and Ella...” As chun remembered how Kit looked like then, he laughed. “She was so sad that day... she had no choice but to give me her chocolates. I ate it all... I never accepted any chocolates from my admirers because...”
“Because you could not accept their feelings. Because you only had your eyes on Kit.”

Calvin looked at Chun, and slowly nodded his head. “Everyone thought the two of you would end up together, but you decided to stick with your promise..” Chun said. “Because I thought she stick to hers... if I knew right then that she loves me, I shouldn't have made that deal with her...” Calvin said. “Every Valentine's day, you would ask your sidekick, Eric Li, to buy you peach roses outside the school. Every Valentine's day, you would leave those peach roses by her locker with the note saying it came from her knight in shining armor...” Upon hearing what Chun said, the smile on Calvin's face slowly disappeared. “But this time, I did not became her knight in shining armor...” he said. “I used to save her, to protect her. But this time, she chose to save me...”
“Because she knows that if she loses you forever, it's as good as she dying with you. She sacrificed herself for you... because she loves you too much.”
“And I was not even able to reciprocate that love. I did not even had the chance to tell her that I love her...”
Chun looked at him, and then put his arm around him. “You now have your chance, Calvin. She may not be awake, but she could hear what you are saying to her. She could feel what you want her to feel. Don't lose this opportunity, Calvin.”

--

“Auntie Jin...” Calvin said as he opened the door of Kit's room. He looked inside, and saw Mrs. Jin preparing Kit's clothes. “Oh, you're here, Calvin...” Mrs. Jin said. She put the clothes she's holding inside the bag. “Kit hates hospital gowns. Maybe we could ask them if dress Kit in her favorite pajamas...” she said. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. He entered the room, and then sat on her bed. He looked around, and saw that her room is stripped off with their memories together. “A few days back, Kit came home, and decided to put everything away. She put all of your pictures and all the things you gave her in a box, and hid it inside her closet. Maybe it's her way of letting you go...” Mrs. Jin said. Calvin looked up at her, and then she sat beside Calvin. “I don't know what happened to the two of you. Every night, I would hear her cry. During the time she skipped school for a week, she didn't want to go out of her room, and just cried all night. I thought she would get worse when she and Jay broke up, but I was glad to see that she was much stronger that time...” The elder woman looked at him, and then smiled. “She loves you very much, Calvin. Whenever the two of you fought, she would cry herself to sleep. I hope that whatever it is that she have done to you, you have forgiven her.” she said. “I was at fault, Auntie. I've hurt her a lot of times...” he said in a low voice.

Mrs.. Jin stood up, and then went to Kit's closet. She took a small wooden box, and then gave it to Calvin. “I believe she puts all of your memories together in this box. I'm giving this to you, so that you would understand how much my daughter have valued your friendship. You are very important to Kit, Calvin... more important than Jay. Maybe after you have taken a look inside this box, you would know how much Katherine loves you.” Calvin took the box from the elder woman. He looked at her as she left the room. As soon as he is alone, he opened the box, and the very first thing he saw was their picture which was taken during their high school graduation. He could feel the tears falling from his eyes as he looked at that picture. Kit was smiling brightly that time, as he hugged her. At one corner, he saw their friendship bracelet, which he gave to her on that summer that he was not able to go with her at the resort.

[Flashback]
“I want to give you this before I leave...” Calvin said. Then, he held up a blue friendship bracelet. Kit's eyes widened as she saw that. “Wow! That's the friendship bracelet we made in our Home Economics class?” she asked. Calvin nodded his head. “You gave me yours, so I'm giving this to you. Sorry it took me so long to get this... I have to hide these from the other girls.” he explained. Kit laughed at him.

Kit extended her hand to him, and then Calvin put the friendship bracelet on her wrist. “Don't ever lose this OK? If you lose this, you have to find me a blue shell.” he said. “Of course I won't lose this!” Kit said. “I don't trust you. You tend to lose a lot of things. Remember the whistle I gave you during scouting days? You lost it.” he said. Kit put her hands on her waist and glared at him. “I did not!” she shouted at him. Calvin folded his arm and smirked at her. “Then, where is it?” he asked. Kit just stared at him, not answering his question. “It... It's somewhere... in my room.” she said. Calvin just laughed at his best friend. “OK... I believe you when you said it's in your room. Just promise me you won't lose this bracelet, OK?” he said. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “Will you promise to call me once you're already at the resort?” he asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “Promise me you'll call me once you're there at your grandma's, OK?” she said. Calvin nodded his head. He said his goodbye to his best friend and ran back inside their house.

[End of flashback]

Calvin put the friendship bracelet back inside the box. Then, he smiled as he saw the whistle that he gave her during their scouting days. He have always thought that Kit have lost it. It was important to him, because he used that whistle when it was his first time to become a patrol leader. He could still clearly remember the day he gave her the whistle.

[Flashback]

“Kit?” Calvin said as he approached Kit, who was standing beside her tent. “I don't want to go hiking! You know I'm bad with directions!” she protested. Calvin just laughed at her. “Wei, you're in my patrol! I won't let you get lost.” he said. Kit pouted as she folded her arms. “I just don't trust myself...” she said. She lowered her head, and then stared at the ground. Calvin smiled, and then he took his whistle from his pocket. He took Kit's hands, and then gave the whistle to her. Kit looked at the whistle, and then he gave Calvin a confused look. “Wei? Why are you giving this to me?” she asked. “You need it more that I need it. Besides, I can ask Teacher to give me another whistle.”
“But why are you giving your whistle to me?”
Calvin smiled at her. “If you feel you got lost, or you're in danger, use that whistle to call me. Wherever I am, I will be able to hear you... and I promise I'll come to you.” he said. Kit smiled at Calvin, and then gave him a hug. “Thanks, Calvin!” she said. “You're the bestest bet friend in the whole wide world!”

[End of Flashback]

Calvin wiped the tear from his eyes as he put the whistle inside the box. He looked inside the box again, and he saw the button that Kit took from his uniform on their high school graduation.

[Flashback]

“Congratulations!” Kit said as he hugged Calvin. “Uh... Kit... I can't breathe!” Calvin said. Kit let him go, and then laughed at him. “Wei, now that we're in college, you can separate yourself from me. I promise I won't be a pain in your ass anymore.” she said. Calvin laughed at her. “Wei! I still want you to be my biggest headache that's why I decided to enroll in the same school that you'll be studying.” he said. Kit put her hands on her waist, and then glared at him. “Wei! Calvin Chen! Have we talked about this a thousand times? It's going to be National Taiwan University for you, not St. John's!” she said. “Aiyo! Don't be mad at me. Aren't you glad that we would go to the same school again? Imagine, I can be you driver! Besides, I know you will fail math, so you will definitely need me.” he said proudly. Kit rolled her eyes at him. “Fine... just don't change majors, OK? You promised me you will take up Architecture so that you could help be build my dream house in the future.” she said. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. “I promise.”

Kit looked at his chest, and saw that he still have the second button on his uniform. “Weird, I thought all the girls were asking you for that button.” she asked. Calvin smiled and nodded his head. “They did. But I lied, saying I'm saving it for someone. I want to be the first guy from Claret Academy to graduate with the button of uniform still stitched on it.” he said. Kit looked up at Calvin, and gave him a vicious smile. From the way she smiles, he could tell that an evil idea hit his head. “Kit?” he asked. Kit moved closer to him, and before he knew it, Kit took his button. “Got it! Ha ha! You did not graduate with your button still stitched on!” Kit said. She ran away from him, but Calvin did not bother to follow her. After all, he was reserving that button for Kit.

[End of flashback]

As Calvin put back the button inside the box, an old, dried rose petal caught his eye. He took it and stared at it for a long time. He thought, maybe it's one of the roses he gave Kit during Valentine's day.

[Flashback]

At one corner, Calvin an Eric were hiding as they watched Kit open her locker. “You're so weird, Calvin...” Eric said. Calvin gave him a confused look. “Why do you always have to leave those roses at Kit's locker? Why can't you give it to her directly?” Eric asked. Calvin put his pointer finger on his lips, making a quiet sign to Eric. He eyed on Kit again, and saw her smile as she saw the roses on her locker. She closed her locker, and then walked away happily. “Have you seen that, Eric? She liked the roses I gave her!” he said happily.

--

“I got roses from someone today.” Kit said as they were walking home. “Oh...” Calvin said, smiling to himself. “It says it came from my secret admirer named Knight...” she continued. “So, you have a secret admirer now, huh?” he asked. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “Ever since middle school, I always get roses from him. I wonder who he is...” Kit said. She put her hand at her back, and walked. “It must be someone who knows how sad I am for not being able to give my chocolates to Chun...” she continued. Then, Kit paused and looked up at Calvin. “Thanks for you beautiful roses, Calvin. You really know that peach roses are my favorites.”

[End of Flashback]

Calvin's tears were falling endlessly. All the things that Kit have kept inside that box brings back their happy memories together. He closed his eyes as he let those tears fall. “I ruined everything between us... we could still be happy, but I ruined it...” he said. When he opened his eyes, he saw a paper crane inside the box. He took it, and then he noticed a pink envelope with his name on it. He took the envelop, and opened it. He began to read Kit's letter for him.
.

Dear Calvin,

I'm sorry for everything... I'm sorry that I have fallen in love with you. God knows I tried to stop this madness, but with those little things you do each day, it makes me love you even more. I know you will never give me a chance to hear me out. Even though you will never be able to get this letter, I still wrote this for you to let you know what I truly feel.

I fell in love with you on our last Valentine's day in high school. I don't know... but that day, I've started to see you in a different light. I thought you felt the same way for me, because I found out that you were 'Knight', the one who always leaves the peach roses on my locker each day... but when I asked you what you think of me, you said you only see me as a friend. It broke my heart, because I thought we would have a chance. I thought that you were also willing to forget that promise, but everyday, you would remind me of that. Then, someone caught your eyes, and your heart. It was Joy. Calvin, I was scared when you told me that you have fallen in love with her. I thought I would lose you to her, but then she got together with Jiro, but that didn't stop you from loving her secretly.

I know that if I won't be able to tell you how I feel, I would burst out. That's why I started to leave those paper cranes for you... those paper cranes, and those love notes... When you told me that you have fallen in love with the paper crane girl and that you would accept her whoever she is, It sparked this little hope in my heart. I wanted to tell you badly that it was me, but I remembered our promise. I remembered our promise, and how you remind me of it each day. You made me feel as if I have no right to love you, that's why I stopped giving you those paper cranes. When you started to look for me again, I told myself that I will only love you secretly, and that thing I'm doing, I will continue doing it until the day I have finally learned to give you up, and realize that what I feel for you is wrong. I was scared of how you would react if you found out that your best friend is in love with you... I never had the courage to let you know in person that I love you. I was so scared to lose you if you found out I am in love with you, scared that you will have to end our friendship.

I'm sorry if you felt that I only played with your feelings. It didn't meant to be like that. Whatever it is that I've said to you in those notes, it came from my heart, and it's what I feel in my heart. I'm sorry for not being brave enough to tell you the truth. I'm sorry if I lied to you. I know I've hurt a lot of people, especially you... but I was hurt as well. I take the blame for ruining everything...

I hope that now that I have kept my distance from you, you would be able to forgive me. I miss you so much... and it hurts a lot... I love you... you don't have to love me back, but I'll be giving you my heart anyway...

Kit

--

“I'm sorry, Kit...” Calvin said in a low voice after he read the letter. “I loved you even before... I'm sorry that I was a coward to not let you know...” He closed his eyes, and a tear fell on the letter. Now, he fully understand how Kit have loved him so much. Those subtle hints in the past, those missed opportunities, those unspoken words, those little clues that the two of them could have a chance together.. he have let them pass and turned a blind eye on them. He wished he could turn back time, and change the past.

All that he is feeling now is regret after finding their lost time....

[Feelingerang Mo Mo [chunina]]

May himalaaaaaaa!
Waah. Nagkaron ng himala dahil kay Cal.
infernez, Yay! Nabuhay si Kit! yeheyyyyyyyy